I have such interesting things to show you.
As some of you have probably found out I have a webcam now. It's been up and running for about two weeks now but I've been tinkering with the page. The META REFRESH tag doesn't update the pic in Netscape for some reason. There's also the problem of that annoying Yahoo! pop-up thing also being refreshed. In any event... I'm currently running an applet to refresh the pic... so if it takes the page/image a while to load, be patient. The problem with the applet is that it prevents people from right clicking and saving the images if they so choose. If you're the webcam image stealing type, the URL for the picture itself is http://home.netcom.com/~zaeboola/1010011010.jpg... Also, if you happen to be watching it and I do something interesting, funny, disgusting, etc. etc. and you feel like sharing it with me... send it over.
The cam is on 24 hours a day... excepting computer trouble or if I turn it off while I'm in class. Yes, interesting things have happened on camera. Unfortunately, I only recently figured out how to do a local save with non-redundant file names. 5sec refresh personal porno is entertaining.
Whom might be my co-star you ask? Maryam, oddly enough.
Because Maryam and Mindy were the only people in their apartment (and it's a 4 bedroom apartment) the apartment complex forced them to move. Maryam ended up moving into my building. Josh, the fellow from next door whom she was banging, seems to view the move as the end of their relationship. Anyway, I seemed to qualify as an adequate replacement during the interrim.
We're laying on my bed.
I turn to her jokingly, "Wanna put on a show?"
"Okay."
I look at her curiously for a moment and then get up to redirect the camera.
From my understandng two people saw the first show... or isolated images of it, anyway. I have no clue how many people saw it on the websites that have picked up my cam. One is PimpShack. Another is on http://www.inthepit.com but I don't remember the specific user, great, eh? I also have set up a page with College Club. I discovered PimpShack and InThePit through the #ElectronWhore channel on EFnet. I discovered ElectronicWhore through The Stile Project. From Stile Project I have looked at a variety of other pages. Joe Rogan, of News Radio fame, has one I find particularly entertaining. I've recently started reading Complex Bullshit and this is, I believe, a site that best supports my theory. I've run across a variety of "personal angst" type websites. For some reason we have all chosen a similar format: dark background, light text, minimal graphics. In the case of Rach however the parallels are creepy. Anyway, even if you don't like her fucked up vignettes, she has a webcam she seems to regularly get naked on... fun for the whole family, y'know?
What else?
Maryam went on a date with a boy named Daniel Myles on Saturday. She was sexually assaulted and almost raped. She appears to have reverted back to her "I hate men, It makes me want to cry when people touch me" state. I suggested she do something about it or stop dwelling on it. She doesn't want to do anything because it was largely voluntary (or at least unopposed) up to a point. I ended up sleeping with her (just sleeping) on Sunday and Monday... She's said she feels safe around me.
She's also said she feels like a slut. It has something to do with sleeping with Me and Josh (the next door neighbor) and "fooling around" with Mr Myles. I'm curious as to why she behaves the way she does. I want to tell her to stop... BUT, she never was mine to control and her behaviour is no longer my business. Some part of me wonders if she's behaving this way in exactly the hope that I will step up and explicitly demonstrate that I care. I won't act on this because 1) I'm not so narcissistic or egomaniacal to think someone would predicate their behaviour on me 2) She's entitled to live her life however she chooses- I don't particularly want people telling me how to live my life and I will return that favor. There's also the fact that if I urge her to find someone and settle down, chances are it will not be with me. I enjoy being the dick in a glass case. I also like being her friend. If she did get in a serious relationship one or both of these will be screwed up.
Speaking of serious relationships...
I still have done nothing to meet any other girls. I know well enough to play the game. I know enough to play the game well. I don't like the game. I do not think I would like myself if I strung together a line of implicit one-night-stands. Explicit ones, I'd be fine with. "Hi, Would you like to have some cheap sex?" "Why sure." Sure, sure... that's one a lot of people are out looking for... I just find the implicit deception of the usual scene kind of bothersome.
There's also the fact that if a girl says "call me" guess what? I will. Which is unfortunate because "call me" serves as a self-reassuring "I'm not a slut" releaser phrase. They may no more want to talk to the man of the hour again than have bamboo shoved under their toenails... but so long as they say "call me" then, if he doesn't call back, he's just an asshole that used them. They're not sluts... no... they thought there was real potential there.
Not to say that girls that sleep with guys they've just met are sluts. I just don't feel like bothering to come up with a more precise word to express myself at this time.
I'm getting new tires tomorrow... P195/60R15 87H Bridgestone Potenza RE930. It's gotten to the point where I hydroplane if I take a turn at 35mph in the rain... not much... enough that if another car was in the oncoming lane there'd be a problem, though. My rear driver's side tire also was slowly going flat. I put some flat-fix sealant in it and that seems to have stopped.
Damn my life is exciting.
