About Me (and maybe more..)

I'm not telling much about my self but I promise to give my facts of life, my  ups and downs, and some of my unforgettable moments that shaped me as I am today. Hope to give ans. to your problems through the things I have been even though I am only 18 years of age as I wrote this....hehehe....pls. excuse my wrong grammars if any and other things that I wrote here that might confuse you......

Lets begin by introducing my name....

My real name is Reuben which came from my grandfather Ruben, my dad revised his father's name from Ruben to Reuben coz there are actually 4 of us named after my grandfather, they often called me by my nick name Rhys, and I kinda' got used to it coz I've been called that name for 18 years!!! hehehe..... k?

I live a life of simplicity, I'm not that kind of a typical boy who likes playing basketball and outdoor games, that's why I got hooked in the so called computer craze.. to explain it to you more briefly I'm the kind of a boy who likes indoor fun, most of the time spending the day in front of my trusty lil'old computer, playing games doing stuffs, just killin' the time inside the small box I call MY ROOM!!!!....but wait... you might think I'm a geek.... I also use my time on my FaVor8 hobby collecting tropical aquarium fishes....yup those slimy little creature that swims around a replica of their home.. let me dig a little on my so called "fishing expedition" I stared out on a small aquarium and some of those red and colorful tetras called Swordtails and mollies!!... and we must never forget that ol' janitor fish or pleacostumus the fish that you see hanging on the glass as if sucking his guts out... until all living thing takes it time to heaven...huhuhuu... I changed from a small aquarium to a 15gal. big one and started on goldfish and barbs... you know once you got your hands on these adorable creatures, you can't escape that feeling of seeing it swimming in your tank and of course the feeding time!!!!... one thing though I must tell you this, a cute little aquarium never last for a long time esp. the fishes in it so I suggest you invest on 50gal. or more.... it has more advantages than that of the small ones like, you can change the water in the tank in 3 or 4 months... it requires less maintenance and fishes tend to like big open spaces for them to grow bigger and faster.... well lets end this aquarium stuff coz I feel like this stuff is boring and time wasting on the net...you know what I mean....

How about my love life??................

Well know this stuff never escapes the mind of all of God's creature.... what can I say love has it's ups and downs... and the best way to describe love is "love is unexplainable, it makes you "You" and makes me, "Me" its that simple" well in my case its not that simple..... now what the #ell does that mean????? hmmmm.... let me see... oh!! I got it!! that's my problem!!! geeze what am I thinking???... okay let me tell you this story about a certain boy who never got close to being loved by someone he never knew!!!...now we're getting close eh!!.... this boy got this gut feeling when he started to focus his life on the so called girls, he knew this girl when they were classmate on the 5th grade, so it never really started coz this boy is still in the stage called "crushes" or the "admiration", this boy admired this girl in class but he never told her his feelings coz what can we say it's the first time.... until it is time to take the next step.... I mean going to the 6th grade... now 6th grade for this boy never presented the opportunity to give it another try...but he never knew that his 6th grade was the time when this girl from the higher level led him to feel love as he never felt before... what follows next is quite strange, his friend had a crush on the same girl he knew... I can say this is a disaster coz not that they have a crush on this girl but another guy, a classmate of the girl who indeed was the ultimate competitor, so this boy didn't made it close to the girl but I must say this, this was the first time that the boy felt this love in it's glorious form, not that he was the only one who knew it but the girl kinda' like this boy too, I think she's just afraid or something boys like me will never gonna know... but life goes on the boy grew up to be a more than a boy, it is the 1st year of high school, heheh... the 1st year... well it is really indeed the first... first to interact and first of the courting ritual or PANLILIGAW.... this boy I must say turns dumb with the capital D, when it comes to this stage... in other terms "Style mo Bulok" it started when he and his new friends decided to test their manly courage, so they agreed on testing this their skill by asking a girl her name or maybe make friend... and so it was.... this boy turned his attention to this girl he saw, and started to ask for her name...he got her name and said thanks.... what followed next was that typical feeling of admiration, this boy felt it again... love is in the air, it is intoxicating, it makes tame man into wild beast hungry for love... the first year turned up to be good .... but whatever story have been told, it has this time to turn green fields into wastelands.... the boy learned his lesson the painful way... why? coz as soon as the news broke out... teasing, stories filled the air full of poison, thus leading this girl to have only one option.... stay away from the guy to avoid personal wrath... poor boy... it was never really his problem right?... why does he have to suffer...well I guess life is like that.... whatever things this boy went through he never really forgot this girl, he cherished her for the whole 4 years of his high school life, he never gave up admiring her, even though this girl as if closed her door shut to this particular boy not giving thoughts of the things she hates about this boy.... from the boy's side of view, that 4 years was a disaster, he have seen her have boyfriends from one to another... the crowd never got tired of teasing him every time his so called "girl of his dream" has a new boyfriend..... what a way to torture him... every time he sees that gal it spells, flashbacks of tortured memory repeating again and again ... I think that made that boy, the scare of his life that he will carry for the rest of his life, he never attempted to look at other girls, fearing that the same thing might happen to him again, for him one pain is enough, that's why I think that company is composed of same people with same problems, that explains the company he had...they were all computer addicts and sore looser when it comes to courting girls, they share thoughts that made them a strong pack of friends who are willing to compete to what the world has to offer for them... the story is far from over, it continued on the college days... college spells goodbye to old high school friends, but what I believe is that "goodbyes doesn't mean forever", what a new start... for fun, freedom, friends, schooling.......and love?... as soon as this boy wandered to his college life, he once again remembered his failure from love.. thinking of this girl... he suddenly was informed that the girl who hates him for all of that 4 years is also studying in the same new school as where he was... what a sudden twisty of fate, as if, the world wanted to torture this boy or maybe to strengthen him more... whatever reason the world might have... I'm sure it is for the good, the boy really wanted to forget her but what ever things you do, you can never forget things that shaped and made you different from others... for the boy he never regretted the things that has happened to him.... his thought about this was, the girl will never forget him too even though she hated every inch of that boy... she will never forget that once in her life there was this one boy who admired her and loved her.... the boy gather his strength and tried to love someone else... as the old saying "there are a lot of fishes out there" but he found this hard to understand because, fishes are hard to get... you need the right bait to catch it and the right place to keep it..... soon the boy found out that there really are a lot of fishes out there, and must I say it offers different kinds and types.... like my aquarium fishes... well I hope someday I'll find the right fish or the right fish might find me inside this dark cave covered with sea plants.... scared, alone, but know glances once in a while to have a peek on the beautiful ocean floor of life.... now what do I mean about that fishes??? is is about my aquarium or about me and my love life??? who is this boy and how did I knew about his life? am I his friend or that boy is really me..??? one thing I'm sure about is that, this things do happen, no one can escape it, that is your destiny, and make it mine too.

