Wednesday, December 31, 2003

So I found out that I am Swedish Royalty…kind of…See, apparently my grandpa’s grandma was Swedish Royalty. But she gave up her spot when she came to America (with only a cake plate). So then my grandfather had a chance to reclaim the throne, but he would have to have given up his citizenship to America. He didn’t want to do that, so the throne went unclaimed, and all the land and riches and everything that came with being royal went back to the state. Technically, I guess my grandfather was the last for blood claim. But my mom still hasn’t given up her dreams of royalty and riches. She has dedicated her whole adult life to finding out more about our family so that one day we may go back to Sweden and get what is rightfully ours. (Then again, this was told to us by my grandfather, so to take this with a grain of salt would be far too generous. A whole pillar should do.) So, who knows? I could actually be of royal blood…
While we’re on the family track…my other grandfather (my dad’s dad) had a heart attack, and is having open-heart surgery on Friday. My dad is flying out to Texas tomorrow to see him. It’s a sad thing, but I really think that he is going to be all right. But what if he isn’t? I don’t mean for this to sound…unsympathetic, but I don’t know how to act if he isn’t okay. What do I say? How do I act? What can I do? I’ve never been good with these kinds of things. I don’t know how to act or how to feel. I mean it’s not like I’m that close to him. I love him because he is my grandfather, but I don’t know him at all. He never used to even talk to me or acknowledge me in hardly any way before he married Shari (my step grandmother). Shari has been so good for him. She has made him remember his family and not forget about important days (such as birthdays and holidays…and any day that ends in a “y”.). So how am I supposed to react? But, I know, no matter what happens, that he’ll be okay.

On a happier note…I went and saw The Last Samurai. That was awesome! So frickin’ good! I highly recommend it.

AND!!! Nicole called me!!!! I talked to her (and her mom) for a while. She is doing so well. I’m so happy for her. She is off drugs, and is assistant manager of a leather store (I try not to read into that…). I’m so proud of her. And, the fact that Eileen was with her was awesome. A good sign. Her mom and her haven’t seen each other in about a year and a half, and though it has been longer since I’ve seen her, I feel her mother is a bit more important to her than I may be. But still, it was so good to talk to both of them.

Gods I’ve missed my stereo while at college. I love my stereo. Even though it is old, and the sound has a tendency to copout. But still, it is a good stereo. The best a girl could ask for. I wish I had enough room in my dorm for it; I would bring it back to New York in a heartbeat if only there was room for it. Maybe next year…

Oh! And my brother is gone! I have my room back!!! I love it.

Okay, must finish now. I’m in the middle of watching Moulin Rouge. (I just got done watching Romeo and Juliet. Next…I don’t know…something with Alan Rickman…Dogma perhaps? Or Harry Potter?…hmm…who knows?)

Saturday, December 27, 2003

That is the date, right?
I'm bored. And my eye is twitching...twitch twitch...
Tomorrow is Tea. Joy. I really don't like doing this, but I do think it sometimes turns out fun. Of course, I've only been invited to two of them...yeah, they've been doing tea for years, twice a year, and I get one invite a year (if I'm lucky). Damn family.
Let me explain Tea for those of you who don't know...well, my mother's side of the family goes to fancy places (we're going to the Brown Palace this year) and we all have tea together. We have to dress up nice, and act like we're better then everyone else. It's a bunch of bull...but last year, it was fun. The year before that (that was my first invite that I scored) was awesome. That was the year that my mom was in Tennessee, and she flew in for tea to surprise me. It was awesome. And Kristy brought us all crackers. So we went through tea wearing our paper crowns and playing with the toys that came in them. I was very shocked at how loud we were. But, it was fun. So, even though I do dread these things, they're still entertaining. But, like I said, this is only my third invite, so I'm still on the temp list. I can be replaced. And I don't get invited to summer tea, because...I don't know...I just don't. Am I the black sheep of the family just because I chose to do things my way and not the way of others? Hmmm...
Also, my brother leaves tomorrow! Yippee!! YAY!!! Life can be good. ^_^

Thursday, December 25, 2003

So, I hear it's Christmas...

