Struggle
Disappointed but not discouraged, the
ascetic Gotama, seeker of the incomparable Peace, the highest Truth,
wandered through the district of Magadha. He eventually arrived at
Uruvela, the market town of Senani. There he spied a lovely spot of
ground, a charming forest grove, a flowing river with pleasant sandy
fords, and hard by was a village where he could obtain his food.
Then he thought thus:
"Lovely, indeed, O Venerable One, is this spot of ground,
charming is the forest grove, pleasant is the flowing river with
sandy fords, and hard by is the village where I could obtain food.
Suitable indeed is this place for spiritual exertion for those noble
scions who desire to strive."
The place was congenial for his meditation. The atmosphere was
peaceful. The surroundings were pleasant. The scenery was charming.
Alone, he resolved to settle down there to achieve his desired
object.
Hearing of his renunciation, Kondanna, the youngest
brahmin who predicted his future, and four sons of the other sages
-- Bhaddiya, Vappa, Mahanama, and Assaji -- also
renounced the world and joined his company.
In ancient India, great importance was attached to rites,
ceremonies, penances and sacrifices. It was popularly believed that
no Deliverance could be gained unless one leads a life of strict
asceticism. Accordingly, for six long years the ascetic Gotama made
a super-human struggle to practice all forms of the severest
austerity. His delicate body was reduced to almost a skeleton. The
more he tormented his body the farther his goal receded from him.
How strenuously he struggled, the various methods he employed,
and how he eventually succeeded were graphically described in his
own words in various Suttas. Maha Saccaka Sutta describes his
preliminary efforts thus:
"Then the following thought occurred to me:
"How if I were to clench my teeth, press my tongue against
the palate, and with (moral) thoughts hold down, subdue and
destroy my (immoral) thoughts!
"So I clenched my teeth, pressed my tongue against the palate
and strove to hold down, subdue, destroy my (immoral) thoughts
with (moral) thoughts. As I struggled thus, perspiration streamed
forth from my armpits.
"Like unto a strong man who might seize a weaker man by head
or shoulders and hold him down, force him down, and bring into
subjection, even so did I struggle.
"Strenuous and indomitable was my energy. My mindfulness was
established and unperturbed. My body was, however, fatigued and
was not calmed as a result of that painful endeavour -- being
overpowered by exertion. Even though such painful sensations arose
in me, they did not at all affect my mind.
"Then I thought thus: How if I were to cultivate the
non-breathing ecstasy!
"Accordingly, I checked inhalation and exhalation from my
mouth and nostrils. As I checked inhalation and exhalation from
mouth and nostrils, the air issuing from my ears created an
exceedingly great noise. Just as a blacksmith's bellows being
blown make an exceedingly great noise, even so was the noise
created by the air issuing from my ears when I stopped breathing.
"Nevertheless, my energy was strenuous and indomitable.
Established and unperturbed was my mindfulness. Yet my body was
fatigued and was not calmed as a result of that painful endeavour
-- being overpowered by exertion. Even though such painful
sensations arose in me, they did not at all affect my mind.
"Then I thought to myself: How if I were to cultivate that
non-breathing exercise!
"Accordingly, I checked inhalation and exhalation from mouth,
nostrils, and ears. And as I stopped breathing from mouth,
nostrils and ears, the (imprisoned) airs beat upon my skull with
great violence. Just as if a strong man were to bore one's skull
with a sharp drill, even so did the airs beat my skull with great
violence as I stopped breathing. Even, though such painful
sensations arose in me, they did not at all affect my mind.
Then I thought to myself: How if I were to cultivate that
non-breathing ecstasy again!
"Accordingly, I checked inhalation and exhalation from mouth,
nostrils, and ears. And as I stopped breathing thus, terrible pams
arose in my head. As would be the pains if a strong man were to
bind one's head tightly with a hard leathern thong, even so were
the terrible pains that arose in my head.
"Nevertheless, my energy was strenuous. Such painful
sensations did not affect my mind.
