030403|| 5:27PM.|| shake dat ting miss
finally got the pictures up. they kinda suck and they couldnt catch the detail but its a sweet dress. it wasnt 3rd choice though. cuz yeah, size DOES matter. adur.
KNOCK YO'SELF OUT!
^pics of my dress ^^;; yup. well things are sorta lookin up in life. heh. major plugs to
lisa for...just for bein so damn cool! also
cathie cuz shes just so damn cool too...XD and also...to...
mandee for her little comments that just turn my day around and make me feel good. ^^;; i love you alllllll!
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
030303|| 5:27PM.|| dont wanna be just like you
well well. i finally found THE dress. i'll post it later when im not lazy. it's really nice. too bad i can't look as nice as the god damn dress. meh. -_-;;
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
030203|| 5:27PM.|| nothing
i feel horrible. i hate my life. the only thing worth fucking living for in my life are the people who lie to me and call themselves my friends. i cant even trust them. what the fuck is that? yes, what the fuck, not wtf, because im not a piece of shit that's too scared to curse. if there was one person i could get away with killing it would be my mother, the person who has ruined my life the most, either that or that dumbass dawg. god damn. i'm just..so..fucking pissed right now.
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
022803|| 7:36PM.|| 8 months...it woulda been 8 months...
*sigh* life is tiring and stressful. and im too lazy to make a bubble baff...and i don't have a good book. -_-;; *geek* and it's too dark to go for a walk. tomorrow im gonna go try on prom dresses witthh laurena and karry for gradumatation. for fun, yanno? then i'll actually go back and buy some. ^_^ hehe. it's been 4 weeks, and i still haven't wallowed! i need to wallow! i'll semi-wallow in the daytime while im at kerrys house. its perfect too. kerry always has the best junk. :P i like being at kerry's house. it's very...un...stressful. heh. i wish i lived there. XD ahhaha. i know maggie would never go for that. :P my tummy hurts... i wonder how mixtli's doing... im too lazy to plan what im gonna do when kim comes for the summer from 8o8. then again, i am the laziest person on earth. haven't gotten the soundbytes thing up, but i do have a new layout-o. {heart} it, no? it's different.
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
022603|| 6:16PM.|| get me?
hmm...im thinkin of puttin up a soundbyte for every blog i do...but...thats only if i get lazy. haha...man! i'm so excited about graduation! everyones buying dresses! we're going on our retreat! then we're gonna go to great america then to the beach to tan listen to music and chill on a beach towel at camp. wOo! man...i'm gonna miss everybody though. *sneff* been 9 years of going to SPM...but...gotta cherish the moments. XD
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
022503|| 8:12PM.|| they just...come...
have you ever...tried to fight back tears...but they just kept coming? and you couldn't do anything about it? i hate crying. i could never cry in front of anyone...it's embarassing. i hate it when people talk about times i've cried. embarassing. jeez. skipped half of school today. yay. i feel like shit right now. ha, i know im so ungrateful, some good things have been happening to me and i still bitch and whine. haha.
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
022303|| 8:32AM.|| its a beautiful mo'nin !!!
