I feel so hopeless sometimes.
At times my heart falls apart at the seams.
I feel so alone.
I feel like there is nothing left to finish and nothing new to start.
I feel broken.
I Feel less then whole.

Sometimes I try to look around and understand my societal role,
I See nothing because I want nothing,
and yet I want more then nothing, I want something from life.
I don't only want to live my life as the crippled activist.
Just because I Am doesn't mean I must be who you want me to be.

I have lost all my faith, all my trust.
My soul is going to combust. I can't take it anymore.
I am like a bird who wants to fly.
I Want to fly a way from society and their views of me and everything
that they see.
But I Can't, I can't all I can do is rave and rant.
I rave and rant against life's injustices and society's messes.
Me stuck in a damn wheelchair because,
this society has too much reality.
They have to rely on the lie that someday,
maybe, just maybe there will be a cure but who knows for sure.
Till then its OK to depend on a wheelchair,
that is what we are told.

Therefore we have to bear all of society's let downs and put-downs.
Meanwhile "normal" society sits down on their asses
in large masses
do next to nothing to help better the situation,
and they have the nerve to look down at us with a frown.
Well, you know what?
If you don't like what you see do something to cure it.
Until then Turn that frown upside down.
It looks like some form of disability will forever be around.
But that is fine, because we are fine.
We are proud.
We are everything you are and ten Times more.
If suffering represents enlightenment, then we are the epitome.
So, look away from us because you are not worthy of our view.
Until you too become enlightened and all around you not frightened.

By: Julie Viva Maury