[05/26/01] slump

I'm not referring to the Outkast song. Today felt slumpy. I woke up and thought I was gonna do a lot. Or at least a little. I managed to fix my guestbook problem fairly quickly. And then for the next two or three hours I thought up and kinda attempted to write some admin functions for it. In between those times, I was lying on the bed.

I ended up watching "Next of Kin" a little later (starring Kurt Russell, Jodie Foster, Ben Stiller, agent Dogget's alien informant (X-Files reference), Liam Neason, and the usual Hollywood mafia roleplayers). I missed part of the beginning, but it's about a cop in Chicago who came from the country. His younger brother goes up north to Chicago for some reason, but doesn't like it and wants to go back home. But he ends up being killed by the mob (not a planned hit -- he was a driver of a restaurant truck, and this particular restaurant was a restaurant the mob boss was trying to buy out. This was more of a bargaining method). From there it gets pretty good. I think it'd be cool if my family would take up arms if I was murdered.

Then me and my bro went to see "Pearl Harbor", but the 8PM showing was sold out, and we didn't want to wait until 9 to watch a 3 hour, 15 minute movie (with the obvious possibility of being an overbudget, Hollywood action/drama blockbuster extravaganze deluxe). I didn't want to see it actually. But Hasan said he was bored and wanted to watch it. I'd be a sucky big brother if I said no.

So we get back at 8:30, and I come online. The first hour afterwards was spent doing nothing really. The second hour consisted of me feeling an overwhelming sleep sensation (I was lying down on the bed again, of course). But I dragged myself out of bed when my bro said SNL was on. So now I'm here, bored and drinking chocolate raspberry coffee.

I want to work on improving my site, but I'm not sure if my brain will think in that way. First agenda is revising the quickfacts page. Something a little more creative than just a list of things. And then...spruce up the college section to make it more college like -- lots of fun and partying. Even though that doesn't happen to me, it wouldn't hurt to make it seem more exciting than it is?

Smashing Pumpkins' "Adore" is probably their best album, IMO. I have most of the others, but song for song, "Adore" is my favorite (although I haven't listened closely to a lot of the other songs. But most of those never really caught my attention). It's a little too depressing, but oh well. "Blank Page" is such a good song. It makes me sad What the heck...here are the lyrics. But you need to find the song and listen if you get a chance (lyrics courtesy of smashing-pumpkins.net):

blank page is all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page was all the rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me
of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone

take a day plant some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath

blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost
of my indecision
no more little girl


I'm going to be up for another one or two hours. What can I make myself do?