Okay…so it’s been a week…simmer down! I’m sure you all survived fine.
Well, we’ll start from where we left off…Last Thursday night, was movie night! We (Ashley, Kate, Kate, Lern and I) watched Maverick, then 10 Things I Hate About You. Good wholesome fun. But I was a bit irked that Kristi didn’t join in on the festivities. I mean, we had been planning this all week, and it was the last night for a month that we were all together, and she apparently thought it was better to spend the whole night on the phone with her boyfriend who’d she see the next day. (Plus, I think she was mad at me for some reason…) That irked me, but, what are you going to do?
Then, Friday, I took my medical terminology final and went into town with Photo Kate. Um…I don’t think we really did anything in town…we scammed the bus driver, that was fun…and money saving!
Then, Friday night I packed and watched Liar Liar with Photo Kate. Then I helped Crew Kate pack up all her stuff. She’s gone for good. We had to fit all her stuff into limited space…it took us a while. But we watched Pirates of the Caribbean while doing it, so all was well.
Then Saturday, Kate and I rode the bus together to Binghamton, where she was leaving from, and then I headed for the Greyhound station. The bus was an hour late, so I was in the bus station for what seemed like forever. When the bus finally did arrive, I took the it to Syracuse and got a taxi. The old man who drove the taxi was nice, not creepy. So, big plus there. Then, I went to my cheap motel to stay for the weekend. I checked in, then Butch, the guy who works at the front desk, and I watched some TV in the little lounge thingie. Then, bed is good. But Saturday really was a productive day. I read “The Importance of Being Ernest” by Oscar Wilde. It was funny. (It was supposed to be funny, right? ‘Cause I found it very humorous.) So now I have to see the movie.
So on Sunday I hung out in the hotel all day. I met a nice old lady and her cat. Poor cat was on a leash…kinda weird…And I watched Pirates again (with audio commentary. I am obsessed with movies with audio commentary). And Titanic was on TV. So I got sucked into that. I hate it on TV. They cut out the best parts!
Then Monday I woke up at 3:30am (after going to bed around 1:30ish…) and went to the airport at 4am. Then, I flew home. A very productive flying day. I read “Salomé” by Oscar Wilde, and got a lot of Picture of Dorian Gray read. (Yes, I’m reading it again…I love that book!) It was a very Wilde weekend…tee hee hee… And then I got home. I took a nap. Sleep is good I hear. And then my dad and I went to Glenwood. That was fun.
Then on Tuesday, I went and saw Return of the King with my brother (good happy news about him later on...stay tuned for the excitement!!) That was such a frickin' good movie! Three and a half hours, but so well worth it! I loved it!!! Then, later that night my mom and I, and my dad watched Jingle All the Way. Arnold is funny…“I’ve negelected my family!”…tee hee hee…Then…um…
Wednesday my mom and I made stuff. And Wednesday night we did the Christmas thing and opened gifts. It was a good year. Let’s see…I received Nightmare Before Christmas, X-Men 1&2, Lion King special edition, a couple of notebooks, letter writing stuff (as in stationary and envelopes), a new seal for my letters, a cute Zero doll, and this nifty thingie for my computer that is small and lets me save everything and get rid of all my floppy disks. I think people are trying to tell me I have too many disks…I only have like, 20 or so…yeah…I think that was about it…but, all in all, good Christmas. My mom got Sea Biscuit, so we watched that. It was a pretty good movie.
Then today, I woke up and watched the end of Breakfast at Tiffany’s, and then we (my mom, brother and I, dad had to work) watched X-men 1 and 2. Then Roxy came over and we exchanged gifts (she drew a pretty picture of a wolf for me and framed it). Then I went over to her house and saw what she got for Christmas, and we watched Lara Croft Cradle of Life, and I ate dinner with her family. And then I came home, then I went next door to do this grand update. And that is where I am now. Phew….
Well, now for some news…we’ll start with the not so happy news…
Crew Kate is gone forever. She is transferring to the college in her town. It was a very sad moment. She will be missed. *sniffle*
Okay, now for some very exciting news!!!
After 20 years on this planet, my brother has finally decided to try not being a bum (or at least not a bum who still lives at home) and is moving back to Tennessee on Sunday! Yay!!! I’m so happy! My parents are a bit worried about it, and honestly, so am I, but the kid has got to learn to grow up. But, this is a very happy occasion. This means that I don’t have to put up with his bull shit any more, and I won’t have to watch my parents put up with it either!! And I also get my room back! Yay!!!
Okay, I think that is about it for now…if I think of anything else later, meh. I’ll just wait a week and put it up.
AND!!! I passed Biology!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Just got back from my biology final. No, I don't want to talk about it. Why do people assume that when one says one does not want to talk about something, it means that it's bad? I don't get it. Do we as humans brag so much about our accomplishments that when we don't want to talk about something it is only because of failure? Well you know what, don't assume anything. Just because I don't want to talk about it does not mean I feel I did bad...Nor does it mean I feel I did well. I am completely apathetic towards that biology final I just took. I mean, what good does it do to stress about it now? It's over. I can't go back in time and change anything. What's done is done and nothing is going to change that, and I need to learn to come to grips with that.

