29 MARCH 2004 18:15:56
received a text msg frm awang saying that he misses looking at me -eating, buat muka blur, jelir lidah and goyang2 kepala bila dengar lagu jazz. aiyoh, sah aku nih bukan and takkan jadi perempuan ayu! habis semua ayu² ACT aku tak dipandang! hahaa..anyways, i'm GLAD! :D okay guys..some more quizzes!
A :: Age 22+
B :: Band listening to right now Knack
C :: Career future gaban!eheh- a decent
architect then a financially secured
housewife
D :: Dad's name Abdul Rahman Amiruddin
E :: Easiest person to talk to my best
frens
F :: Favorite song Quizzical by Juliet
the Orange
G :: Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms hate worms!
so it must be gummy bears then
H :: Hometown Perak
I :: Instruments - hopeless! (even the
recorder) coz mum said "Phantang
anak cucu aku ahli mozik!"hehe..
:p just kidding!
J :: Job architect in the making?
K :: Kids nope
L :: Longest car ride ever Newcastle-Paris
=the ultimate torture!
M :: Mom's name Maznum Mohd. Razali
N :: No of people you slept with -hoh?none
O :: Orange or apple? - orange! mandarin/
Clementine oranges!
P :: Phobia[s] ulat,darkness,byk actually!
Q :: Quote "the flower blooms in
adversity is the most rare and beautiful
of all"-- Mulan by Disney
R :: Reason to smile when i get everything
under control/achieved something my way.
S :: Song you sang last can't my eyes off
you, lauryn hill :p
T :: Time you wake up 3 pm- coz i slept at
9am lah! << will try to improve that
U :: Unknown fact about me i would like it
to remain unknown, tq very much :p
V :: Vegetable you hate- shd ask me "vege
you like" coz i dont eat any (esp the
green ones)
W :: Worst habit procrastinating, sleeping late
X :: X-rays you've had 3, i think
Y :: Yummy food manyak sgt lah!
Z :: Zodiac sign - Taurus!
Yale'S Craps©
29 MARCH 2004 05:09:45
Dinna went back to london yesterday after a night stay at my house. pening kepala tak tau nak bawak diye gi mana sbb newcastle nih kecik sgt! hehe...too bad that cik yus takde nak join kebusanan newcastle-- hehehehe
talked to my mom and discussed bout some important stuff-- sanely. alas, after 3 weeks baru those emotional rollercoasters gone. baru rasa i have something to look forward to rather than something that has to be done quickly or just a schedule filler punye event. mmm..thanks to my encik rahman for calming me down. now i've spoken to mama and it's time for her to discuss things with her encik rahman. hehehe.. pardon me, i'm still unfamiliar to the idea of having someone who has similar name as my dad :p
pink's concert is tomorrow. huwaa...allergic kat abuk tuh still ade lagi, cuma muka dah kurang bengkak. harituh rupe cam ikan buntat, dah la rupe buruk, siap gatal2 lagi tuh..huhuhu..nightmare nightmare..but apepon concert musti pigi...ekekeke..
29 MARCH 2004 03:04:39
10 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR
BackPack / School Bag / Hand Bag / Pocket
1 - wallet
2 - bus pass
3 mobile phone
4 tissue paper
5 lip balm
6 - ink pen
7 - house key
8 gloves/sunglasses (depends on the season)
9 - hat
10- perfume vial
9 THINGS THAT U REALLY WANT RIGHT NOW
1 money! show me the money!!
2 free return flight tickets to anywhere
in the world (or can i call it an
unlimited flight pass?hehe)
3 a new A0 drawing board!
4 new pairs of shoes
5 new spring jackets
6 something that could scare the slugs so
that they'll be gone FOREVER
7 - a new hair do
8 ointment for my troublesome skin
9 - to be at home...huhuhu...
8 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOOD
1 char kuey tiow basah yg tak dak taugeh
n invisible garlic hehe..yep, i am picky!
2 cantonese kuey tiow with invisible garlic
3 t bone steak with mushroom sauce
4 - asam kulit limau!
5 guylian's seashell chocs
6 coffee!!!!!!!!!!!
7 putu (bamboo, mayam, piring except for
kuih putu)
8 - taufu fa with gula putih
(aghh..i'm sooo in dilemma rite now!) 7 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS 1 - nora 2 - dinna 3 ijat 4 - nette 5 - wira 6 - elly 7 oja (in no order)
6 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES
1 shawshank redemption
2 x men (I and II)
3 - all LOTRs
4 amelie
5 cruel intentions
6 - chocolat
5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
1 - my beloved pc
2 slr camera
3 perabotslah :p
4 - mini pantry
5 drawing board yg tak best!
