OPEN LETTER

I'm missing u right at this very moment,
I just don't know how to tell u what i feel,
I've been confused for weeks now,
There are questions on my mind,
That are really hard to answer,
I don't know if I should tell you,
I don't even know if you should know,
It doesn't make sense, i used to be strong,
and I could handle almost anything,
But now it's really different,
There's one thing I'm sure of,
It's growing everyday!
It has taken over half of my mind,
I'm fighting it, but the more I fight
The greater i feel the defeat.
The more I suppress it, the stronger it becomes,
The more i hide it, the greater it's transparency,
The more i want to forget it, the greater the agony,
You have affected me,
You have made me realize,
I'm not strong and as independent as i thought i am,
You make me face the fact that i need someone,
To always be in laughter, in songs in grief,
And even in silence.........
There's never a dull moment with you,
I feel safe with you, i feel empty without your presence,
How could I tell you, how could i even know,
When to tell you..... to tell you that,
I LOVE YOU

DEDICATED TO ALLAN TRAN