Phoenix:
heh.
Phoenix:
so..forgive
me for prying..or don't answer...but anyway. The last time I saw you and
maryam, it still looked pretty sexual..
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
When
was the last time you saw us?
Phoenix:
sometime
in teh apst week
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Well...
perhaps it is... though I doubt we'll have sex again. She's off on this
whole "I'm in college" trip.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
And
it wouldn't bother me if she wanted to see other guys if she didn't sabotage
my persuits
Phoenix:
*nods*
so no more random sex when she comes over to do laundry, etc?
Phoenix:
wait..how
old are you two?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Well...I
don't know... I don't expect it to happen... I don't know if I'd still
sleep wither her, anyway.
We both turned 21
recently
Phoenix:
*nods*
Phoenix:
k..I
was getting confused
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
what
were you getting confused about?
Phoenix:
I
remember talking to you about how you had semi randomly had sex several
times..and tehn saw you on the webcam...and then you've commented several
times that you aren't together, etc.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
It's
a strange relationship. I think she's under the impression (and it's a
largely accurate one) that I'm willing to put up with anything and will
always be there for her.
Phoenix:
*nods*
for anyting or in general?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
yes.
I'm generally very black and white in my dealings with people though...
So I'll put up with almost everything from people I like... but do something I can't accept and you're out, basically. I'll be polite, sure...
but not nice.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Put
it this way... Maryam's doing a lot to help me find boundaries.
Phoenix:
makes
sense
Phoenix:
you've
known eachother a long time, yes?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Since
'96 online... since Dec '97 in person... we started dating, etc in spring
of '98.
Phoenix:
*nods*
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
She
started looking around for a replacment by early fall of '99 (which is
fucking insane, as she'd just signed a lease with me).
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
"officially"
broke up in Nov of '99. Continued living together until august of '00,
though. Moved to seperate apartments in a different complex after the lease
expired. She started screwing her next door neighbor.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Then
the complex made her move to a different unit a couple months ago... she
ended up in my building. Next door neighbor didn't maintainthe relationship...
so she started fucking me again. That waned and we were only infrequently
seeing each other at all. She went on a date with some guy that almost
raped her... then she couldn't sleep and she'd call me up to put her to
bed... that went on for a while.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Then
she started fooling around with the fellow she met in Fall of '99... He
didn't show up at her birthday party recently, so he seems to have fucked
that up... BUT she met some guy at the party whom she's had sleep over
a couple of times.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
And
now you're current and up to date... comments?
Phoenix:
you
make my weird relationships look awfully normal
Phoenix:
but
it all makes more sense now
Phoenix:
and
how teh hell did you manage to live together for that long after you broke
up?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
quietly
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I'm
not a very useful person to get mad at.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
So
it was just a kind of silent loathing thing... though we still slept together.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
just
slept... not much sex.
Phoenix:
*nods*
I..really couldn't handle that
Phoenix:
I'd
end up killing the guy
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
She
said she hated me for a good long while. I've never hated her in the least...
until recently, anyway.
Phoenix:
and
what made you hate her?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
One
day a couple months ago she suggested that we could get together again
after I'd slept with 5 people. That features largely in it. Pardon the
rather pop-culture clique aspect but it had about the same effect as the
end of Chasing Amy.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
And
you've observed how we are together... yet when there's someone else around,
poof go away.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I
feel like a back up plan, basically.
Phoenix:
understood
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Anyway...
anything else you'd like for me to talk about?
Phoenix:
no...you
actually remind me alot of an older version of my ex...so I sometimes feel
like if I don't watch it, something similar will happen
Phoenix:
bah..I'm
making no sense
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Join
the club ¦¬)
Phoenix:
:P
Phoenix:
I'd
probably just resort to murder though
Phoenix:
though
this does remind me of a more intense version of my very long break up
with him
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
This
is intense?
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Ah...
no... not how I'd describe it.
Phoenix:
nah..your
relationship with maryam
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
That's
what I was talking about. There haven't really been any intense moments
Phoenix:
thats
remarkable
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
It
wouldn't be if you knew me personally.
Phoenix:
hmm..probably
true
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I
have the patience of water against the stone. A plasma flare I am not.
Phoenix:
I
would have thought that you would be slow to anger, but scary as hell when
you were
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I'm
scary as hell when I'm not, according to many people.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I
doubt I would get angry, anyway. I'd probably just rip out someone's larynx.
Phoenix:
oy
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
and
then politely hand it to them.
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
I
suspect it's moved past the point where Maryam could get me angry, though.
Phoenix:
probably
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
boring
you?
Phoenix:
nah.
Phoenix:
sorry..Sean
just called and is taking a good deal of attention
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
So...
how'd you like to be attributed on the site?
Phoenix:
hmm.
Phnix will work
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
How's
about Phoenix?
Phoenix:
don't
want to confuse people with boardie phoenix..
Phoenix:
she'd
never have this conversation. heh
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
Consider
the larger audience... most folks won't even know who you are.
Phoenix:
heh,
then fine
AUGUACGAGCGAUCG:
K...
I'm going to go edit and post, then...