Chapter Four:Religion of You


alone in the dark, nothing to do. nothing to say. alone without an opinion. the shadows of life have taken over. desperately needing to confess with no one to listen. you're all here.. but where am i? alone and afraid of whats coming next. you cannot change this. change they system. try and fail, try agan, you will not suceed. what has been done cannot be changed. and what will happen next is uncontrollable. useless, meaningless. change of mind leads to change of opinion, and change of personality. but i cannot be changed they tell me what has been believed for so many generations, and what will be believed for many generations to come. but you cannot make me believe. you say it again. i disagree. lets just agree to disagree. no, you wont. you have to continue ruining my life. you have to be right. always. you're never wrong. you're bigger, stronger, older, smarter, you're everything that i'm not. and it kills you that i'm not you. everything happens for a reason. a day comes and goes. you wont accept the path i chose. repeat your lies, a million times. hoping to make me believe. you still cannot change my mind. "hail mayr full of grace the lord is with you" you.. with you.. not me. so go away, i dont need you or your beliefs. i have my own and you cant touch them. they're hidden so far beneth the skin, you'll never know whats burried within. they say you neer know how much you need something until its gone. when i leave, you'll know. you need me but i dont need you. and i dont want you. i've moved on, but you havnt you cannto survive witout me and i cannot survive with you. who will you express yourself onto? who will you display your painful and pitiful sense of affecton to? who will be there when you finally get hurt? not me. i'm goine and now its your turn to be alone. but remember this, because i know deep inside, you cant live without it. sometiems lies are the most comforting things. but to base your entire life, your entire existance on them isnt healthy or right. i can handle reality. but you cant. so always remember, you have your lies. they are yours. and you can have them all. because the lord is with you. with you.. i stand alone..
Chapter Five
falling into forever
sugar and blood