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

So...tired...must...stay.....awake....must...study...
for...finals...must....not...fall...asle...................

Friday, December 12, 2003

So, we just got back from watching The Breakfast Club. It is 11:30pm. It was fun. I love that movie. Judd Nelson rocks! ^_^!! It was a lay in movie. So, yeah. Really nothing more to say about that...Except Nick wasn't there, and that was not happy. Nick usually runs the movies for IC After Dark. I really wanted to talk to him about majoring in Film, or at least minoring in it. But alas, he was MIA for the night. It's so sad. Hopefully I'll get to see him before the end of the semester. Before he leaves.
In other news...Smirnoff Ice is good. Skyy Blue isn't that bad, but Smirnoff is better. It was the last day of classes today, so we celebrated. Three and a half bottles later, and I'm the most sober. But, honestly, they're only 5% alcohol each. (So the bottle says.) But, it's sad. Shira was funny. Good quotes came out of her tonight....haha...people get funny when they get drunk (after only 3 bottles). It was fun.
Tomorrow I must study. I mean, I have to start studying. Finals are next week. Must study...Starting tomorrow! As for now...there are still two Skyy Blues left and they're calling my name...

Thursday, December 11, 2003

So, with finals next week (and me needing at least a 63% on my bio final to pass) here is a brief overview of how I spent my day:
9:00am Woke up
10:00am-11:30am Did laundry
12:00pm-12:45pm Watched a bit of The Santa Clause with Lern and Brett
1:00pm Mall with photo Kate
3:00pm Picture with Josh Groban cut out
3:11pm Picture with Giant Nutcracker Statue
4:00pm Back at IC
4:30pm-5:30pm MTV
5:45pm-6:45pm Hung out with Ashley and Crew Kate
6:55pm-7:05pm Did this pathetic update
Later, I plan on watching Friends, then jello shots, then bed.
*Note not one ounce of studying all day....

8:45pm
But I'm in kind of an irky mood. I am just...eh. Not a big people person right now and I feel like I could snap at any minute. And I feel sorry for the person who is unfortunate enough to be at the receiving end of my blow up. So, to prevent any unwanted damage to someone's psyche, I think I may just end up attempting to go to bed...and hope that in the morning all will be better.

Tuesday, December 9, 2003

It's amazing the power someone can have just be sitting in the right chair.
So, I was in open lab studying for my bio lab practical (which is very soon), and you know me: if there is a swivel chair near by, I'll be in it, 'cause their fun! And, naturally, the only swivel chair was the one that the teacher would sit in, but since no teacher was around...yay swivel chair! So, I was sitting in my chair, swiveling slightly as I studied, and people kept coming up to me thinking I was a teaching assistant. It was great fun. I encouraged their delusion, but I never once said I was a TA. It was fun. So the whole time everyone in open lab thought I knew all and kept asking me questions that they knew the answer to. It was interesting. I plan on continuing this experiment by sitting in on other classes and open labs...just to see how far I can go. I want to see if power really is all in the chair.

Okay, now I must go actually study and take my bio lab practical. Wish me luck!!

Today's song obsession....

"I don't want you to give it all up
and leave your own life collecting dust
and I don't want you to feel sorry for me
you never gave us a chance to be

And I don't need you to be by my side
and tell me that everything's all right
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
you know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?

I did enough to show you that I
was willing to give and sacrifice
and I was the one who was lifting you up
when you thought your life had had enough
and when I get close you turn away,
there's nothing that I can do or say
so now I need you to tell me the truth
you know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
to make you change your mind

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
is it a waste of time?

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
to make you change your mind

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?
(what is it I have to say?)
so why are you running away?
(to make you admit you're afraid)
why are you running away?"

--Running Away, by Hoobastank

Purity Test Results!!

Ashley: 92% pure
Crew Kate: 89% pure
Kristi: 86% pure
Photo Kate: 70% pure
Lauren: 60% pure
Me: 50% pure
Who would have thought I would be the least pure....

