A kid's affection..

Friday, 25 April 2003 06:41:46

i opened up my kotak rahsia just now-- not really a secret box, but it contains a lot of stuffs that i like (suddenly it reminds me of the old man in Amelie; a french movie). and i saw this piece of paper, and it almost made me cry. then my mind went back to the day of September 11 2001, the day i flew to UK. I was packing my stuff and suddenly Lily came into sight.

Lily: kakak..tgh pack 'lembu' ah? (she called the biggest luggage 'lembu'..sbb diye kata besar sgt)

me: ha ah..lily nak ape?kakak tak siap lagi nih..gi la turun makan dulu

Lily: lily ade present utk kakak tauu...(and handed me a letter)

me: (open impatiently)...........(terkedu sat)..........waa...(sobbing madly)

Lily: ala..kakak ni nangis la pulak. Lily bukan orang jahat. lily lukis kakak extra lawa dah tuh.kakak tak suke ke?

me: (still silent)...lawa..lawa..pandai lily lukis.....(continue sobbing)

and this was the thing that she handed to me>>> A SKETCH!

 okay, if you're a bit blur with the names in the drawing...well..frm left is boy (my bro), then mama (see..she wears skirt!) ..then epit (my another bro, younger than Boy), then lily and nana. but she told me she switched herself with nana because she really wanted a long hair but becomes rimas every time rambut panjang; so she imagined herself with rambut panjang, and nana rambut pendek (and made nana sulk all day for that-nana hates rambut pendek..hehe). ah..and there's papa, at the bottom-siap pakai topi, coz papa likes to wear hat, as he worked with PLUS and highways are damn hot! hehe.. lastly but not least- the one with 2 bags and long hair (erm..that was last time lah, but never had that long) is ME, walking towards the plane. it's just a simple sketch from a 6 year-old kid, but it has the power to make a 22 year old adult like me wept! hmm..sedey la pulak. I always marah them at home, but still, she has a heart to make this wonderful sketch for her sister.

hmm...i hope they know this, i miss both of my darling sisters so much! waaaaa..homesick!.

YaleS Crap©

women = evil?

Wednesday, 23 April 2003 22:56:16

Ahha..somehow I remembered this one equation, which I know some of you have known it already:

                    girls = time X money , but time is money ( time=money)

therefore,     girls = money X money =(money)^{2  ,} but money is the root of all evil (money= √evil)

thus,             girls = (√evil)^{2 =} evil 

ahh...so gurls are really evil huh? pepatah melayu cakap, masuk kandang rimau mengaum; masuk kandang kambing mengembek. and us girls/women live in men's world. so..lets fill in the blanks shall we?hehehehe

++ hehe..pardon me, sometimes 'lazer beam' tak dapat dikawal time² demam camnih! hukhukhuk..

YaleS Crap©

my new theory!

Monday, 21 April 2003 04:35:46

Today is not a very good day for me; mouse buat hal, so aku majuk ngan mouse aku, and tanak buat autoCad malam ni.so i decided to proceed on doing my sketch model. then tetibe.. panic attack! i lost my masking tape! masking tape tuh penting woo dalam nak buat model- then i gather up all my stuff for model making. aggh..lagi satu hal. UHU glue aku dah terbukak tutupnye, and habeh tumpah and dah keras. so merah2 la tangan aku gi kopak balik UHU glue yg dah terkeluar tuh. huhh...berasap gak telinga aku.

aaa..then i chatted up with Nette.. nak release tension la kunon. cakap2 pasal payah nak tido. then ade la kait2 sket ngan coffee..but since i've told you all earlier yg aku saaaayang sgt la coffee..so i'm searching for another excuse for why i hardly get any sleep at night. then somehow i realised that MAYBE all these while, since i got back from mesia early January harituh- aku tak baik-baik lagi frm jetlag!! hehehe..u know why i said that? coz when the mesians sleep..i sleep, when they go out to school/work, then i'm up to do my stuff. and it has been happening since- forever i think, bukan recently. so nak sedapkan ati, apsal la aku camnih; so aku buat deduction sendiri-->aku still jetlag!hehe..and jetlag aku nih takkan baik sampai la 6th year nanti. hehehe..oh yea...bagi sesape yg tak sure jetlag tuh ape..jetlag tuh jadi bila u travel across the globe, kan tetiap tempat lain-lain masa. so..bila kau baru sampai satu tempat tuh, your body clock still ikut time mesia, walhal kau kat Uk. so bila org kat mesia nak tido dah (eg kul 1 pagi), kat UK baru kul 6 petang- ko akan ngantuk ngan automaticnye, sbb your body will scream, "tido!!tido!!". sorry penerangan aku tak bagus sgt. tappe..i know your feelings..since mase memula org cite kat aku pasal jetlag tuh pon aku tak paham satu hapah pon. hehe..