Why am I doing this?................

Actually I really don't know, I really hope my story will put second thoughts on the path you might take... I must emphasize that every action you take doesn't include only you, your choices includes all the people around you.... whenever you try to ignore someone just for your own good is not the best way to make him go away.... life is never like a dream.... what you have done will make results.. the only thing you can do is to take whatever is good for you and for others.... don't ignore friends, friends are there for you, even if they say that your friend is no good... you never really know that they are helping you in other ways. That leaves me to think why did this person I know whom I offered my friendship for good or for bad, never accepted me for what I am... what's wrong with me doesn't mean that is never was wrong for you.... I don't want to say this to you but, if ever you have read this or maybe have felt this, is it the best thing you can do to me??? are you happy that you created all of this?? what is wrong with giving a person his life back that you took when you decided to rob him to his only hope of making humanity work by being friendly and asking you to be his friend.. it is not like that when a guy ask you to be his friend it means that you like him... what are you afraid of.... am I the scum of the universe?? did I kill someone? did I did this to hurt you?..... whatever reason you may have I personally treat you as my friend even though you don't want me to be your friend.... you know that's why friendship is taken whole never break it... be friendly..... and to all my friends out there who believes in me for what I do to them and what they do to me... I'll treasure you for my whole life.... life is precious and so are friends.............

The thanks

Many many thanks for all those who spent their precious time to read the craps of my life.... I can't thank you more.... Just want to share this bits of my life to you...and maybe you can share yours too.... tank's again...... sayonara..... this is not the end....... just the beginning more stories to come and I hope it will include YOU!!!!...........

A lot of yaw yaw for all.... to my family, cousin Mitch (chelay), T'Len, JR (buddahbidz) Counterstrike Friends- Michael (trigger), Jeffrey (dark angel), Erwin (nine9), John (bang), Arvin (walls), Patrick (?), Friends MaCe (purplemace), @!?Judy?!@, SFACS, CheenyAnn (MGPS), LaMorena (DRFB), MIT counterstrike friends- Omar (neo), Alberto (putalittlemore), Jonathan (quicksilver), Bert2 (?), Collete? (diablo2), Ate Grace, tXt M8's - Angela (Lil angel), Heather, .....marami pang ibang nakalimutan....... kasama na rin kayo d2.... salamat.... hi2 my dog Zero and the cats and my fishes... teka manila zoo na lang kaya ....hehehe.......... maraming unggoy doon....... hello mamic........ ROBOCOP....peace!! sama ko na mga Fav. Anime ko... Dragonball Z, Samurai X, Trigun, Ghost fighter, Flame of Recca, Grander Musashi, Pokemon, Jester, BubbleGum Crisis Tokyo 2040, Virtua Fighter, Dual Parallel Crisis, Mojacko, Doremon, .... Cartoons... crammy... Ren & Stimpy, Rocko's modern life, Hey Arnold, ah Real Monster, 

by: Reuben aka ZeroTeta aka Tutna aka Lionheart aka BlackHeart aka Minion aka ZeroLuvs aka hKr aka X-shogun