Thursday, October 30, 2003

Tomorrow is Halloween!!!!

In other news...
I officially switched majors. I am now double majoring in Writing and Philosophy/Religion (philosophy and religion are a joint major. Which means I don't have to waste time minoring in religion. Yay me!) And minoring in Art History. (Fun fun!) Yeah, I told my parents...um, that didn't go over so well...They both got very upset. (And my dad never gets upset. It was creepy. It was the only time in my 18 years of knowing him that I have ever seen him get upset....) They mentioned money, and how I'd make more money being a doctor. Yeah, that kinda got to me....but they both appologized for that remark later. They have pretty much appologized for flipping out on me...but I think they're still a bit disappointed that I changed majors. Whatever, at least I'm happy now. (Oh, and I dropped my Anatomy and Physiology class, and I don't think I told them....oops. Oh well, it's better for all involved if they don't know that.)
What else...well, I know, the page still looks the same. Kate is working on a new layout for me. (THANK YOU KATE!!!!) Hopefully it'll be done soon. But she is a college student first, my computer slave second. ;)
I really think that is about it...Oh, wait. Quick note: Owen, I don't care how much you beg and plead, you are not getting back on the list. You broke the rules, and you are banned for life. Sorry, live with it. :)

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Okay, this is a list-only entry.

Monday, October 20, 2003

I am in an irky mood. Why? Because. Now don't ask stupid questions!
Of course, no one has noticed I'm in a bad mood, so it makes it worse. I have come to realize that I am invisible. I need to accept the fact and move on. I also need to accept the fact that humans were put on this earth just to annoy me. Each and every one of them! They are all here to be a pain in my ass one way or the other. And they're doing a damn good job at it!

Sunday, October 19, 2003

Is it wrong that I'm so bored already in college? I mean, I can't stand my classes anymore, and the thought of having to take more classes similar to these for the next four years is severely depressing. What if I changed my major? I would love to major in Philosophy and Writing. Wouldn't that be great? Yeah, it would...until my parents found out. (Mom, dad, I love ya, but enough is enough.) They would truly flip if they found out. I could just not tell them. Yeah, they would find out. But who cares, right? Since when have I ever cared that someone wasn't happy with what makes me happy? Okay, bad example...
But, could you imagine what my parents would say? Or worse, think? They have been telling everyone since the day I mentioned it would be cool to be a doctor that their daughter was going to become a doctor! And if they knew I wanted to change majors, and not be a medical doctor, what would they say? "What can you do with a degree in philosophy?" "Writing is a good hobby, but can you really make a living off it?" I know they just want the best for me, and they push me to have a really good job in the future because neither of them went to college, but what if I don't make it all the way through college? I feel like with my current major and the classes that I will have to take, I can see myself not finishing college.
God, not finishing college? I couldn't do that. I need college. It's the only thing that has gotten me away. I escape in college. I need college. The thought of not finishing college, or worse, going back home to live, does not sit right with me. I can't do that. Not because of what they want, but because of what I want. I want to be free from there. I want to be happy.
When people ask me what I want to be when I grow up, I answer, "happy". I mean, isn't that what's important in life? But, how do you know what will make you happy? I mean, right now, writing makes me happy. And the thought of doing nothing but writing for the rest of my life makes me happy. But what if in a couple of years, that thought doesn't make me happy? What if I can't cut it as a writer? Yeah, I've always thought it would be awesome to teach creative writing, but would that make me happy?

Thursday, October 16, 2003

So, I'm bored. Um...Let's see...Well, it is officially fall break. YAY!!! But everyone is gone. There are just a handful of us left in the dorm. Last night, we all hung out in Bessie's room, and that was about it. I'm bored.
What else...Oh! I talked to Annie, Rosalie, and Elyse yesterday. That was cool. I haven't talked to them in just about forever, so yay!!
Okay, I guess that is about it.
Oh, and Kate said she would help me redo my site, so it won't be so stupid. So hopefully that will be done soon.
Okay, I'm done now.

Hours and hours later...

Sorry Kate, you may not want to read this.
So, today, we all went to the mall (Kate, Kate, Bessie and I) and oh my goddess Kate annoyed the hell out of me. It’s like, she agrees with just about everything other Kate says. It’s like, get your own opinions! It’s okay to be different. I mean, first off, I really don’t prefer hanging out with Kate and Kate when they are together because I feel like such an outsider because my name isn’t Kate. (Separate, they are awesome people. I love hanging out with them...when they are separated.) It’s like they have their own club, “The Kate Club”, and if you’re not named Kate, you get ignored. And, maybe I just like attention but it gets hella annoying. But, then Kate is just…agh! I can’t stand it sometimes. She has no opinions of her own, then she spits out random facts that she thinks are right. Like, the one that really gets on my nerves is that she keeps saying how everyone in France hates Americans because of the war. I am more than positive that not all of France hates us. That’s like saying everyone in America supports Bush, and I know that is not a fact. (Let’s get him out of office as soon as possible please.) It just annoys me. And I know I shouldn’t let it get to me, but I do, and I can’t help it.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Rant time...Kind of...