Sunday, December 7, 2003

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_< My head still hurts! I want to cry;it hurts so much...ouchies!!!!!!! And I can't find my fucking bio lab manual and my lab practical is Tuesday!!!!! Grrrr.....

Saturday, December 6, 2003

My head hurts...still. Freakin'A! Ouchies.....I downed about a handfull of advil, so I'm just waiting for it to kick in. Three days of a headache...one more day and I'm downing the whole bottle. Best not to take chances on these things.
Any way...today was a good day. We played in the snow. It was really cold. But so much fun. My childhood has revisited, and it was a good time. But alas, I am back to the now. "Live in the now!" I'm so nostalgic, it's sad. It's the winter that does it to me. I love the winter, and it's fantastic...but it makes me yearn for the past. I miss the carefree nights walking. The lazy days doing nothing but snowboarding in the streets. Coming home and attempting to build an ice skating rink in the front yard. Good times. The lights, the conversations, the air. I miss it all. But, I really shouldn't be living in the past like this. I don't want to go back. I do, I'd love to. But, it would be hell on my psyche. It's hell thinking about it. Always dwelling on it. But I can't help it. I miss it. I think what I miss most is the people. I miss Bud, the Bud of years ago, before driving came into the picture. The Bud that would write poetry and try and hide it from his best friends. I miss the times that I would look forward for night to fall so that we could be together, just walking down the cold streets and talking. Swinging with the cold air blowing our faces, the wind whispering in voices of little children. I miss those carefree nights. I miss the conversations with Mike. He knew how to hold my attention. Something that seems to be very hard nowadays. Just hanging out with Mike. You didn't need to talk to be close with him. Sitting together on the balcony, and saying nothing. And the singing of Bud as we watched the stars together. I miss that. There are nights and times I would kill to relive, but I'm afraid that I would be the one to suffer.

Friday, December 5, 2003

I HAVE INTERNET AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In other news...I have internet access!!!!! Oh so happy about that one. ^_^!!!!
Okay, so, did a new quiz. And...Well...yeah. Oh, my letter from Henderson! I was so happy to get that! I haven't heard from her in forever! For those of you who don't know, Henderson and I were best friends throughout elementary school and middle school. She moved to Kansas, and haven’t heard from her since, but I got a letter!!!! YAY!!! I need to write her back.
Um…yeah. I guess that’s it. I lead a boring life, I know. Oh, and I know I can't spell, but don't harp on me for being lousy at spelling just because you need something to do to fill your pointless existence. Well, yeah. I guess I’m done now. Toodles!

Hours later...

I'm bored! It's about midnight...and I'm about to die of boredom!!! I wanna go outside...and go sledding!! But no one will go...Bummer...I miss Mike. I wanna talk to someone...I wanna talk with Mike. He's a fun one. I miss Mike. We'll have an imaginary conversation with him...or not...whatever. Okay, done now....yeah...

Okay...I switched over to the lab. Thank the gods for 24-hour labs here...
I can't believe no one wanted to come outside with me. It really isn't that cold. I've been in colder. I miss those nights. The nights we'd walk down the cold winter streets, snow shining from the light of the moon, mirroring the stars with the crystals that twinkled. The twinkling of Christmas lights in my hand. I miss those nights. The nights where the cold didn't get to us, because we only needed each other to stay warm. The company we were in rivaled only by that of the dream world. And only in the dream world may I relive those warm winter nights.

Thursday, December 4, 2003

Today is Kristi's 19th birthday. Happy birthday Kristi!!!

My fuckin' head hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ever get that feeling where your spine is pushing just too hard against your brain? Yeah, well, that's what my headache is like....mostly. It has sinced moved a bit, but is pretty much centered around the base. Damn Scabbers. The villagers must have pissed him off again....Don't they know that it affects me too! OUCHIES!!!! My head!!! It hurts!!!!! :(
Okay, done now....After I say one thing...I got a letter from Henderson!!!! YAY!!!! Including pictures of her and her husband and their baby! Yay! I'll celebrate more when Scabbers isn't trying to destroy the village in my head.

