tick tack tick tack....it have been 2 years since she left this world. my lovely grandma i miss her so much. well... this year i always ask myself, 'was i nice to her when she was alive? did i do what a granddaughter should do for the whole time?' honestly, i don't know but i love her so much that all of my relatives can tell and even she told ppl that i'm a really good granddaughter to her. i still remember the day it was her furenal just rite after i stepped into the room and look at her body, i started to cry. and i asked myself 'why? why is it my grandma who had to suffer with pain and why am i not there when you pass away?' so since then i started to question myself but one thing that relatives know that how much i love her is because whenever we went out i'll put my arm around hers to make sure that she won't get hurt. i love her so much that i would gave up my time and spend time with her. she's so nice to me. there is one thing that i remember the most was when i was grade 7 my grandpa and her came to my house for few days. so in the morning she had to go down of the appointment to catch the bus with me but one day i almost missed it. but she saw that the school bus was making a turn so she ran across the road without looking of any car but all she wanted is stopped the shcool bus just make sure that i can get on it. and she had heart attack and she was not suppose to run. now you see how much she loves me too? i love her but now... she has been away from me for almost 2 years... i am sitll not get use to it yet... since that i don't want to go back to hong kong anymore, since that my life seems missing a big part. and i do miss her a lot ='( sigh'... i don't know why my mood just went down so deep whenever i think about her. ='(-always love her, yan
