New Daily Storyline|That First Night

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THAT FIRST NIGHT

I picked myself up from my broken will. Never did I imagine it would control me like this. All I could do was compose myself and render the outside world a darkened abyss. That's all I could think about, the understandable obstacle of emotion. How I despise the 'morrow. How I despise yester', oh how I despise now. The only wish I wished was to live to see the day of love's end.

I threw myself across my bed. It never felt so good against my back. Stealing the night's time, I lay staring at the ceiling thinking about what I should have done, or maybe 'shouldn't have' is more like it. That darkened abyss grew smaller the more I thought. Thinking was evil.

You know...you think about bullshit like 'what is that mother fucker saying right there. Is he talking about me? Shit I'll kick that fucker’s ass,’ or 'Damn that girl is beautiful,' but you're in love with another. Crap like that. It gets people into trouble. Crazy trouble. Trouble you don't want, trouble you don't need. It's to bad that's all there is in life.

I didn't want it. Reaching over to the Play Button on my stereo, I thought more. Thinking about that day I opened my mouth to spill my guts and tell everything. To bad in meant nothing to her. What a waste of my life. Pulling away to my pillow again I close my eyes. Vanessa Daou's ‘Deviate’ quietly bounced against the walls and into my brain.

'When you find a bend in the road...go straight...'

Her smoky voice had me floating. I reached through the mist in my mind into my subconscious.

'When the sign points one way....deviate'

I started to fade away and reality was hard to define.