Howdy-Howdy-Howdy. Look at me, I'm a cowboy.
Name the artist and I'll send you a surprise.
Is is worse to never try because you were afraid to fail OR to try as hard as you're willing and find it's not enough?
Maryam and I are still living together.
Still sleeping together. Just sleeping.
Our lease runs out in August.
In the course of conversation it was revealed to me why she's no longer in love with me. To quote: "I got bored." Not a monsterous reason... but what sort of reply can you make?
She's also said "I love you, but I'm not in love with you." Again, what reply can you make?
Shades of Cheap Trick; I want you to want me.
I would quite happily have spent the rest of my life with her. But hey, she's in college, she doesn't want to be in a relationship, she just wants to have fun... and I guess my "New Boyfriend" smell has worn off- I'm boring.
Here's the kicker though.
She was complaining today about how she feels like guys are only interested in her for her body.
You don't say? What exactly did you expect from the "just have fun" crowd?
"What's the first thing you notice about a girl?"
"How big her opinions are!"
The kinda scary thing about me is that's sort of true. Sure-sure I'll give just about any girl the once over with a secondary visit to all major points of interest. If something seems strange I might continue looking until I can figure out what it is. (Y'know how some people look okay on first glance but you just have to look again... and it take a while before you realize that the space between their eyes and mouth is too short and it makes them look subtly grotesque on further inspection? Or is it just me that spots these things?) But I wouldn't consider that "noticing." I probably oogle and judge 15 girls a day when I walk around on campus. Do I remember ANY of them now? No. Do I probably even remember them two seconds after I return to walking to where ever? No. I do however remember talking to one girl about the irony of writing papers after the chemistry exam in December (I never did see what she looked like though). I also remember a girl in my Calculus class. Why? We talked about why we were both interested in our prospective majors. Then there's a girl that was in my Sociology class, Celentano... Why did she stick in my mind (besides the last name)? She was one of the few people that spoke up in the class and she spoke with me on several occasions (and the fact that she's attractive didn't hurt ;)
I might look, but I take notice if, indeed, she does have firm, well developed... er... opinions.
Not to imply that opinions are everything. I need more than just my intellect stimulated.
Which, to bring us back to the beginning, is probably why I like Maryam. Intelligence and strong will in an asthetically pleasing package.