Free

Matt Ishida, a name many people love and many hate. I myself don't know what to think of me, mostly I hate the person I've become. Sometimes I dream, I dream of the only time that I was happy. That time was with my friends in the digiworld so long ago. My friends were much different than me but I loved them anyway.

In the digiworld was a feeling of peace, I know we were fighting for our lives a lot but it gave me solitude and let me escape my vile life. T.K. was who I thought I was protecting, I had a reason to live with him there. But I soon figured he didn't need me, and neither did anyone else. I never could though find the guts to do myself in, I guess we know I don't have the crest of courage.

Friendship, something to this day I don't think I have but I still have the crest that burns inside me every so often. Those seven were the only friends I had or have. Well I don't have hardly any of them as friends anymore. The only one that is still my friend is my wife Sora, or exwife I should say. Not even T.K. comes to visit me or talks to me.

Sora, the only person I really still care for. Sure I still care for the others but I only really love Sora. The only reason I stay alive is to hear her voice and the voice of my children. Sometimes late at night I wake up sweating and panting, thinking of the awful divorce we went through. Many said it was very clean and almost the ideal divorce. To me though the divorce was more painful than anything in the world. I had to sleep at night knowing that my children would be split up, so I did the only logical thing to do, give Sora both of them.

Every so often I think that we'll get back together but I tell myself it's just a dream. I still love her as much as the day I married her. We went through 17 long very strange years together. When we got hitched I was the happiest man in the world, after a while though things became awkward and neither of us had the time for each other. After we had the children we never spent a full day together the rest of our marriage. Now I sit here thinking and dreaming of something I can never have again, Sora and my children. Sure I see them every so often but never more than is allowed by the courts.

I sit here in my shuttle contemplating death and the meaning of my existence. I now realize I am just making many peoples lives harder so I am now ready and willing for my long journey to the unknown. I slowly get up and walk to the airlock. Me and Gabu are still five hours from entry. I gather my suit and pack and head for the chamber where for the last time I will feel something under my feet. I close the door ready for the unknown. The last sound I hear before leaving is the sound of my faithful companion begging for me to stay. Finally I open the door to space. I see the stars beckoning to me. I step out, finally free.

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Sorry for the ending all you Matt lovers out there. I myself is an avid Matt fan. Hey drop a review telling me what you think. See ya

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