F.S. Flint
- ELM trees
- and the leaf the boy in me hated
- long ago --
- rough and sandy.
- Poplars
- and their leaves,
- tender, smooth to the fingers,
- and a secret in their smell
- I have forgotten.
- Oaks
- and forest glades,
- heart aching with wonder, fear:
- their bitter mast.
- Willows
- and the scented beetle
- we put in our handkerchiefs;
- and the roots of one
- that spread into a river:
- nakedness, water and joy.
- Hawthorn,
- white and odorous with blossom,
- framing the quiet fields,
- and swaying flowers and grasses,
- and the hum of bees.
- Oh, these are the things that are with me now,
- in the town;
- and I am grateful
- for this minute of my manhood.
- FRAIL beauty,
- green, gold and incandescent whiteness,
- narcissi, daffodils,
- you have brought me Spring and longing,
- wistfulness,
- in your irradiance.
- Therefore, I sit here
- among the people,
- dreaming,
- and my heart arches
- with all the hawthorn blossom,
- the bees humming,
- the light wind upon the poplars,
- and your warmth and your love
- and your eyes . . .
- they smile and know me.
- I MOVE:
- perhaps I have wakened;
- this is a bed;
- this is a room;
- and there is light . . .
- Darkness!
- Have I performed
- the dozen acts or so
- that make me the man
- men see?
- The door opens,
- and on the landing --
- quiet!
- I can see nothing: the pain, the weariness!
- Stairs, banisters, a handrail:
- all indistinguishable.
- One step farther down or up,
- and why?
- But up is harder. Down!
- Down to this white blur;
- it gives before me.
- Me?
- I extend all ways:
- I fit into the walls and they pull me.
- Light?
- Light! I know it is light.
- Stillness, and then,
- something moves:
- green, oh green, dazzling lightning!
- And joy! this is my room;
- there are my books, there the piano,
- there the last bar I wrote,
- there the last line,
- and oh the sunlight!
- A parrot screeches.
- DEAR one!
- you sit there
- in the corner of the carriage;
- and you do not know me;
- and your eyes forbid.
- Is it the dirt, the squalor,
- the wear of human bodies,
- and the dead faces of our neighbours?
- These are but symbols.
- You are proud; I praise you;
- your mouth is set; you see beyond us;
- and you see nothing.
- I have the vision of your calm, cold face,
- and of the black hair that waves above it;
- I watch you; I love you;
- I desire you.
- There is a quiet here
- within the thud-thud of the wheels
- upon the railway.
- There is a quiet here
- within my heart,
- but tense and tender . . .
- This is my station . . .
- . . . THAT night I loved you
- in the candlelight.
- Your golden hair
- strewed the sweet whiteness of the pillows
- and the counterpane.
- O the darkness of the corners,
- the warm air, and the stars
- framed in the casement of the ships' lights!
- The waves lapped into the harbour;
- the boats creaked;
- a man's voice sang out on the quay;
- and you loved me.
- In your love were the tall tree fuchsias,
- the blue of the hortensias, the scarlet nasturtiums,
- the trees on the hills,
- the roads we had covered,
- and the sea that had borne your body
- before the rock of Hartland.
- You loved me with these
- and with the kindness of people,
- country folk, sailors and fisherman,
- and the old lady who had lodged us and supped us.
- You loved me with yourself
- that was these and more,
- changed as the earth is changed
- into the bloom of flowers.
- EVENING and quiet:
- a bird trills in the poplar trees
- behind the house with the dark green door
- across the road.
- Into the sky,
- the red earthenware and the galvanised iron chimneys
- thrust their cowls.
- The hoot of the steamers on the Thames is plain.
- No wind;
- the trees merge, green with green;
- a car whirs by;
- footsteps and voices take their pitch
- in the key of dusk,
- far-off and near, subdued.
- Solid and square to the world
- the houses stand,
- their windows blocked with venetian blinds.
- Nothing will move them.
- ON black bare trees a stale cream moon
- hangs dead, and sours the unborn buds.
- Two gaunt old hacks, knees bent, heads low,
- tug, tired and spent, an old horse tram.
- Damp smoke, rank mist fill the dark square;
- and round the bend six bullocks come.
- A hobbling, dirt-grimed drover guides
- their clattering feet to death and shame.