It will probably come as no surprise that I'm in love with your image. I know you don't want to have anything to do with men who want to meet you. I've given up the hope that that will change. But I do love seeing every new up date, every new image of you. And I confess that I hate it when you are harrassed by bastards and assholes who try to trash you for looking the way you want to look. Why not have fun? You look good. You look great. You are beautiful. You are gorgeous. You are stunning. (Enough already, I suppose you are saying.)

So your correspondent thinks you are "horrible." What a dummy! You're not hiding behind all that powder and paint. You're trying to use what nature and artifice have to offer to make you feel happy and to make others, like myself, who love to look at you, feel happy. Your wigs are magnificent--nothing much better than big hair. Your girdles accentuate and form your shape so that the desire quotient exceeds the meter. You are a real woman in the sense that you feel like a woman when you dress and you make men like me appreciate women all the more. As for "passing," please. It's so easy to be dull and down, so nothing, so nobody, and to try to elevate that into a virtue. No, you wouldn't pass as a stockingless, garterless, little-hair, boring, make-upless, whatever little lady. Rather, women would look at you and know what they should do, how they should dress, how theirs eyes should make men yearn (I love your heavy eye makeup and wondrous lashes). Wome who saw you would realize how being femme should really be. And men, cultured men, would know you for what you are, the most seductive, the most striking, the most attractive, the sexiest,the most lovely, the best and the realest a woman can be.

So, yes, I repeat myself. I'm in love. And I'll never send you a filthy note or an ugly picture. No one who feels as I do could imagine doing so.

Your present blonde presentation (in "This and That") is drop dead dynamite.

With admiration and respect,

Scott

Scott writes to me all the time. Here's another letter:

Good day. And yes I tend to agree with you. But only in the sense that it is boring for you because the format is now repetitious. Of course you will get more hits....the traffic these days shows no signs of diminishing. Now does it? And naturally you have built up your own fan base. That surely will give you some satisfaction. You and I both know of the many sites out there that are simply an unjustifiable glorification of someone's ego. "Look at me and the exciting world that I live in"..........also capable of being interpreted as " Look and weep".You at least have the honesty to present yourself as you are, and have avoided falling into the trap of trying to be nice to all and failing. You are by turns acerbic, enigmatic, often funny, sometimes genuinely insightful, but mostly good value.

I find your photos fine but now really formulaic. Yet, just as I once, honestly protested that Playboy was a good read........I was younger then......and that the photos were fine but no good reason to buy the product, so it is your musings that interest me more. And now you say that you have nothing left to write having reached the point where you feel empty or just cannot get your fingers to fly over the keys.

So where to go and what to do to ?

As far as I know journalism is not your profession, nor I imagine is writing a major part of your income generation. Not snooping. I , as you, value my privacy. Everyone comes to the point sometimes when they feel depressed, or in a rut. You can get over it. Just don't make the mistake of believing that what you write is earth shatteringly important. As for blogs.......well, self aggrandisement comes to mind. Mindlessly vapid also rises to the surface. Make it interactive and run the risk of serious aggression. Not that your ego wouldn't take it. But you might well waste a deal of time, and for what?

Someone with infinitely more intelligence than me once said," A life unexamined remains a life unlead". Your texts show a sense of being at ease in your own skin, that btw is French and from personal experience cannot be regarded as something the French ever seem to be.

So, opt for something. Go back to basics? Simplify your life? Your site is yours, not your fans. You are in charge of your life. Don't burn out. Something that I suspect happened to Brina Bryant. I got the feeling that her site took her over.

One way or the other you will come to a decision. For what it is worth you have my repects and my very best personal wishes. This email is private to you, April, please.

Gina.

Wow this is getting heavy! Did I mention I wore some amazing new "Waistcincher" pantyhose from Hanes?

OK Last Letter:

I thought you looked so wonderful in that blue and white suit and then I scrolled down until the letter from Callie. What cheek these cretins have! How stupid can they get? Of course, you are not a real woman. Of course, you wouldn't pass. It's your outrageousness that makes you so much fun. And we love you for it. So, I am rushing to you with moral support.

It will indicate how long I have been an admirer if I tell you that some of my all time favourite pictures are numbered 201, 202, 203, 204. 202 especially. This sissy here wouldn't last two minutes under that stern, superior stare before melting into a puddle at her feet.

You speculate on whether your site has become boring. It hasn't but it has, shall I say, settled down. It the early days you did a lot of experimenting- the four pictures above all look different - but now you seem to have settled on a more limited range of looks. I do miss the full head shots you used to post. Your picture files have also become smaller and don't enlarge well. Oh God! This is critism. I'm sorry! But there are things about you that become even more breathtaking as they get bigger. I hope you will accept it as well intentioned.

How about getting a better camera and giving us some BIG files. Fewer would be OK. I don't know what camera equipment you use but even the fancy SLRs are becoming affordable. I perceive you are not short of cash. The thought of the income needed cover everything you buy makes me green with envy.

How about a nostalgia page(s) - showing shots from the past that you liked. You must have lots of new subscribers who have no idea what the old - sorry!- young April looked like.

I personally think that you looked wonderful then and that you look wonderful now. Please, please continue to hide behind all that powder and paint, silly wigs and girdles.

Best regards,
Euphemia

OK enough with this serious stuff, how about something important, like new pouffy outfits?

This outfit is made from a georgette material and is black with red roses

The skirt is Suzi's well known five ruffle design

I bought 2 new outfits, so do stay tuned for more


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