So..confirmed! I'm still jetlag. ehehehehe

YaleS Crap©

SokSek oh SokSek!

Sunday, 20 April 2003 00:59:59

Suddenly someone reminds me of the good old days in school. And the site www.kawanaku.com really helps me in not to forget all the stuff i went through in SokSek. Bittersweet memories. I remembered vividly how i felt on the first day in school; i was wearing my khatam Qur'an white baju kurung. while we (the first formers) were walking past Dewan Serbaguna, i saw my dad's car leaving the compound. I always wanted to enter a SBP so that i can getaway from home, (yep, i was a rebellious child then) but i never had a clue that seeing my parents leave was such a pain. All of a sudden, my vision blurred, i wanted to cry, but before i could, my contact lens 'lari' up to my eye ball (horror siot ah, korang tak paham..). And while i was trying to move it back to my iris, there was this one kakak prefect sound me, "kat skolah tak payah la nak melawa pakai² lens nih.takdak sapa nak tengok hang" ikutkan hati mcm nak tinggalkan 'artwork' kat pipi kakak tu, as souvenir before kuar skolah, hehehe. but iyelah, blom cukup 24 jam pon aku dok SokSek, takkan lah nak buat camtuh kot. then i told her, i HAVE to wear lenses because power mata aku ngalahkan gaban, ade ke buleh naik 100 dalam seminggu! and a specialist kat Ipoh yg advice aku pakai lenses, not some beauty consultant.

hehe..here are some things that i gained in SokSek, precious woouhh..

+ blaja bahasa utagha, within one week habeh slang dah tukau-balik Ipoh kene gelak dek whole family +blaja pakai kain batik + blaja mandi pakai kain batik + blaja pakai baju kurung + blaja mengutuk warden + blaja tido dalam kelas + blaja yg budak laki nih kebanyakannye pervert gile + gi hiking + beshnye jadi prefect even bebudak panggil prefect tuh 'anjing'-well i dont care as long as i like it! + blaja how to defense myself verbally + baru tahu actually aku sayang MAMA sgt sgt + betapa beshnye dapat cards frm org yg ko suke + blaja mengurangkan temper (form 2 was my worst yr-temper aku teruk!) + bestnye belajar lukisan technology, i ADORED  Pn Azma Rose and she inspired me to be an architect + rumour hot gile pasal cikgu Azma letak nama new born baby diye= Aida Ellina Suriani, sedangkan anak diye nama Mariam!muhahah + pegi Langkawi for Program form 5 + love my extremists study group + pegi hiking kat bukit mertajam, some area in penang + pegi lawatan pengawas kat SMS Sabah (and they sang happy birthday to me mase perhimpunan which really flatters me) + blaja how to decorate pentas + created my signature yg panjang gile tuh +  jadi form 2 yg paling teruk kene lecture on 1.1.95! pasal makan chipsmore budak form 1 yg baru masuk (padahal aku benci chipsmore), and pasal muka selalu toye(nak buat camne..dah aku mmg bermuka toye..hehe)+ kene tahan ngan warden Zaila ngan a few frens mase prep malam sbb bising(padahal aku dok bincang pasal geografi), zaila dengki je tuh!! + jadi penjaga Co-op ngan a few frens and annoyed ngan guy seniors² yg sentiasa menyibuk! + Dorm C11A yg diketuai oleh aida, yg besh gilllleeerrr + and giving nicknames to seniors yg kitorang x suke= yaajud maajud, sape ntah lagi..hehe + jadi budak yg paling bodo dalam set Addmaths aku, sampai cikgu suhaimi tak caye aku dapat A1+ menang kuiz pengguna, essay PBB,netball, ape ntah lagi + straight As in both pmr and spm.

...actually manyak lagi. but can't really recall them right now. But   SokSek contributes a lot in making me a person that i am now. :D Thanks to all, even if I don't like u before.

YaleS Crap©   

love is blind...-but you are able to see from your mind's eye.

