Wretch

To die amidst an ocean of people knowing that of all the eyes
that look at you, not one
will hold you till you cross
the ends of the life you know.
It is not the loneliness that haunts as you lie in wait to die
but the pain of realizing
that in all the emptiness
that this world is abundant with, you findnd yourself loving
what you most hate.
Not wanting to let go
of that which you use to ridicule and the men you use to mock.