Chapter Eleven:Pornographic Lovely


Photographed echos vibrating through my eyes. images so vivid yet blured in withthese tears pouring from the sheltered onto heal those wounds. candy canes swirled into this brain damaged child. a child so frail they shall forever be kept. never released. live on a shelf collecting dust, whillle i fade into shades of blue. burning embers scalding the flesh of the damned and i live on. comtinuing life on a shelf of dust collectables so fragile. mussn't let me off. shaking with a deep freeze manic depression slowly seeping into the cracked sidewalk somewhat resembeling these eyelashes so delicate. batting and flicking every which way. hoping to someday find the right way and when i walk on in my circles and never do stop, these embers they crush me and i cant stay up. sinking so deeply now, into the black hole. crying and screaming for no one to know. and these thoughts race through my field of vision. throbing in my veins heart beats so sweet. they smell of nail polish remover and pepermint flakes. scolding all who consume the consumed. consume me for i am the one produce a better way, reform and regret. intellectual drones all believing the same words of wisdom. ha! close them. flutter, blink and it starts to burn. tingle at first. be aware it gets worse. suffered through this, unknowingly survived and come along to re-inact this great strive. concluded by thoughts to be thought of again as the snow flakes do fall and carry me in. into the graves of remarkable glow and into the lives of the ones i will show. sadly diminished all worth wanting to me. I hate you. you love this. wont you wish on me? swelling begins and that salt water does come in small whispy speckles of angelic dust. forever forgiven until i give in. and shall ten be re-liven with all of my sons although it seems hateful and cruel at least this mirage is the equivilent to belle and that beast. so why must we torture these souls so alone. the flea from our presence they fear the unknown. step into my office and finish the song. as long as i'm here, i have not yet gone.

chapter one
falling into forever
sugar and blood