i wrote a letter to say i was sorry and to tell you that there is no fate and that i love you and that you are my heart and you guide my soul and when i checked the mail it wasn't there i've waited for five years three months and two days i know exactly how long it's been since you wrote me last and told me that your world was ending that there was no way to save you and that by the time i got the letter it would be too late but i saved you didn't i? i keep telling myself i did but i don't know why why do i tell myself you are still alive? i know you're gone and i'm sorry that i didn't realize you were going to self distruct like the boy in tv or the bomb in the building i didn't realize that you loved me and all you needed to hear were the words i didn't even realize that i love you and i never said it i am sorry that you are gone i am sorry that you are never coming back and i am sorry that MY life goes on...