well...as you can see i have a new website. *sigh* same thing happened at
Athenae as did at DKNet. new name; crybabygirl. yep.;corniness. at first it was only crybaby, but i thought for a second about the time valencia mispelled baby girl(baby gril) on a huge art thing for open house. so i decided to add 'girl' for sheer st00pidity. anyway, i picked this out of 5 different layouts that i made before, so you better like it; psh. its my first vector layout. not very creative/unique/whatevers, i know, but i like it and ha...well...that's all i care about; you know, my being a selfish bitch? ;P
jose|| *PLUG*|| seeme
name:josie
age:13
b.day:1o.3o.89
sex:girl
location:bay erya, california
my life forever remains a mistake
I was born in Hayweird, CA to a family of Filipinos in the Kaiser there on October 30 a while back. As a baby, my family said that I cried, whined, and ran around naked(Ha.) a lot. Lovely, eh? I often disturbed the family in the middle of meals, sleeping, or other activities. At the time, my grand-uncle lived with us in a condo with my brother and sister. I don't really remember anything about Hayward that much though, being that I only lived there for the first few months of my life. Although it wasn't supposed to be that way. We had boughten a fairly large house in the newer Hayward, it even had a big pool, or it was supposed to. See, they never really got to making the pool because they gave up on the house period. Some defect or chemical was in a material used to build the house or something like that. So instead we bought a "luxurious" two-story home in Pittsburg or Baypoint, CA, and our granduncle followed. Up to now, I don't know what they call the place I live in, it's either of the two. Anyway, life was good, food was good, everything was good. No complaining, no financial problemas, nothing bad. I liked the color pink, I watched Sesame Street, and I ate snacks, and took naps. Lovely. Then my grandparents moved in. Then things started to get heavy. My brother suddenly changed, in a bad sort of way, a VERY bad sort of way. My parents started to get into fights, and I had to begin school. Horrid, I know. Anyway, I found out that as soon as I started school, I was pretty good at this school thing. So yeah. Anyway, my brother, he changed my life, I guess for better though, but at first it was bad. Anyway, I became an aunt in fourth grade. Early, eh? This was a time when everything was just erupting, my family was literally falling apart. Everyone was mad at everyone, and I tried to be a good little girl, hoping that would make things right. Yeah, right. Anyway, two more people moved into our house, a baby, and a girl. So many people in my house. I used to count the pets as inhabitants too, but I was a pet killer, so I kind of gave up on that. My mother always blamed our defunct lifestyles on the "simple fact that we let too many people live in our house." Meh. Soon enough though, these people moved out and the house was lonely and kind of scary. They all had their own reasons, cancer, new life, long-time vacations, etc. I eventually got used to it. I've never really had perfect relationships with anyone I knew. I always had run-ins with everyone, everyone, but thing always managed to patch up? I dunno. I'm okay now I guess. I never really loved anyone in my life. I could've said I've had boyfriends before, but that would sound dumb. Until June 28, 2002, that changed though. I started going out with a guy named Kenny. We'd known each other for a few months and it seemed okay. Soon enough, I fell in love though. Too bad love isn't everything it seems. We broke up on the 11th of February, 2003. I'm still trying to get over him...I really did...love him. And then there was my mother. My mother. Ha. So many things I can say about her. We never liked each other. I'd have to say, she's the soul reason why my life isn't the best ever. It's okay though, she finally admitted she was mentally unstable today(January 4, 2003). :) My sister really affects me as well. She's on a drug that makes me happy, how's that sound? Yeah. I take it sometimes when they're not looking too. My life kind of revolves around my family, that's why I'm so screwed I guess. *shrug* Then there are my friends. Kerry, Allyson, Maggie, Kristin, Lauren, and Kathleen. All of them go to my school except for Kristin, she's a year above me and goes to a private school. These people are really special to me. Yeah, I know, I only have five friends. Ha, really though...if you think about it, these have to be my true friends, people I can depend on, and vice versa. Speaking of school, I go to a private one. It's not the best ever, actually it's kind of very ghetto. Heh. Yeah, right in front of a power plant. Lovely, eh? From here on, my life is spent in front of a computer or on the phone, at school, the movies, or the mall. I know, I lived a charmed life.
made some time in february of 2003. don't know the exact date. started out on brinkster, hosted by
AC. changed name from crybaby to crybabygirl to winged dreamer. the first two of the aforementioned were just dumb-sounding. so i stuck to winged dreamer, my screename, my email, everything.
version 3: dreams of true love: took only 2 days, but this has to be my favorite layout on this site. i love bright, vibrant colors, and if it hurts your eyes; too damn bad for you. i started off with a picture of jlo and ben, then as you can see, crapped it up some; so crappy, that it started to look cool. yep. this bitch does dream of true love, believe it or not. sorry it's so bright though. but i like it !! x_X;;
version 1: cry babygirl: a vector layout. meh. not creative, only lasted a few weeks. barely. ha. i'm a layout whore. i didn't like this one too much. not my usual style; too blah for me. took about three days to make. the only thing i like is the vector i made, everything else was made too effortlessly.
version 2: winged dreamer: uh...the shot sucks, sorry. has a tree in the snow. trust me, it took longer to achieve that effect than it looks. i like this one, doesn't seem like other people liked it that much though. oh well, barely lasted a week. ha...i like the effect i made on the snow and the little i-frames i did on the right, and the fact that it was a right sided layout. cuz im just so weird like that. it was kinda...meh...i dunno...i liked everything about it, 'cept it was kinda hard to read for me i guess.