Friday, 18 April 2003 20:41:02

quoted frm ijat's webpage:: "sekiranya ingin menyintai seseorang insan, jangan sesekali mengharapkan pada perubahannya. sebaliknya pilihlah seseorang itu sekiranya kalian benar2 berpuas hati dengan apa yang dimilikinya kerana sesuatu yang belum pasti itu akan mengundang kesengsaraan jika kita terus mengejarnya..."
quote: sweetlips

huhu..penin aku sat bila baca ayat tuh. satu sbb jiweeennggg..dua sbb agak menkompiuskan la plak bila bace ayat tuh lagi sekali..hehe.. '..jangan sesekali mengharapkan pada perubahannya.' well..i disagree. people shd change for the better each and every day. (mmg le susah nak buat, but kene usaha lah kan) plus, positive changes tuh penting per.

ayat yg second tuh- maneleh berpuas ati sesenang jek. mcm tadi gak, kite kene kejar aa benda yg lebih baik-but doesn't mean that u have to leave that person (and mcm la sumer sifat kau your significant other boleh terima). nope.u can work it out, provided BOTH parties wanted to. plus- tiap2 manusia ade flaw diye. so takkan sumer benda buleh puas ati punye- and nih dah masuk bab compromise.

tried and tested, ade la betul gak quotation tuh- but, yg last part tu jelah. itu cam dah kait ngan hope- hope kat manusia lain.  believe in hope-yes i do, in fact i did hang my hopes on people,until this one incident- yg buat aku sedar ape yg mama cakap tuh betul- :hope kat Allah, bukan manusia- coz manusia akan kecewakan kau-but Allah knows best- kite everyday doa nakkan benda yg bagus, sometimes Allah grant doa kite tuh, by letting something that us do not wish to happen, so that it will open up other way(s); the better ones."

i've always believed that if 2 people think or act the same, they won't be able to work their relationship out. because it is like 2 parallel lines; NEVER meet at any point. but if the 2 lines aren't parallel to each other,they will meet up at one point eventually, provided they have been stretched lah. mcm manusia jugak- kene stretch(ubah, sabo) la kan if nak hidup happy.  there was a saying: 'if 2 people think alike, then they don't need the other half'. i think it's true.

++One puzzle is  missing, who's keeping it? ;)

                                  YaleS Crap©

Ohh..spare my ears from  UK's music!!

Friday, 18 April 2003 11:51:42

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY WIRA!!

I slept early last night-pretty exhausted, padahal tak buat pape pon.i guess because i tried to skip my FIX. Still teringat2 when Oja said, "mak aku tak kasi kawan ngan penagih dadah.." waaa..I am not! hehe..of course I am not. but i would give up chocolates, ice creams, cheese but not COFFEE i think. huwaarrghh...now i'm worried.

"wake me up inside..wake me up inside, call my name and save me from the dark..-Bring me to life [evanescence]" . saw that on Dinna's webbie. I really think that the group is cool, despite that i always against mixed groups .but not this one lah, maybe sbb bukan Brit pop kot [steps..s club 7..huwarggh..horror!] aha, Brit pop..actually most of brit songs- SUCK!!! ok ok..except for ms dynamite, ronan keating, travis, oasis, some of daniel bedingfield's songs and a few more. but i'm talking about the nonsense 'we-have-only-2-lines-of-lyric-in-our-chart-topping-song' technos, 'oh-we-are-kewwll' rockband yg ko still buleh trace derang frm mana (geordies?liverpudlians?) and all those  boy/girl/mixed group [atomic kitten, westlife, blahblahblah] yg keje buat cover songs, cover songs and cover songs till the end of time. probably all the good songwriters dah migrate keluar UK kot, yg buatkan derang ni tak reti langsung nak buat lagu yg besh, and lyrics pon besh gak, i've always wanted to study here because i thought that the English has a very poetic way of expressing something; and they are gentlemen- and i got both ideas wrong! asalkan lagu tuh buleh dibuat lagu clubbing, or mamat/minah yg nyanyi [specifically thinking of Gareth Gates] tu cute, sure chart toppinglah! lerrrss... hehe..sorry lah kalau aku merapu ntah pape.actually i was sooo annoyed everytime i turn on the UK radio..lagi2 lagu yg sama, rentak yg sama. uih...but nasib baik musim lagu 'the tide is high' or 'true love never dies' dah abis. naik psycho aku- even bila aku berjalan ke Amsterdam pon lagu the tide is high tuh ade!! ok- that is the music scene here in the UK. bagi sesape yg belum sampai UK, maybelah cakap...minah nih...manyaknye komplen! mmg pon..heheh. other than the unbearable songs, they also got 'soap dramas' in the evenings which is...huwaaarrggh... malay drama a lot better sehh...ok ok..sorry soap  fans!