Tuesday, December 2, 2003

Oy. Let's see if this works...Awesome.
OH!! Pirates of the Caribbean is out today!!!!
So, anyway, I'm back in New York. Thank the gods! I just...I don't know...don't feel home in Colorado anymore. It's not like I hate the place though, it still rocks, and knows how winter is supposed to be done more than any other state I think, but I don't know...It's weird. It's like, have you ever had that terribly depressing feeling like your childhood is shattering before your very eyes? Well, that is what I get from Colorado...Or at least from Gypsum. It's horribly depressing, and I don't want to think about it. I know I should just deal with it and move on, but no, I like living in my delusional alternative reality...yes, I think I'll stay here for a bit longer...
Well, in other news, my computer isn't working...no surprise there. Well, it's not that it is not working...just the internet. So, that sucks to be me. I have a presentation to do tomorrow morning, which I totally forgot about, so I am currently sitting in the computer lab attempting to find information about giving blood...Enough information to take up 15 minutes of time...hmmm...I may just have to talk...real....slow...
Anyway...I guess I'm done. I had a lot more I was going to write, but I just can't seem to remember it all...Besides that, I am growing weary of this computer lab thing and I think I would like to leave...But I can't, because I've got to get this stupid blood presentation thingie done....grrr.....

Monday, November 24, 2003...I think...

So, I'm home. And I've completely lost track of time...I think it is Monday...Who knows?
Anyway, I'm in Colorado for the week. Yay! But I miss New York! I want to go back. Soon...Not that I'm not happy to be home. No, it's good to see everyone. But, I don't know. Maybe I've just been so naive and full of myself that I thought it was going to be different. It's like, the day I got home, my parents seemed happy to see me, but now...it's different. I don't know...I guess I just expected them to be excited that I'm home, because I've not seen them in three friggin' months! But today, my mom wanted me to stay home so I could spend time with my family, and I was kind of happy, because I thought that meant that they did miss me. But all day, she was at work (right next door) and didn't even bother to come over and say hi all day. (I know I must sound full of myself, but before, like last year, she was always coming over and saying hi. But now, she's just like...yeah, no. And it's not like she was busy in the office or anything...whatever, I'm just selfish I guess.) And my dad was cleaning all day, so he didn't really do anything with me. I put in The Santa Clause, because I know he likes that movie, and asked if he wanted to watch it with me, but he said no. I don't know, I just feel like they don't really care that I'm home...And, they sold Marc! (For those of you who don't know, Marc was my car.) I can't believe they did that! Without even telling me they were thinking of getting rid of him. I noticed he wasn't where I left him, and asked my mom where he was, and my mom told me they sold him. I yelled. I can't believe they sold my car! I love that car! Sure, it didn't have an engine in it, but I was working on it! It takes time for a poor college student to save up enough money to buy her car a new engine. But the point is that it was MY car! That really pissed me off, and depressed me. Why couldn't they sell Neville instead? At least Marc has cruise control...Is this my punishment for going to school across the country and not going to DU like they wanted? (Or, could I just be hugely self-centered about all this....yeah, don't answer that...) Moral of the story here kids: If you want to feel like you matter, don't stray too far...ever. What a depressing moral...I'm sorry...
Well, home has not been all that bad. I hung out with Roxy yesterday. That was fun. We went and saw Texas Chainsaw Masacre. Scary movie...I loved it! I love horror movies! ^_^!!
Um...well, I got in to Colorado on Saturday, and it snowed...a lot. That was cool. Very pretty. I like it. And it was good, because I was complaining in New York about how there is no snow there and it is almost December, so I guess the weather figured it owed me one. ^_^...mmm...pretty...
OH! And I got a letter from Henderson!! She got married and had a baby. She sent me pictures of her and her husband and their son. Aww...I'm so happy that I finally heard something from her. She was my best friend throughout elementary school...and middle school...and throughout most of high school, then she moved...Very tragic. But, happy day!
So, I'll be back in New York on Sunday. Can't wait. I miss it so much. I miss everyone! I complain too much. I'm just a hard one to please, aren't I? Damn.
Okay, I guess I'm done now...Wait! I watched The Secret Garden. It was on HBO. I love that movie. It rocks.
And I finally started working on my essential movie list.
Okay, done now.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

