She Cried

Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Wesley/Cordelia
Summary: "She cried a lot now, more often than she ever had in high school."
Disclaimer: All hail Joss, the master of all things Angel...
Distribution: Morphine Tears. Anywhere else, just let me know where it's going.
Author's Note: This is post-season three, but Cordelia never went all grrr... Dedicated to Eva, Patrizia, and all the other wonderful Cordy/Wes shippers who keep me writing.

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She cried a lot now, more often than she ever had in high school. Her icy exterior melted into a glassy, crystalline puddle that threatened to drown her at any moment. She cried for their losses, whether it be death, or just the common drifting of unattached souls. After all, there wasn't much bonding them to each other anymore, not with the distrust still looming, tangible in the cold air that stained pale skin a nervous shade of pink. She cried for the missed opportunities, the dimming hope of chances that had long faded into her background of hazy, tear-filled nights. For the moments, so quickly passed as she dreamt of a future that could never really be anything more than dreams. For the memories of faces that soon would become but flickers, like tiny stars trapped in a net of brightly burning light.


But mostly, she cried for him. For the times that he would need someone to hold him, but lie awake in a cold, empty bed. For the constant chill that would surround his already tortured heart, closing him off from anyone that he had once held dear. For the steel grey eyes that beckoned for someone to welcome him home, but were forced to look away from the death-cold stare of the unforgiving. She cried for the knowledge that sins far worse than his own went unspoken of, but left him staring across cracked, pitch-black pavement that mirrored the edges of his heart. For the yearning she felt to cast away all that bound her there, to join him across the pavement and defy all those who judge him. For the realization that she could never escape the prison-like confinement that she's kept in, locked away behind visions that tied her to one man alone.


Through long nights of lost hope and broken dreams, she cried.


<--- once again, i know