I am so irked at the world right now. People let petty things like ethics get in the way. If a dead fetus will save someone’s life, how is that unethical? And cloning? What the hell is that all about? Cloning is not unethical, it’s damn cool. It is merely a step forward in science. People are just afraid of advancing into the years. Why? I mean, I can see why someone may not like the idea of cloning, but think of all the things that could come from it. It’s pretty awesome. And messing with genetics, that is not necessarily a bad thing. Messing with genetics could help us get rid of diseases that cause so much pain. But no, in times like these, so-called ethics rule the world. I think we should keep religion and state separate. If someone thinks it’s wrong to clone, that’s good for them, but it shouldn’t be put in the way of science.
Ugh! I am just so irked at this world! What is it with all these “ethics”? What’s more important, saving thousands of lives, or being a pain in the ass?

Thursday, October 9, 2003

I am so tired. I think it is because I am getting sick. That sucks. But I am so tired. I have no energy what so ever. And I need to study for a test I have tonight. This is not helping. I can't keep my eyes open long enough to read through my notes. (I'm typing this with my eyes shut, so hopefully I'm not making too many mistakes.) I don't feel good. I think I'll go back to bed.

Wednesday, October 8, 2003

Okay, I finally put up the girl's perspective. Sorry it took so long. But, it's only going to be up for about a week. Then I'm taking it back off. I don't know why, I just don't want it up for too long. So, have fun.

OH! And I switched my AIM SN. So, here is my new one: phoenix letters Talk to me all you AIM users!

Monday, October 6, 2003

Badger badger badger badger! Ha! Go here! (Make sure your volume is turned up.) It's hilarious and will keep you entertained for hours!
Badger badger badger badger badger! Mushroom! Mushroom! Badger badger badger badger badger! Snake! Snake! Badger badger badger badger....

Saturday, October 4, 2003

I'm bored...so bored...and I don't feel too great either. It's like...have you ever had a hang over? Well, I feel like that, minus the headache, thank God (though I feel it attempting to edge its way in...). I would imagine this is what a hang over feels like...not that I've ever had one before...*_*
In other news, Lauren's boyfriend came down yesterday. She's so happy. They're so cute together. So, yay Lauren!
Oh, and I totally suck. Neither I, nor Kate got a part in the kid's movie. Bummer for us. Whatever, it was fun.
Okay, that's all for now I guess. Bye all.

And I still miss Mike.

Wednesday, October 1, 2003

Hello!! So, today is such a perfect day outside. It's not very sunny, and a bit cold. But not very cold. It's, a crisp type of cold. A cold remenicent of my days and nights spent stealing Christmas lights, and walking up and down the streets with Bud. It's a good feeling.
Okay, so today in my Anatomy and Physiology class, I spent the whole time writing. Not taking notes, but writing because I can't just not write. I wanted to kick myself after he told us class was over. That is probably the hardest class, if not the most important, and I spent the whole lecture not listening to a word he said. I've got to stop doing that. But, so all is not at a total waste, here is what I wrote. This half is from the boy's perspective, and this half is from the girl's perspective. They're not the best, no where near very good, but I figure I should put them up here so it doesn't seem like a total waste of time. Enjoy, but just remember, I can do better, so don't judge me on something I just scribbled down in AnP.

Hours later...

So, I tried out for a movie tonight. That was kind of fun. (And I saw cute movie guy...he's so hot. ^_^) I basically went only because Kate was interested, and she didn't want to go it alone. So, I was like, sure, fun. It was pretty nice, I suck, but it was fun. I think I did okay. By the end of my reading, well I was in the middle of my second reading, but the director was eating out of the palm of my hand. He was totally leaning forward, eyes wide, mouth open with a smile on his face. (Maybe he was just staring at my boobs.) So, I couldn't have been that bad. And when I went in, they were talking about Kate, who had auditioned right before me, and they were saying good things about her. So she did good as well. I don' know, I doubt we're going to get lead roles, but it would still be cool to get some sort of role, even if it was just an extra or something, well maybe not an extra, but I think it would be fun. But I think Kate said that they let us know how we did by tomorrow. So, I'll let you guys know if I toatally suck or not. Yeah!

Monday, September 29, 2003

Today is Marc's birthday. Happy birthday Marc.

Saturday, September 27, 2003

No comment...