"Then I thought to myself: How if I were to cultivate that
non-breathing ecstasy again!
"Accordingly, I stopped breathing from mouth, nostrils, and
ears. As I checked breathing thus, plentiful airs pierced my
belly. Just as if a skilful butcher or a butcher's apprentice were
to rip up the belly with a sharp butcher's knife, even so
plentiful airs pierced my belly. "Nevertheless, my energy was
strenuous. Such painful sensations did not affect my mind.
"Again I thought to myself: How if I were to cultivate
that non-breathing ecstasy again!,
"Accordingly, I checked inhalation and exhalation from mouth,
nostrils, and ears. As I suppressed my breathing thus, a
tremendous burning pervaded my body. Just as if two strong men
were each to seize a weaker man by his arms and scorch and
thoroughly burn him in a pit of glowing charcoal, even so did a
severe burning pervade my body.
"Nevertheless, my energy was strenuous. Such painful
sensations did not affect my mind.
"Thereupon the deities who saw me thus said: 'The ascetic
Gotama is dead.' Some remarked: 'The ascetic Gotama is not dead
yet, but is dying.' While some others said: 'The ascetic Gotama is
neither dead nor is dying but an Arahant is the ascetic Gotama.
Such is the way in which an Arahant abides."
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Temptation of Mara the Evil One
His prolonged painful austerities proved
utterly futile. They only resulted in the exhaustion of his valuable
energy. Though physically a superman his delicately nurtured body
could not possibly stand the great strain. His graceful form
completely faded almost beyond recognition. His golden coloured skin
turned pale, his blood dried up, his sinews and muscles shrivelled
up, his eyes were sunk and blurred. To all appearance he was a
living skeleton. He was almost on the verge of death.
At this critical stage, while he was still intent on the Highest
(Padhana), abiding on the banks of the Neranjara
river, striving and contemplating in order to attain to that state
of Perfect Security, came Namuci, uttering kind words thus:
"You are lean and deformed. Near to you is death.
"A thousand parts (of you belong) to death; to life (there
remains) but one. Live, O good sir ! Life is better. Living, you
could perform merit.
"By leading a life of celibacy and making fire sacrifices, much
merit could be acquired. What will you do with this striving ? Hard
is the path of striving, difficult and not easily
accomplished."
Mara reciting these words stood in the presence of the Exalted
One.
To Mara who spoke thus, the Exalted One replied:
"O Evil One, kinsman of the heedless ! You have come here for
your own sake.
"Even an iota of merit is of no avail. To them who are in
need of merit it behoves you, Mara, to speak thus.
"Confidence (Saddha), self-control (Tapo),
perseverance (Viriya), and wisdom (Panna) are mine.
Me who am thus intent, why do you question about life?
"Even the streams of rivers will this wind dry up. Why should
not the blood of me who am thus striving dry up?
"When blood dries up, the bile and phlegm also dry up. When
my flesh wastes away, more and more does my mind get clarified.
Still more do my mindfulness, wisdom, and concentration become
firm.
"While I live thus, experiencing the utmost pain, my mind
does not long for lust ! Behold the purity of a being!
"Sense-desires (Kama), are your first army. The second
is called Aversion for the Holy Life (Arati). The third is
Hunger and Thirst (Khuppipasa). The fourth is called
Craving (Tanha). The fifth is Sloth and Torpor (Thina-Middha).
The sixth is called Fear (Bhiru). The seventh is Doubt (Vicikiccha),
and the eighth is Detraction and Obstinacy (Makkha-Thambha).
The ninth is Gain (Labha), Praise (Siloka) and
Honour (Sakkara), and that ill-gotten Fame (Yasa).
The tenth is the extolling of oneself and contempt for others (Attukhamsanaparavambhana).
"This, Namuci, is your army, the opposing host of the Evil
One. That army the coward does not overcome, but he who overcomes
obtains happiness.
"This Munja do I display! What boots life in this world!
Better for me is death in the battle than that one should live on,
vanquished!