So, Thursdays…yep, Thursdays…My laundry day. Yep, I’m sitting here waiting for my laundry to be done. What else…..I leave tomorrow for home!! Well, kind of. Tomorrow, I leave for Syracuse with Jenn, then I’m staying the night at her house and on Saturday morning my flight leaves…at 7am! Eeef! I really don’t like the thought of how early I am going to have to get up…But, I get home around 10am Colorado time. So, yay!
Oh! Last night, I went to a silent dinner for my sign language class. It was fun. Basically, it was all the ASL one and two classes, and a bunch of people from the deaf community all having dinner together and playing games and telling stories. No talking all night, just signing, and I thought it was a lot of fun, and was not at all hard to know what they were saying. I thought it was easier to understand them when we were surrounded by deaf people and had no choice but to understand them. It was fun. Oh, and my big happiness was when the people that gave me a ride, Melissa and Erin, they thought I was a junior. Nope, just me, a lonely freshman. And, also, great happiness came in my skills when one person at the silent dinner thought I was deaf, and another thought I was in Sign Language two. That made me happy; because that means that I’m good at the language, right? Right! Right, then…
After that last night, I went to this comedy/goodbye thing for the twins Nick and Chris. I went for Nick, I don't really know Chris. I've talked to Chris about once. And Kate thinks the twins are cute. It was fun, I kept having to tell her which one was which. (I don't think that they are that hard to tell apart.) Though I didn't get to talk to Nick a lot. I mean, when we got there, he yelled over and told us to come sit closer. But, alas, we had to sit in the back because we had to leave early for a floor meeting. I am very bummed I didn't get to talk to Nick. Oh well, I see him nearly everywhere so I'll talk to him later hopefully. But the whole thing last night was for them because they are both graduating at the end of this semester. It's sad times...
Oh, and before all that yesterday, I took a medical terminology test...Yeah, won't talk about that one...But in Biology, she talked about high altitude sickness, and she started talking about Colorado (Vail particularly...but whatever, close enough). So that made me happy. She was saying how there is a lot less oxygen there, and how it is hard to breathe, and I'm like, no, you people are just spoiled. There is far too much oxygen here. It hurts to breathe, seriously. But, she made up for it by giving us all teddy grams! We're in the process of studying the digestive tract, well we finished it yesterday...whatever. But we all got to eat teddy grams, then she tracked their path through the digestive tract, and it was good times. What else did I do??? Well, I checked the mail yesterday, still have not gotten the books my mom sent me last Thursday...gurg! I hate the mail system!
Okay, enough about me…before I leave on break, I thought it would be nice to do an ode to some of my college friends…

Kristi--Kristi is my roommate. She is from Connecticut. Kristi is an accounting major. She’s crazy, but we love her anyway. ;) She’s a lot of fun, especially in the late hours of the night when you can’t sleep, she’s there to talk about girlie stuff like cute boys and keeps you laughing. I cannot count the number of nights we’ve been up past 1 in the morning when we both need to get up by 7:30 am to get to class on time laughing at our insaneness. Props for Kristi!

Ashley—Ashley is Crew Kate’s roommate. Ashley is from Pennsylvania. She is a music teaching major. It runs in her family to be a music teacher. Her mom is a music teacher, and I think she said her grandpa was a music teacher and so on. Ashley, is just Ashley. And that is all she needs to be. Ashley is so much fun. Again, keeps you laughing and in a happy mood. She is definitely the most religious of the group. Usually, someone really religious would bug the crap out of me, but Ashley manages to pull it off. She isn’t one of the annoying ones; she understands other peoples’ beliefs and respects them. She is always busy and I don’t see her enough. But it is always happy times when she is around.

Lauren—Lauren, A.K.A. Lern, is from Philadelphia. Lern is majoring in TV/R (television/radio). She has the cutest hair in the world. She doesn’t think so, but it is. It’s all curly, and yeah. Let’s see…she is engaged to Wayne. They are so cute. They are perfect for each other. They fit. Lern is good to talk to. She tells it like it is, and I respect her for it. She’s fun to talk to about everything. Lern is one of those people who you can hang around with forever, and never get sick of. She doesn’t have it in her to ever get annoying. We love Lern; she’s a great addition to this place and such an awesome friend. The sad thing about Lern, she is transferring next year.

Crew Kate—Crew Kate is Ashley’s roommate. Kate is from Iowa. She doesn’t have a specific major yet, but she’s interested in costume design and acting…basically as far as I can tell, the whole acting world. I can definitely see her be a big part in the acting world some day. Kate does crew. She’s an interesting one. She reads a lot, which is a big plus. And she listens to nothing but soundtracks to musicals like Les Mis and Rent and so on. Kate is obsessed with France, and everything that goes along with it. Kate’s biggest claim to fame: She looks like Johnny Depp in girl form. Seriously, it’s creepy. She puts on a mustache and dresses up as a guy, and you’d swear it was Johnny walking down the hall.