Therefore, i thank God that internet exists. i can download stuff freely thus stop forcing myself to hear to UKs music, and re-establish my connections with my friends and have some side entertainment while staying up at night. and to wrap up my craps today, i dedicate lagu nih kat korang-- BRING ME TO LIFE by Evanescence [thanks Dinna for being of unofficial promoter utk derang nih..hehe]

how can you see into my eyes, like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb
without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(wake me up) wake me up inside (i can't wake up) wake me up inside
(save me) call my name and save me from the dark
(wake me up) bid my blood to run (i can't wake up) before I come undone
(save me) save me from the nothing I've become
now that I know what I'm without, you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

bring me to life
I've been living a lie
there's nothing inside
bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling
only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more

bring me to life

I've been living a lie
there's nothing inside
bring me to life
 

YaleS Crap©

Waahh!! Another stylish BMW!

Wednesday, 16 April 2003 23:42:56

I didn't do much work today; actually i never start working on my design before midnight pon. ah, went to watch Rowan Atkinson's (aka Mr Bean) movie called Johnny English last Saturday. it was HILLARIOUS! and i took this one free postcard-but i don't intent to paste it here-coz it may offend some people-gurls mostly. Instead of that, i paste a postcard that has been there on my cork notice board (took it when i watched The Recruit).aha,  yess... it's the new Z4 by BMW. Stunning, yes that's the word that came into my mind when i first saw it. okay, mmg i have noooo idea pasal specs kereta, but in terms of design, maybe aku reti kot la nak komen. huhu..lawonyeh! aku rase design bmw semakin besh dr sehari ke sehari. bila la nak derang nak jual kete nih so that sesape kat medical school newcastle uni. buleh beli, and aku buleh drool everytime aku lalu utk ke sekolah! (iyelah, nak beli sendiri..jgn haraplah kan?) :D

YaleS Crap©

What's happening to me? I never liked LILAC!

12 April 2003 02:41:22

yeeehaa...i've changed my layout! gile ah U-turn! dulu kaler itam, now kaler lilac! damn, i never liked lilac, pink all those soft colours, but it seems that only lilac that can go with this abstract artwork. (i fell in love with this piece almost immediately when i set my eyes on it.) hmm....a lot of things happened since the last time i updated, but i was too 'busy' enjoying my holidays.

1.WATCH TURKEY VS ENGLAND

    hehehe...most of u know WHY i went to watch this game padahal i never cared to watch English football pon. i never liked david beckham. ok, ok..diye terer la kot, but sometimes aku rase diye kecoh sgt, asyik cari publisiti, sama la cam Vic tuh. hehe..sorry la beckham fans...i read newspapers when i have the time, and i skipped everytime kuar pasal beckham..kecoh la diye! hehe..ok..balik kat match tuh, the english played very well, so patut la kot derang menang 2-0. apepon...i was happy sbb dapat tgk Ilhan Mansiz...huhuhu..ok ok..tak nak la elaborate...i can go on forever bout him.hehe

2.learnt how to make a badak berendam

    haha..me and oja saje la try nak buat onde2 memula..but bila dah siap onde2 kaler BIRU tuh kitorang buat, (tunggu nak rebus jek) tetibe teringat tak de kelapa parut.hohoho..and nasib baik la kitorang ni kretip, terus gi buat badak berendam! hehe..dah la kaler pelik...biru cam kaler Sully Monsters Inc. tuh. apepon, weird coloured kuih or air mmg turn me on dr azali lg, so tade hal, lah nak makan.heheheh..

3.learnt how to cook nasik ayam PLUS cili.

    learnt frm Oja, haha..nasib baik oja baik- sbb fina, yasnul and bao datang umah. ni le first time aku kene prepare masak utk guest. buat punye buat la nasik ayam tuh...tetibe teringat...huh..canne la nak wat cili nih? aku ngan oja tak makan pedas.so...guna instinct sendiri..main buat jelah..and end up jadi pedas gile..but nasib baik aa bebudak yg datang tuh x mati sakit perut. kalau tak..alamat kete ko jd milik aku aa yasnul!hahaah..

4.learnt how to 'kelap kelip'

    i was left alone in the house, oja gi glasgow, elly stay kat carlistle(woit, betul ke ejaan nih?), janis gi manchester, della ade, but busy for the whole day, and sorang lagi ntah, dont know dont care! so aku pon blajo aa frm Elly, how to kelap kelip dalam bilik. baring...pandang siling...and the clock ticks by. but tak tahan lama aa..aku fail! i cant sit still not even for 15 mins. luckily ade org layan aku sms.. :D

huih...i've wasted too much time-gotta continue doin my work! gile ah Interim Crit (presentation) in 2 weeks time. lalalaala..

YaleSCrap©

06 March 2003 19:44:41