Thursday, February 20, 2003

I really don't feel like updating right now. Maybe later.

Saturday, February 8, 2003

I'm so stressed, and so not in a good mood. I'm depressed, and bored, and...ugh!
The thing is, I am pretty sure that I like this guy (not the same guy that I've written about), but I work with him. So it is kind of weird. And my attraction to him isn't something new. I've liked him since...I don't know. A while. But since I started working with him, I really really like him. And, he's a friend, but I don't think that he likes me as anything but a friend. But tonight, I was talking to him, attempting to flirt, and I sounded like a complete idiot! I'm such a loser! But, I really like this guy. More so than the other guy who I've been writing about. But, how do I get him to think of me as more than a friend? I try and flirt with him, but I just come off as sounding like an idiot. Talking with him is no problem, but...I don't know...Maybe I am just an idiot.

Thursday, February 6, 2003

This week has been the week from Hell! Worse, even. It’s the week that got rejected from Hell because Satan thought it was too cruel.
So, it all started on Tuesday I guess. My “friend” Michelle was working at the airport (I don’t work Mondays), and Nicole’s step dad, Tim, came through. Michelle checked him in and everything. But did she ask about Nicole? Nope. That really pisses me off because I have not talked to Nicole in months because none of the phone numbers I have for her work, and she doesn’t have my new phone number, and she doesn’t have internet, so I can’t e-mail her. It sucks, because Nicole is my best friend in the world, and I don’t know where she is or how she is doing. And Michelle knows that I would do anything to talk to Nicole. But she didn’t even ask Tim, because he didn’t recognize her (bitch!). All she thinks about is herself, and it is really starting to get to me. Because I don’t know anything about Nicole. She could have OD’d and been dead for a week and a half, and I wouldn’t know because I have no way of getting a hold of her, or her parents. And Michelle was talking to her freakin’ step dad! What a bitch, I hate her.
And, the guy that I’ve been crushin’ on all year, yeah, he got a girlfriend. A freshman! (No offense to all you freshmen out there, but once you’re not a freshman anymore, you’ll get it.) I was so bummed when I heard. But, he is happy, so I should just be glad that he is happy.
And, people annoy me. They argue all the time, they can’t think for themselves, and they are as annoying as hell!
And then today, I didn’t go to my fourth hour “class” (I go TA for the first grade at the neighboring elementary school) because I didn’t want to see Michelle.
Oh, and then tonight, I’ve got so much crap to do. I really shouldn’t be wasting my time doing this. For you three people out there that may read this. I’ve got a test in Psychology and a test in Art History tomorrow, plus an English paper due tomorrow.
I hate it that I procrastinate so much!

Monday, January 13, 2003

Today is my mom’s birthday. Happy Birthday mom!
Oh! Yay me! I finally finished all my college apps and got them sent in. Most of the deadlines are the fifteenth. (Nothing like waiting till the last minute, eh?) But that is such a huge relief. I strongly recommend anyone who has yet to apply to college NOT to wait till last minute.
And in other news, I talked to Kevin today. I haven’t talked to him since he went back to Norway. (He was an exchange student last year. A very cool kid. He’s also Laura’s boyfriend. They are so cute together.) That was nice.
And yes, I’m still crushing on the same guy that I’ve liked all year. But, I think I’m getting better. I really think I’m convincing myself that we are friends, and that’s all. So, that’s nice.
Oh, and I added another opinion page. It’s about what I think of my English class.
Sorry to make this so short, try not to be too disappointed, but I’ve got to go celebrate my mother’s birth with the family. Yeah!

Thursday, January 9, 2003

I have been so stressed lately. I swear I was growing an ulcer, and then that was growing a friend. It’s horrible! I hate feeling so stressed! Okay, so finals are next week and I am totally completely dreading them. Especially my Psychology final and my Pre-Calculus final. I hate math! My Art History final doesn’t sound too fun either, but I think I can manage that one. Plus, I had another English Essay due today. I did the whole thing last night. (Yeah, that one is my fault. I mean, we have had about three or four weeks to do it and I put it off till the last minute.)
And, just when I thought I was completely over him, nope. He pulls me back in. Why do I continue to like this kid? Because he’s smart, funny, cute and…he’s him. God! I hate the feeling of liking someone you know you have no chance with!
Okay, well I’ve got to get back to studying for finals. I’ll try and update more often. (I’m getting really sick of the look of this page. I think I might change it around.)