Letting go of Fear[back to the main page]
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The last couple of months I have been going through the lesson of letting go of
judgment. It has gone relatively smoothly. I didn’t have too many
heart-wrenching moments. The lesson seemed a natural progression of the others.
But I was bowled over today to learn that the next lesson was; letting go of
fear. It was like an amazing revelation. A very loud ahhhhhhhhhh. Once again it
made perfect sense tat that was my next step. It is as if everything was leading
up to this. I have read and heard many times about the letting go of fear but
this really was more in my head than in my being. I understood academically
before but this time it was as if I was actually ready to do it. To incorporate
this into my life. After the initial ahhh I began to have butterflies in my
stomach. I had a film running through my head, showing me how so much of my
behaviour was dictated by fear. How I had censored myself because of fear. I saw
myself keeping myself under tight constraints for fear of being thought of
badly, for fear of not being accepted, for fear of being thought of as crazy,
for fear of hurting others and the list goes on. It was quite a revelation. And
I could feel my whole being wanting desperately to let go of it. I could feel
myself yearning to sing at the top of my voice regardless of whether people
liked it or not, to be affectionate to whoever I wanted however I wanted, to be
at ease with all people and to really, really be myself not fearing or even
caring what others thought. The feeling of freedom that accompanied this vision
was amazing. It literally took my breath away. So now it is time for me to
begin. Of course I am still frightened but my vision has given me new hope and I
know that this is my next stage of being. So if you come across me dancing naked
in the streets or passionately kissing a stranger don’t put me down as crazy but
celebrate my freedom from fear with me.
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