Friday, September 26, 2003

Hello all! How is everyone doing on this spectacular day? Well, I'm jolly good. In a splendid mood. Well, let’s start with last night. I went to a biology review session upstairs to prepare for my bio test. I was only there for two hours, and then my brain was filled, so I decided to go to bed. And at around 1ish in the morning, someone called my dorm. And I was too tired to get up and answer, so I just let it ring. (Kristi slept through it.) So then this morning I checked my messages on my phone and found out it was Roxy calling. Nicole is in Colorado! She stopped by Roxy’s house and they hung out all night. I was initially pissed that I missed Nicole, but then it made me happy. At least someone got to see her, and it sounded like she was doing good. So, yay! And Roxy says that Nicole is thinking about staying, so I hope she does, then I might be able to see her when I go home on breaks. YAY!! That made me really happy. :)
Well, I took my bio test this morning. It wasn’t so bad. That review session helped a lot. Some of the questions that we went over last night showed up on the test, so I was happy that I knew them. But, I don’t think I did that bad on it. She posts the grades in about an hour, so I’m going to go check it then.
And I got my Medical Terminology test back….yeah, we won’t go into that…
And! I got an e-mail from Michelle. (Hi Michelle!) She apparently isn’t too happy with me and what I’ve been saying about her and her boyfriend on my page. Sorry, the truth can be brutal. So, that was fun.
And I got an e-mail from Sean. That also made me happy. He told me about his roommates. I’m glad that he is liking them (well, most of them.). Yay Sean!!
Then tonight, I get to work the movie (Charlie’s Angels 2) with cute film guy. Yeah!!! Can’t wait!
And…Yeah. I’ve been listening to Alice Cooper and Marilyn Manson all day. I’m in a happy mood. :)

Oh, I forgot to put this up. It was a quiz I took. I'll make this a whole quiz page some day. It'll be fun.

Hours later.....

He has a girlfriend.

Thursday, September 25, 2003

I'm bored. I don't have anything to do. I mean, I could study, but that's no fun. Oh! Megan is starting a fake sorority. So that should be fun. We do it to make fun of the guys upstairs, and so everyone has an excuse to hang out. It'll be fun. :)
OH! I downloaded some Alice Cooper songs. That was cool. I downloaded "Steven", awesome song. I was so obsessed with that song my freshman year of high school. And now I have it on my computer so I can resume my obsession with Alice Cooper. Yay!
Okay, I guess that is all for now. I really should study more, my biology test is tomorrow morning, and even though there is a review session tonight, I'm thinking I should probably still study. Yeah...

I miss Mike.

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

Hello hello! And welcome to here. (Unless you're there, in which case, you really shouldn't be.)
So, I'm in a really happy mood. Not sure why, but let's not question the good things. Yeah, but I went from being really stressed today (quiz in AnP which I'm pretty sure I failed, test in Bio on friday, test in health tomorrow, and I'm still stressing about the test I took yesterday for Medical Terminology, which I'm pretty sure I didn't do too well on) to being happy. :)
I don't know. Oh! But I did talk to Sean today. That was cool. We miss Sean. We've known Sean since we were five. Sean is good. :)
Um...right now, I'm talking to my friend Amanda online. And, I just got done going through my health notes. And, what else...Oh! I want to study abroad so bad! We went to this meeting thing earlier tonight (which made me 30 minutes late for my AnP lab) and I so want to go. Before, I just really wanted to go to London, but now, I want to go to London, Italy, Madagascar, and do a semester at sea. I think the Semester at Sea would be awesome. They just live on a boat, and the boat is the school, and they just travel from country to country on their boat. It sounds like so much fun! So, I think I'm going to try and do all of them, but if I can't, then definately London and the Semester at Sea. Wouldn't that be awesome? I can't wait. I figure, if they let me do all four, I would want to go my sophomore and junior year. I would love to go the spring semester of my freshman year, but I doubt that will happen.
Okay, I think that is all for now. Bye everyone!

Saturday, September 20, 2003

Screw this studying crap. I hate Biology. I've never been one that enjoys studying, especially biology. I really don't like to study, it's a bit dull. Okay, tremendously dull. And I really would rather be doing anything else, but study I must. Poor me. Word of advice: if you don't like studying, bummer for you if you plan on going to college.
Okay, I must go back to studying now. I hate biology.

Friday, September 19, 2003

Ahoy there! Today is National Talk Like A Pirate Day.
Let's see...today is Friday. Kristi and I worked the movie tonight. They showed Bruce Allmighty. We didn't watch. Not huge Jim Carrey fans. But, we talked with cute film guy. Yep, he's a cutie. That's the only reason I think we work at these things. Of course, when we show Pirates of the Caribbean, then I work only for Johnny Depp. :)
But, speaking of cute film guy, I made a total ass out of myself infront of him. What else is new, right? When have I ever been able to act cool infront of a guy I like? Whatever. It doesn't matter I guess.
In other news, I went out with a frat boy last night. Yep, crossed that one off my list. (I'm not evil, I just have goals in life.) So, wanna know how frat boys really make out? (Yeah ya do.) Let me know.
That's about it. So, bye for now.