4 THINGS YOU ATE / DRINK TODAY
1 kak has' rendang ayam..yumyum!
2 coffee
3 plain water
4 chocs from paris given by Dinna! :D
3 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1 - coffee
2 - internet
3 - camera
2 BOOKS/MAGZ U RECENTLY READ
1 - juha levinska's work in Finnish Archi.
2 - cosmopolitan
1 PERSON YOU CAN'T FORGET
1 my beloveds (more of a group of people
rather than a person though..hehe)
Yale'S Craps©
27 MARCH 2004 23:59:53
owh so nauseating!
dunno what really happened but apparently my previous (deleted) entry made someone tak senang duduk. I've deleted the entry after realising that more of these people could really harm my health- thehehe.. actually i've deleted the entry because i think i wasn't being fair- and that's it.
the attacker was saying that I'm telling about that particular person to the whole world. know what? when i say things generally really means that it's either i don't like the situation or too many people involved and i don't hate them enough to mention their names. If i start mentioning names..aha, only then it is called a personal attack. i do believe that nobody apart from my dear frens read this page, so accusations like "you are telling about me to the world through your blog!" is sadly, invalidlah! even if the world read my blog pon- they won't give a damn doh! secondly, invalid sbb i didn't mention any names- and finally, is the term "siapa makan cili terasa pedas" familiar to you?
aha, to that particular person, that previous entry of mine was very ciput about you. but as you wish, this one is especially for you. please, don't be a sissy about it!
Yale'S Craps©
those 'thinkers'
25 MARCH 2004
No offence, but sometimes i hate those 'thinkers' who canang2 the whole world that he/she's the greatest thinker. they can be even more appalling when they started to look down to others as if "eh, kau nih bodoh sbb kau bukannye 'thinker' mcm aku.." rase nak lempang pon ade. there were a few times i encountered those 'thinkers' yg tak reti bahasa - sometimes they wondered about something, but when ppl kasitau jawapan (especially factual stuff) derang mcm tak leh terima plak. sampai aku ulang berkali2 jawapan aku sampai aku ckp "weh ko dengar tak? AKU yg buat those things..aku tahulah!" - agak sial jugaklah tuh. baik usah tanya soalan. buang masa aku yg bukannye 'thinkers' mcm derang..
back to the 'thinkers' yg pandang rendah kat org. i don't mind org yg mmg gaban and pandang rendah kat org yg 'buat2 pandai' -- dah ko terer..lantak ko lah kan. nih yg pandang2 rendah kat org especially when ppl try to help you to solve your probs, and ko plak mcm "well..i've think ALL the possible solutions thru' and i know there's no way out" ..and tell me why do you have to be so bangangly arrogant when u r in trouble? why can't you just shut the f**k up? ppl r trying to help you and lagi mau blagak? Oi! you make me sicklah demit!
Actually i have no problems with genuine thinkers yg tak heboh2 kat org yg diye nih mmg suke pk. and tak pandang low kat org as if org lain tak byk pk cam diye. i do have frens yg mmg bukan tin kosong, and yet, tak penah kepoh2 or pandang rendah kat org lain, i respect those ppl. they deserve to be someone great in the future. and to those 'thinker' wannabes, i bid you, "pegi mampos!"
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Mother's Day Special!
22 MARCH 2004 03:48:30
my mom does unexpected lawak sometimes. lawak yg tak expect will come from a mom- comparing my mom with others, i might say she's a cool one. well..everybody shd say that anyways...hee hee
last week i called her with kylie's red booded women as the background sound.
mama: who's singing?
me: Kylie Minogue. ala..mama sure tahu punye
mama: (paused) -- i suspected she's recalling who the hell is Kylie
suddenly,
mama: owhh.. yg muka macam kuda tu ye?
ahahaha..didn't expect that at all! penat2 je manusia dalam dunia ni chop minah tuh hot stuff, mama selambe je ckp muka diye cam kuda?? (aha, but i never thought she's pretty as well) as far as i know my mom, she rarely puji org lawa, but never ckp org buruk/pelik etc. so this is her first. now i know that she never liked kylie. "suara annoying" katanya. i have to agree with that, but that red blooded woman tuh somehow addictive plak, despite that chipmunk "lalalalalala" sound. yeah...come to think of it, manalah mama nak suke kat kylie. her favourite song is Pink's Feel Good Time. heehee.. love her anyways! Happy Belated Mother's Day! hope i can bring you to the Pink concert next week...huhu..
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BRAVO NEWCASTLE PEOPLE!!