"Some ascetics and brahmins are not seen plunged in this
battle. They know not nor do they tread the path of the virtuous.
"Seeing the army on all sides with Mara arrayed on elephant,
I go forward to battle. Mara shall not drive me from my position.
That army of yours, which the world together with gods conquers
not, by my wisdom I go to destroy as I would an unbaked bowl with
a stone.
"Controlling my thoughts, and with mindfulness
well-established, I shall wander from country to country, training
many a disciple.
"Diligent, intent, and practising my teaching, they,
disregarding you, will go where having gone they grieve not."
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The Middle Path
The ascetic Gotama was now fully convinced
from personal experience of the utter futility of self-mortification
which, though considered indispensable for Deliverance by the
ascetic philosophers of the day, actually weakened one's intellect,
and resulted in lassitude of spirit. He abandoned for ever this
painful extreme as did he the other extreme of self-indulgence which
tends to retard moral progress. He conceived the idea of adopting
the Golden Mean which later became one of the salient features of
his teaching.
He recalled how when his father was engaged in ploughing, he sat
in the cool shade of the rose-apple tree, absorbed in the
contemplation of his own breath, which resulted in the attainment of
the First Jhana (Ecstasy). Thereupon he thought: "Well,
this is the path to Enlightenment."
He realized that Enlightenment could not be gained with such an
utterly exhausted body: Physical fitness was essential for spiritual
progress. So he decided to nourish the body sparingly and took some
coarse food both hard and soft.
The five favourite disciples who were attending on him with great
hopes thinking that whatever truth the ascetic Gotama would
comprehend, that would he impart to them, felt disappointed at this
unexpected change of method. They thus left him and went to
Isipatana, saying that "the ascetic Gotama had become
luxurious, had ceased from striving, and had returned to a life of
comfort."
At a crucial time when help was most welcome, his companions
deserted him leaving him alone. He was not discouraged, but their
voluntary separation was advantageous to him though their presence
during his great struggle was helpful to him. Alone, in sylvan
solitudes, great men often realize deep truths and solve intricate
problems.
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Dawn of Truth
Regaining his lost strength with some
coarse food, he easily developed the First Jhana which he
gained in his youth. By degrees he developed the second, third and
fourth Jhanas as well.
By developing the Jhanas he gained perfect one-pointedness of the
mind. His mind was now like a polished mirror where everything is
reflected in its true perspective.
Thus with thoughts tranquillized, purified, cleansed, free from
lust and impurity, pliable, alert, steady, and unshakable, he
directed his mind to the knowledge as regards "The Reminiscence
of Past Births" (Pubbenivasanussati Nana). He recalled
his varied lots in former existences as follows: first one life,
then two lives, then three, four, five, ten, twenty, up to fifty
lives; then a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand; then the
dissolution of many world cycles, then the evolution of many world
cycles, then both the dissolution and evolution of many world
cycles. In that place he was of such a name, such a family, such a
caste, such a dietary, such the pleasure and pain he experienced,
such his life's end; Departing from there, he came into existence
elsewhere. Then such was his name, such his family, such his caste,
such his dietary, such the pleasure and pain he did experience, such
life's end. Thence departing, he came into existence here.
Thus he recalled the mode and details of his varied lots in his
former births.
This, indeed, was the First Knowledge that he realized in the
first watch of the night.
Dispelling thus the ignorance with regard to the past, he
directed his purified mind to "The Perception of the
Disappearing and Reappearing of Beings" (Cutupapata Nana).
With clairvoyant vision, purified and supernormal, he perceived
beings disappearing from one state of existence and reappearing in
another; he beheld the base and the noble, the beautiful and the
ugly, the happy and the miserable, all passing according to their
deeds. He knew that these good individuals, by evil deeds, words,
and thoughts, by reviling the Noble Ones, by being misbelievers, and
by conforming themselves to the actions of the misbelievers, after
the dissolution of their bodies and after death, had been born in
sorrowful states. He knew that these good individuals, by good
deeds, words, and thoughts, by not reviling the Noble Ones, by being
right believers, and by conforming themselves to the actions of the
right believers, after the dissolution of their bodies and after
death, had been born in happy celestial worlds.