Thursday, September 18, 2003

Today is my friend Amanda's 17th birthday. Happy Birthday Amanda!!
Let's see...right now, I'm supposed to be studying. And I really should be. I need to study Biology, I have a test next Friday. And I need to study Anatomy & Physiology, I totally bombed the quiz I took on Tuesday. And I'm not failing that class. Can you imagine what my parents would say if I failed? Good God, it would not be a happy day. So, I must get back to studying. I don't even know why I decided to write this. I'm insane. (Insane, but happy.)
Oh, before I go, I thought these were neat. (Thanks Kevin!)
A.M.A.N.D.A.: Artificial Mechanical Assassination and Nocturnal Destruction Android
Z.I.N.I.A.Z.A.N.Z.A.: Zombie Intended for Nocturnal Infiltration and Assassination/Zeta Artificial Nocturnal Zoology Android

Sunday, September 14, 2003

I'm in such a crappy mood. I hate my life. So, we were "stalking" this cute guy we met the other night, well, stalking is such a strong word. we were merely passing by the movie to see if he was there. and he was, and I didn't flirt a lot with him. I barely said hi. I was such an idiot. so then, Kate's all like, we could go back, and you can talk to him. But, I look like crap. And Kate and Angie are saying I don't. I hate it when people do that. When they lie about you, just so they don't make you feel bad. I mean, for Christ's sake, tell me the truth. You know, I try and make friends with people who will tell me the truth, not people who are just going to lie to me. But, alas, the person I am really mad at is not Kate, or Angie, it is me. Again. I always tear myself apart over stupid things. But how can I not? I hate myself. (Hmm, is it bad to hate the person you are? I mean, you can't just dump yourself, can you?) I'm just a stupid little girl, who acts like an idiot everytime I get around someone I like. And I'm an ugly little girl who no guy is ever really going to talk to. Because the sad fact is that guys really only talk to girls they think are good looking. Us other creatures, are merely here to emphasize the pretty ones. What about us? Ugh. this is sounding stupid. But you know what, we're going to delve into the deep inner workings of my mind. (Not really, it just sounded cool.) What if I stop eating? Think anyone would notice? Probably not. The most they'd notice is, "look, ugly fat girl has turned into ugly skinny girl." Horrible. But maybe I will, just to see if anyone notices. Hell, maybe it'll turn out good. What's the worst that could happen? Either someone notices and I realize that all is well in the world (as they always seem to do in the movies), or no one notices, and I become "ugly skinny girl". Maybe I will. (I say as I munch on a pretzle.) But, we all know that no one will notice. I lead a very sad life. I swear, if I was one who believed suicide solved anything, I would not be here today.

Sunday, September 7, 2003

Hello all. I'm really not in much of a mood today. Not a bad mood, not a good mood, just not in a mood. I really don't like this feeling, but I somehow always find myself back in this mood. Back in this place where I really can't feel any sort of real emotions, where I want to cry, but really don't. It kinda sucks. But, what am I supposed to do?
It's really hot in this room. I just opened my window, so hopefully that will cool it off a bit. I am really getting sick of all these people complaining about how cold it is. It has yet to drop below 63 degrees! That is not cold! It's seriously getting on my nerves. And everyone just thinks that it is because I am from Colorado, and that's why I don't think it's cold. No, it's because I'm a normal person who isn't going to whine about the little things like the temperature in the middle of September! Give me 'til at least December or January, then I'll be complaining about the cold with the rest of them. But for now, I say just enjoy it.
Ugh. I am such a loser. I think I'm going to go kill myself. (Though, probably not.) See you all in the afterlife.

Thursday, September 4, 2003

Today is Roxy's 18th birthday. Happy birthday Roxy!
I really don't feel like posting right now. Myabe later. But for now, I will simply give you all a small update:
I switched rooms. So now I am rooming with my friend Kristi. I have a good roommate!
And I became addicted to fan fiction.
Okay, that's really about it. Oh, I did laundry today.
Bye now.

Monday, September 1, 2003

Hello all. I'm going to make this short. I just, don't feel like updating. I want to update this in the middle of the night, like old times. But, that may incur the wrath of my roommate. I miss being able to update in the middle of the night....bummer for me I guess. Maybe I'll update more tomorrow, I have no classes. I'm going to add a new section and everything! I know, you just can't wait, can you? Well, you're going to have to. And, yeah. I think that is all for now. BYE!!!!!!!!!!!