18 MARCH 2004 03:04:56
MALAYSIAN NIGHT was a huge success, comparing to what we had in the past. i was happy to see so many enthusiastic people performing at their very best for the first Malaysian Night in Newcastle after more than 5 yrs, i think. too bad i only had one photos that day, batt. weak lorr..huhu
did i perform? nope. but i was in charge for the decoration. keje biaselah. but i was kinda frustrated with the venue itself. the Global Cafe is not a suitable performing space, for a life band maybe, but not the cultural type with massive audience. the pentas itself is not strategically placed (again, for a life band with small audience, maybe) the ppl behind can't see nor hear a thing! lagi satu yg paling aku benci is that-- i can't touch the stage at all, not a single thing.(org global cafe tak kasi!) so does the outer part of the global cafe. nak lekat stuff pon tak buleh. yg buleh buat cuma gantung banner. sakit hati betul, ape yg derang (org global cafe) buat was letak satu kain hitam yg huduh ngiler as a 'backdrop' yg aku rase nak koyak2 aje everytime tgk stage tuh! hope aku sorang je rase camtuh..hehe. too bad that there's nothing we can do about it (well..i'm not even in the committee, but somehow ter-migled ngan deco..aku pon tatau mana aku leh sesat..kkikikii) however, all in all...i'm sure everyone enjoyed the evening, especially when holidays are approaching. ;)
seeing people perform, making rehearsals, even doing the backdrop really bring back the memories in Soksek. the best event we ever organised was the Malam Kreatif Form 3 followed by Malam Apresiasi Budi form 3. form 3 was the best time back then. burque, asni, yany and i will be busy with the backdrop; while the others busy practicing. i love acting, reciting poems and several times as the MC (no..i never had anxiety before i came to newcastle..hehe)...mak aii...bestnye masetuh! anyways, those were the good old days, i've changed a lot - so i don't even know whether i still have the talent to do other stuff besides helping people decorating. even that talent of mine is getting drier by the day...
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'pihak berkuasa'
16 MARCH 2004 02:17:23
sometimes ko bengang sgt ngan 'pihak berkuasa' ni- but takleh nak jerit kat muka diye sbb -- diye "pihak berkuasa." bengang nyeeeehhhhhh!!! benci betul bila aku tak dpt nak ckp pendapat aku, esp bila benda tuh mmg PASAL AKU. apetuhh 'hal org2 tua?' amendee tuh? aku bukan eager sgt nak jadi 'org tua' pon, but if benda tuh dah pasal aku...tak de hak ke nak tahu? ape aku nih patungkah? sakit hati je dengar. byk benda lagi aku nak achieve dlm idop nih, and tak semestinye semuanye sama ngan ape yg derang pk pon. bengang betul. at least gimme some space. what if u're wrong? what if your decision tuh mmg akan rosakkan idop aku? what if mmg ade option lain and haram satu pon option tuh tanak dengar sbb those idea bukan dtg dr 'org2 tua' but aku, (yg bukan muda pon..bukan bukan tua jugak).
nak aku terus keje kat uk nih? ape aku nih tak de perasaan ke nak dok kat mesia? bistu? bukan hari2 aku cakap ke dok sini depressing. suka lah kot aku depress hehari? what if takde org sanggup nak hidup ngan aku sbb ikut dream derang yg nak aku keje terus kat uk? best lah kot ek? so i'll be all alone till the day i die. am i just being over reacted? tak paham ke aku TAK HAPPY dok sini!!!???
Yale'S Craps©
emo? ego?
15 MARCH 2004 01:53:05
my mind is starting to rest. 1 more week to Easter Holidays!! yeaaarrghh!! sgt happy. but hafta submit an essay, and more designing to do. well.. my plan is to complete all the incomplete bits and pieces in the first week. siapkan CV jugak. second week mau rest gilllaaa..yayy!!...pindah bilik..yayyy!! if sempat nak cat, thursday on the second week dinna n yusra dtg newcastle!! yayy! then tgk concert Pink..yayy lagi!!
third and fourth week shd buat keje lah (no more 'yayys'). early may final crit. muhuhuuh...mahu pensan! rabu nih malaysian nite. mm.. nak pakai baju indian/chinese..but luit sudah habis pigi kat shopping smalam..hehe
read Dinna's entry bout bashing ppl. well..sumer first reaction org bila kene bash (esp benda yg mmg diye buat) mmg negative reaction. yg buduh aje akan ngamok or buat benda bodoh utk tunjuk yg derang tuh mmg bodoh. yg lawaknye stengah2 tu bila general comments pon nak terasa lebih2 pastuh nak over2 plak. and u know what, selalu yg aku jumpa perangai camnih laki. if pompuan..expected la kot. mm..alahai..kata laki ni macho. kata laki equals to ego. chop pompuan ni equals to emo. but bila kene bash ngan org emo, korang double triple emo dr pompuan. camne org ego leh emo plak? hmph..aku agak kompius disini. hehehe..