Photo Kate—Photo Kate is from Maine. She is a writer as well, and is majoring in English Teaching. She writes poetry more than anything else. She writes good poetry, she’s got talent. She used to dive, but she didn’t like the couch here, which is kind of a bummer, because I can tell she misses it. She also takes photos, hints her nickname, “photo kate”. She likes Star Trek…yeah, we’ll leave that one where it is…Kate is also fun, and she is good to talk to. I think she reminds me slightly of me, only in the way that she really doesn’t like to be surrounded by people 24/7, and we all know I am definitely not a people person.

Hours later...

Fuck this world!

Monday, November 17, 2003

Mondays kinda suck. They are just filled with...blahness...yeah...And, of course it probably doesn't help the situation any that I slept in until minutes before I had to leave for class. So, after throwing on the first thing I could find and running a brush through my hair, I run to Kate's and she is still sleeping. Yay! Someone who slept in more than me. So, I got to wake her ass up. It was good for her. Then...It's Monday...Even though Biology first thing in the morning is never a good thing, it seems to drag even more on Monday mornings. Then, I saw "the kid" twice today, and I don't know...for some reason...he just depresses me...hmmm....Anyway, so then, in Medical Terminology (the most boring class known to man) we talked about asthma and saw a video where a girl was having an asthma attack. And, it's a scary thing. If you've ever had one, or ever seen someone, it's scary. I've never had one, but I once had to watch my friend go through one. It scared the hell out of me. Still does. He's fine now, but the thought of that scares the bejeez out of me. So, that brought up some not so very fond memories.
Yeah, so yesterday, we won this mystery dinner thingie. We teamed up as a group, Kate, Lern, Kristi, Zack and I. We teamed up mostly because no one had any idea who the killer was, and we just wanted to throw in a guess for good measure. (In reality, Kristi and Zack were the only ones who did any work and gathered clues.) So we put down the obvious choice, "The Maid", because let's face it, what could be more predictable? It's always the butler or the maid. And since there was no butler, it was obviously the maid. That was the logic we went on, and it turns out we were right. Not because of our amazing detective skills, but because the people who wrote the game have no sense of originality. I felt kind of bad though, because some of the other people got every single clue, and spent the whole week doing nothing but going through the clues and formulating the perfect theory, but didn't win. (They thought too much.) But, meh. What are you going to do? So, any way, we won Clue, and a certificate. Yay us!
Okay, I'm bored...I think I'm going to travel to the Pub and write...I could write here, but meh, why?

Sunday, November 16, 2003

I'm bored. I know, what else is new? But, I'm bored! I want to go outside and do something...but what?...hmmm...I'll get back to you on that.
I know I know...I should be studying. Especially after that horror of a biology test...yeah, I should definately devote more time to study. But it's just so damn boring! And Hugh Grant is laughing at me! Why do you laugh at me Hugh? I thought we were friends...Whatever, Johnny Depp is hotter! Yeah, Johnny wouldn't laugh at me, would you Johnny?
Okay, I guess I've rambled on enough...but...Good gods I'm so bored!!!!!!!
Last night, I wrote a bit. I mostly typed up the stuff I wrote the other day. Nikolas is becoming my hero...even though he is the "bad guy" in the story....whatever, he's hot, and he's my hero! Yeah, aren't you proud? I'm advancing now. My stories may actually have a good and a bad guy...how boring is that? I think I'll screw up the lines of good and evil, so not even I will be able to tell the difference. Yeah, it could be fun. Tee hee...
So, yeah, still bored...but the name Nikolas isn't that the best name? And Kristopher. Good names. If I ever have a kid, and it's a boy, I'd name it Nikolas, definatley. Awesome name.
Okay, must study...Oh wait!! Lewis! I talked to Lewis a bit today! A very little bit...I'm supposed to be studying right now....But it was good. I haven't talked to Lew in forever! Yay Lewis!! ^_^ Isn't that the cutest face in the world?? I think it is. ^_^ We should all learn to contort our faces to look like that.
Okay, this time I mean it...I'm going to stop babbling and study...or go see if Crew Kate is doing anything...She said she was going to try and study too...but she's like me. "Studying" usually means "playing on the computer until we're done"...yeah, I'm bored......