Thus with clairvoyant supernormal vision he beheld the
disappearing and the reappearing of beings.
This, indeed, was the Second Knowledge that he realized in the
middle watch of the night.
Dispelling thus the ignorance with regard to the future, he
directed his purified mind to "The Comprehension of the
Cessation of Corruptions" (Asavakkhaya Nana).
He realized in accordance with fact:
"This is Sorrow (dukka)" "This, the Arising of
Sorrow", "This, the Cessation Sorrow", "This,
the Path leading to the Cessation of Sorrow". Likewise in
accordance with fact he realized: "These are the
Corruptions", "This, the Arising of Corruptions",
"This, the Cessation of Corruptions", "This, the
Path leading to the Cessation of Corruptions". Thus
cognizing, thus perceiving, his mind was delivered from the
Corruption of Sensual Craving; from the Corruption of Craving for
Existence; from the Corruption of Ignorance.
Being delivered, He knew, "Delivered am I" and He
realized, "Rebirth is ended; fulfilled the Holy Life; done
what was to be done; there is no more of this state again."
This was the Third Knowledge that He Realized in the last watch
of the night.
Ignorance was dispelled, and wisdom arose; darkness vanished, and
light arose.
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Change of Method: Abstinence from
Food
Then I thought to myself: How if I were to practise
complete abstinence from food!
"Then deities approached me and said: 'Do not, good sir,
practise total abstinence from food. If you do practise it, we
will pour celestial essence through your body's pores; with that
you will be sustained."
"And I thought: 'If I claim to be practising starvation,
and if these deities pour celestial essence, through my body's
pores and I am sustained thereby, it would be a fraud on my part'.
So I refused them, saying 'There is no need'.
"Then the following thought occurred to me: How if I take
food little by little, a small quantity of the juice of green
gram, or vetch, or lentils, or peas!
"As I took such small quantity of solid and liquid food,
my body became extremely emaciated. Just as are the joints of
knot-grasses or bulrushes, even so were the major and minor parts
of my body owing to lack of food. Just as is the camel's hoof,
even so were my hips for want of food. Just as is a string of
beads, even so did my backbone stand out and bend in, for lack of
food. Just as the rafters of a dilapidated hall fall this way and
that, even so appeared my ribs through lack of sustenance. Just as
in a deep well may be seen stars sunk deep in the water, even so
did my eye-balls appear deep sunk in their sockets, being devoid
of food. Just as a bitter pumpkin, when cut while raw, will by
wind and sun get shrivelled and withered, even so did the skin of
my head get shrivelled and withered, due to lack of sustenance.
"And I, intending to touch my belly's skin, would instead
seize my backbone. When I intended to touch my backbone, I would
seize my belly's skin. So was I that, owing to lack of sufficient
food, my belly's skin clung to the backbone, and I, on going to
pass excreta or urine, would in that very spot stumble and fall
down, for want of food. And I stroked my limbs in order to revive
my body. Lo, as I did so, the rotten roots of my body's hairs fell
from my body owing to lack of sustenance. The people who saw me
said: The ascetic Gotama is black' Some said, 'The ascetic Gotama
is not black but blue.' Some others said: 'The ascetic Gotama is
neither black nor blue but tawny.' To such an extent was the pure
colour of my skin impaired owing to lack of food.
"Then the following thought occurred to me: Whatsoever
ascetics or brahmins of the past have experienced acute, painful,
sharp and piercing sensations, they must have experienced them to
such a high degree as this and not beyond. Whatsoever ascetics and
brahmins of the future will experience acute, painful, sharp and
piercing sensations they too will experience them to such a high
degree and not beyond. Yet by all these bitter and difficult
austerities I shall not attain to excellence, worthy of supreme
knowledge and insight, transcending those of human states. Might
there be another path for Enlightenment!"
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