Yale'S Craps©
12 MARCH 2004 03:09:20
I've been fidgeting like hell since midnight. tried to sleep but i can't. can even hear my own heartbeat. yep, i'm nervous rite now. so i called my mom, but it seems like she's busy. nevermind. i'm feeling very uncomfortable since a few days ago. this peculiar feeling; not a good one. i know that feeling. it's too familiar. dammit. i hope i'm wrong. i really really hope my interpretation will be wrong.
I'm scared. i don't want to be in that state ever again. i might as well ask someone to knock me silly and lost ALL of my memories. it's better than heading down south again. it's unbearable.
the room is warm...but still can't stop fidgeting.
Yale'S Craps©
11 MARCH 2004 01:15:05
my life's back to normal (aka busy). bagus bagus. so all the minor stuff, or major stuff yg aku minorkan, aku kasi 20pence and boleh main jauh2! had a talk with my best frens and all i can gain was that-- i know what i want and i still want it. someone said, life's a gamble, i'm pretty sure i've said before too, but u gotta prepare yourself before the gambling starts. betul ape? try lah gi casino (tak..tapenah pegi la tapi, but tgk kat tv) bukan takat security, mesin judi tuh pon campak ko keluar if ko tak de sesen pon...
owh..forgot to tell that i got sarah menin(again!) for the interim crit. takut nak mampos .so i ate the beta blocker that the doc gave me..and wallahh!! seriously it works wonders on me. once again aku tak gagap, i can deliver my ideas accordingly and my feet didn't sweat like hell! yayy..agak happy. apsal la aku gi jumpe doc lambat sgt regarding my anxiety..third yr baru tahu ade bendalah camtuh. quite happy with the outcome. helps me a little, if not much, walaupon byk la benda2 kejam yg diye ckp harituh tuh..spt biase. have to develop more. now i'm happy. :D
ahaha..takziah kat sorang kawan aku coz dpt rumet yg sgt 'bagus'. ahaha..aku penah ckp kot org2 camtuh mmg akan sengaja putar alam and buat ko yg rase bersalah balik. sian kat diye(kawan aku)...welll..aku dah penah encounter org camtuh dulu..sepak aje nette. tak yah lembut2. menyampah aku baca ayat last email pompuan tuh. seb baik pompuan sejenis yg aku jumpe dulu tuh tak sebut benda2 camtuh..if sebut..i'll be laughing out loudly on her very face..muhahaah :p
Yale'S Craps©
8 MARCH 2004 23:28:36
TODAY'S a sad day for me. can't really tell why. is this the price that i should pay for doing archi? broken many hearts (and bank accounts) including my own, just to be called an architect? why me? if things in my studies are going smoothly tuh logic la gaks..ini pon tunggang langgang dibuatnye. whenever obstacles hit me, i always wonder.. am i leading a lonely path? no matter how many friends or special persons i have in life - i'll end up walking alone? this is hard..
..and hurtful
Yale'S Craps©
7 MARCH 2004 18:18:49
I'm a Taurean; heh..seems like it's not a biggie at all. well, it is not - until that Taurean habit kicks in; to be precise, the Temper. I remember those days when mama dragged me to a corner and talked (no..my mom doesn't nag) to me how to control my temper. there're a few times when she too, lost her temper and let her hands talk. hehe..cannot blame her. i was a very very stubborn child. the last time i had this 'temper control' lecture was last summer. honestly it is very hard to control my temper, but lately it is somewhat hidden, maybe because i'm hiding frm everyone else (as in, being an anti-soc person)...someone told me she hates people throwing tantrums..well to be honest, you DON'T want to do it, but when you're on that point, you can't remember anything as everything happens so fast.
I hope that this temper of mine will never appear again. It was years ago (form 4, i think) when the last time i went berserk. i still got mad now and then, but those 'flying saucers and the high pitched noise pollution' dah takde dah..hihi. so, this webbie is thy place to shove all my anger etc. so i would appreciate it if no one complains abt it. my space, my wish.
Hopefully.