Friday, November 14, 2003

Yippee!!! Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban trailer!!! Soooo can't wait!!! Oh, and the kids got so cute! The kid who plays Malfoy, my goddess, he got hot! And so did the kid who plays Harry. Though, Ron is still cutest of them all. (We love you Ron!!) YAY!!!
In other news, my computer is working again!! YAY!!!
And, it started snowing here, and the sky is all colorless, and none of the trees have any leaves anymore...and it's so pretty!!
Eeep! Good mood!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

Okay, so my computer is on the fritz. So I am reduced to begging other people for usage of their computer. I feel kinda bad asking people to use their computer, but...what are you going to do? We live in a computer age and everyone has a computer, and those who don't, rot....Okay, maybe not...but still...It's nice to think about. So, yep....Hopefully, I'll get the part to fix my computer soon. 'Til then, don't be surprised if I show up on your doorstep looking for computer access.
In other news, I got my blood drawn today. It was fun. I love getting my blood taken. It's fun! ^_^ Yeah...I'm an odd one...but I do enjoy it. (Even though they had to stick me 3 different times inorder to get a vein...I have bad veins apparently.)
And!! Kate and I were looking at rather amusing web sites...So, Christians around the world, tell me, is this really what you think? Matt (from the Real World New Orleans) is funny. The Truth? To tell you the truth, that last site really pissed me off! It's horrible, and those facts need to be checked and rechecked because a lot of them are very wrong. It only hurts their case to present untruthful facts. Poor people...What's next? Not being able to trust the internet? What is this world coming to?

Sunday, November 9, 2003

TADA! Ohhh...Pretty...okay, new layout is up. And it's pretty. And I'm tired...and I've got tests to study for...so I'll finish all the fine-tuneing later. Hope you like. If you don't, bummer. 'Cause I think it's pretty.

Thursday, November 6, 2003

We went and saw Matrix Revolutions last night. (We being Kate, Kate, Pete, Shira, Kristi and I) It was good! I loved it! So much better than the second one. (Which wouldn't be that hard.) Don't worry, if you haven't seen it, I will not give anything away. But, I will say that the ending fits. It was just what it needed to be. And the final fight scene between Neo and Agent Smith is freakin' amazing! Best fight scene I think I've ever seen. I would watch the whole movie again just for the fight scene.

And Kate is almost done with the new layout! (Thank you Kate!!!) It's pretty. I like it a lot. So that should be up and lookin' good here sometime soon. Yay!

I registered for classes for next semester. YAY!! Fun fun. I'm in Creative Writing. Very happy about that. So, here is what my schedule looks like now:
Monday and Wednesday
Personal Essay..............10:00am-10:50am
Intro to Creative Writing...1:00pm-1:50pm
Intro to Logic..............3:00pm-3:50pm
Sign Language II............4:00pm-5:15pm
Tuesday and Thursday
Intro to Philosophy.........10:50am-12:05pm
Friday
Personal Essay..............10:00am-10:50am
Intro to Creative Writing...1:00pm-1:50pm
Intro to Logic..............3:00pm-3:50pm
Not too shabby. Even though I will be giving up my free Thursdays. Oh, but I'm not taking any Art History classes. I'm very bummed about that. (Guess I'll just have to take lots next year!)

Okay, rant time.
I am so sick of this world. It's like, all anyone can think about is how skinny they are. At least if you're a girl. And don't bother lying and saying it isn't true, and that you don't think of that, because we all know it's a lie. It's just that, that topic comes up all the time when I'm around my friends, and it's just kind of a touchy subject for me. All my life I've been told I was fat, if not by the public, then by my parents. It's kind of sad that my parents have told me that I'm fat, but they have. Especially my mother. She reminds me frequently that I could stand to lose some weight. And, I don't know. I guess that's why it's so touchy for me. All my life, I've never been comfortable in my own skin. I've been programed to think that I'm not good enough. It's sad really, but I'm sick of it. I'm always sick of it. But, the thing is, it annoys the hell out of me when my friends bring it up and they say they're fat. Most of my friends are either normal, or smaller than normal, and it is really unhealthy that they go to the gym all the time and go on crazy diets because they think they are so fat and need to lose weight. It's kinda insulting to me, because, I don't know. It's like, I sit there, listening to all this, telling them that they are fine, and don't need to lose any weight but don't say anything about me. And I just get this feeling that they say this stuff, then look at me and think, "yeah, if I need to lose weight, then you definately need to." And, yeah, maybe I am just being paranoid, but God! Why do these people need to think they need to be stick skinny to look good? I hate that! And then...I don't know. I'm just sick of people always saying, "oh, I ate too much. I'm going to get so fat." When all they ate was a piece of bread and a bite of something else. I'm just sick of this topic, and how it always seems to find it's way into conversation.