the weirdest dream...
23 September 2004
i dreamt of him yesterday. no..no..nothing romantic whatsoever. i dreamt of him being a kepala mafia. muahahahaha...he was seen first in a neat shirt and sweater (ala..that oxford cambridge clothing style tuhh)-looking gile skema and was campaigning like he's gonna bertanding as an adun or a club president or something. moments later i got to know that he is the kepala mafia and i ran as fast as i could to the police station. but suddenly he was there- near the police station entrance wearing a long LEATHER jacket (long as in sampai buku lali tuhh), holding a pistol..and yg paling tak tahan tu-- he even has a PONYTAIL! then he tried to shoot me as i was running into the police stat. (but aku terer so tak kene tembak)
...then i woke up while pleading "udah le tuh..buang la tocang tuh"... :p
seriously.. he has his loving look, garang look, blur look but he hasn't got the slightest look of a mafia..muhahahahah...ohhh..that leather jacket...muhahahahaha...oh godd...the ponytail...hhahahh...camne la aku buleh mimpi sampai macam tu sekali.
OOOoOoh la la!
23 September 2004
I'm super excited! I'm gonna meet waniey in london for the weekend. man, it's been 3 years since the last time i saw her. yep, on the day i flew to this country. :D
yippiee!! there's so much things to do! I need to be at RIBA's gallery for a while to attend the Detail's exhibition (as usual, it's all because of the gift pack). then, for the first time i'll go for sight seeing (been in london so many times before but always, always end up in the shopping street). then i want to take waniey to the yummy yummy belgian choc waffle stall @oxford street. then to that chinese restaurant for the kuey tiow...then...then..ok, nevermind. ;)
so i'll be back on sunday afternoon. oh yeah, i have an interview on Monday (wish me luck..wish me luck..) but after that..my schedule will be blank as before. hope i get the job. i'm tired of waiting. probably i'll just wait for a couple of weeks and just go back for Eid in november. owh.. i wish it will never be that way...
22 September 2004
question of the day?
honestly, is making out in public, especially in front of your friends with locking lips and wandering hands is acceptable? so are those people who can't accept these actions should be called 'immature' and 'narrow minded'?
i can't really understand these people (who do those stuff). i don't care what happens behind closed doors..but things like this- urgh..hey, don't forget your root, people! buat malu kaum aje.haha..yang paling best is when the ppl yg buat those things tuh la yg dok preach kat org jangan buat itu ini. pathetic losers!
It is sad (but can be amusing at times) to see some people who are sooo physically perfect, but has no value inside them. haha, i AM talking about this one particular creature, ain't that obvious?
---------ok..soalan dan komen habis------------
last 2 weeks was certainly a pain in the ass. the peak was when i was 'ordered' to come to the ONLY house that i don't want to jejak in newcastle, perhaps the whole country. i nearly cried because i had to pretend soooo bloody much. seriously, i've always been an actress in my daily life, but this one is unbearable. the mixture of annoyance, pain, filth and all negative thoughts really made me want to puke- but i can't- so i cried.
i've had some soul searching in the past 2 weeks and u know what? i've managed to discount my HATE list. so now it is down to only one creature. (the last time was two, one of them is now forgiven- unless he carik pasal..tuh lain kira) i don't know when will i ever erase her name. seriously, i have no idea.
always had this guilty feelings for hating someone so much. but the thought that she's also famous in other's Hall of Hatred really calms me down. ha ha.
16 September 2004
sorry for the silence. pc problems. i actually kicked the pc last night- real hard. yes, i need anger management, i know.
This week's mood matches the weather. gloomy, windy and totally unpredictable. too many things bothering me; things i could not ignore. The search for work is hard, esp when your pc is in trouble. The room's finished now. quite happy with everything. the housemates are all great- that's the best part. *wink wink
MATTA fair will be held in PWTC this weekend. menariks menariks.think i should bug my encik rahmans (both of them) to come and visit me-- erm...probably on separate dates lah kan? hihihi :p
i miss my sisters. i miss sakat-ing them till lily ran over to mom and mengadu. "mama..tenyok (not 'tengok') kakak kacau lily.." then mama will definitely say "iye iye, mama tengah tengok lah nih" (while doing nothing) haha.. what a bliss! owh man.. i got every reason to come back home but why my heart says that i should stay here and find work? i could just work at one of papa's friend for a few months and enjoy myself in malaysia. i could meet the other encik rahman everyday if i want to. i could go to my school's gatherings..i could shop..EAT...owh man.. why the answer is still NO?
sorry if the entry is kinda berterabur. it explains ME at this very moment.
Retro, baby!
9 September 2004
I'm soooo in retro mood right now. here's my song for the mo- dedicated especially to.. whoever ;) and WARNING!..nothing jiwang kay? not-a-thing. this is a fun song. Pardon me, i'm still in my post "reading lovers' testimonials in friendster" trauma phase. too much jiwangness. i'd die! (but my fault anyways..haha- sapa soh baca testimonial org! hahaha)
"Love You Madly"
I don't want to wonder
If this is a blunder
I don't want to worry whether
We're gonna stay together
'Till we die
I don't want to jump in
Unless this music's thumping
All the dishes rattle in the cupboards
When the elephants arrive
I want to love you madly
I want to love you now
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly
I don't want to fake it
I just want to make it
The ornaments look pretty
But they're pulling down the branches
Of the Tree
I don't want to think about it
I don't want to talk about it
When I kiss your lips
I want to sink down to the bottom
Of the sea
I want to love you madly
I want to love you now, yeah
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly
I don't want to hold back
I don't want to slip down
I don't want to think back to the one thing that I know I
Should have done
I don't want to doubt you
Know everything about you
I don't want to sit across the table from you
Wishing I could run
I want to love you madly
I want to love you now
I want to love you madly, way
I want to love you, love you
Love you madly
[[Cake]]
on something totally unrelated, i've got my room today. (they took 8 bloody days to put in the new carpets - which took less than an hr to fit 'em- sungguh tak paham) but while they were 'buat carpet'- i've managed to repaint the whole room- frm green to all white (more than 5 coats weyy..sakit tangan!) and i have this one corner painted in red. bright red- or probably orangey red. whatever it is, i've got what i've dreamt of. HAPPY!
but-
i have a problem.
i'm in the fickle-minded phrase in my life. should i have the 'normal' bed or the mattress only (with the base board, of course)? i've always wanted a 'low' bed, but i'm not sure whether it will work (with the entire deco)..mm..mm..*think think!