Yale'S Craps©
I LOVE NEJI :D
6 MARCH 2004 21:37:05
hooked up ngan Naruto manga plak dah. aku nih mmg. bila nak dekat2 crit mmg suke buat camnih. apsal tatau. pressure sgt kot. but apepon dah lega sbb dah abis. I LOVE NEJI! muhahahaah..anywayss..
to Elly: i wasn't mad at you. dah tahu ko nak balik long before...bukannye ko inform kitorang a day before ko nak balik (like someone who'd lived here before, tak penah inform aku pon..disrespectful siyal!) honestly i don't really know what to do, and don't have time to think abt it, it was his damn fault for not letting us go. F***ing landlord!
tade mood. no feelings. aku berkurung kat rumah dah berhari2, if tak duduk kat studio, aku dalam bilik. it's not related to anybody- i need some space, a clear head to do my work. but this morning's call lighten up my day, (*grinning!) someone was asking about my ring size and the type of ring that i preferred (while he was choosing it). can't help it; i'm smiling frm ear to ear! hihihihi it this for real? i hope so.
Yale'S Craps©
HA-HA-HA LAWAK GILE...
3 MARCH 2004
...mcm senario(?) - selalu sgt dengar ayat tuh--tak pon..haha..lawak gile...senario pon kalah. aku tak paham apsal org ckp senario lawak gile sama mcm aku tak paham bila minah2 dr China ckp english kat aku, or sama macam tak paham ape yg mr. Khoo (lecturer physics A levels) ajar kat lab every thursday sbb otak aku dah tepu dgn 3 hrs class diye (and i hate physics) ok la ..ok la..aku paham la maksud 'lawak' derang tuh..but tak paham apsal org suke. memula tuh ok lagi..but bila dah lama2 tu..unbearable sehh..lawak lucah pon byk, and bebudak kecik yg tak paham ape2 pon dgn innocentnye mimic derang. meluat aku tgk. lily & nana (my sisters) dah tak buat dah those 'gitu-gitu' sign depan aku, maybe sbb dah byk kali kene cubit kot..hehe
lawak 'tradional' UK pon sama je lame. but byk je lagi yg aku tak paham langsung, maybe sbb lain culture kot. but yg aku benci pasal uk nih pasal derang bangga sgt ngan 'activiti'2 cam Club Reps- reality tv pasal budak2 rosak and bodoh, yg gi vacation sambil2 keje, and sambil2 enjoy (eg, flashing their thingy(s) to everybody, pole dancing, do whatever filthy things yg ade kat dunia nih utk dptkan duit etc etc) aku tak paham why derang tunjuk benda tuh kat tv. probably derang tak puas ati kot org label british nih gentleman-- nak gak la tunjuk derangnye dark side. huhu..thick siot lah derang nih.
Yale'S Craps©
BORING
3 MARCH 2004
Boring geeellaaa..boring boring boring. Elly balik mesia smalam (yg menambahkan keboringan aku), jumaat ade crit, seperti biase. dan seperti biase jugaklah, banyak keje. but aku boring. sgt boring. takde cite kat tv.
smalam tuan rumah dtg..aku tgh tido mati; pastuh bila aku turun and bayar, diye tanya memacam plak. ckp cam siyot aje. nak paksa org carik lagi sorang hsemate, but buat2 ckp ade org yg tak bayar lagi yuran. processor (otak) aku still tido lagi..so aku pon taleh nak pk sgt. pastuh paksa carik org..mmg la org tgh carik, bodo! pastuh bila ckp kat diye, if tak jumpe, carikkan utk kitorang...ego nak mampos ckp kat aku ngan kak jua yg diye bukannye taleh carik, but nnt kite tak selesa la ape la..sucks! dah kitorang nak carik org, tp tade..nak buat camne...nak penuhkan kuota umah nih..aaa..carikkan la org. dulu org nak blah dr umah nih diye merayu2 tak kasi. if dah pindah harituh..takde masalah dah. nyusahkan org betul. BANGANG tahap gaban! aku mmg lagi happy if blah dr umah nih, dah la tingkap taleh bukak (suffocated), almari baju aku kat luar (bilik ke tu if wardrobe kat luar?)..bilik yg kecik but sejuk nak mampos..aku nak stay up buat drawings pon menggigil-gigil, ingat best kot!?! housemate aku pon tak paham perasaan tuh, ape lagi la landlord yg bangang camtuh. if only la harituh diye lepaskan je kitorang pindah..dah aman dah idop aku. k.k.t.m.d.b.m.o
Yale'S Craps©
Piles of work melt me down... (volcanoes melt you down..)
1 MARCH 2004 00:09:23
"... YOU GIVE ME MILES AND MILES OF MOUNTAINS AND I, ASK FOR THE SEA..." - Damien Rice [Volcano]
tutor gave me thousands and thousands of works and i... ask for more sleep...
:P probably later on i will add the whole edited 'Volcano' -- version aku punye...kikikiki
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