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9-3-99
Thank you Michelle
Thank you KIM
POEMS TO MY DAUGHTER
DENISE 27 Now it has been Twenty-sever years Since you came and Were taken away And my darling daughter I still miss you everyday. But now I have found Another way To make your passing Have more heart, I talk to other parents Whose children Also had to part. We share the pain And heartache As only parents can That have walked This way before And share a common plan. The friendships formed The words we share, Make easier the ache And bless us with a future That we will surly make. So happy birthday baby I know that you are well Watching down on all of us Way down here on earth Where we still dwell. Someday we will be united With the babies we have lost In God's holy kingdom Where blessings are the key Where there is no cost. I love you now As I did before And I always will. Remember lil angel To meet me there at heavens door. Bgd 10-98
Well another year has passed
Its your day again my love.
I hope that you can see the tears
From heaven up above.
And know that I still love you,
That you are in my heart
That I cannot forget you
And have right from the start.
I can't believe the years have flown
That you would be twenty-six
Facing the world as many things hon,
Love, job and more conflicts.
For some reason words escape me
I just do not know what to say
So I will keep this short and sweet
And just say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
10-25-97
DELIVERY
bgd 11/71
They said that I would never
Conceive a child.
To wish would be almost
The impossible dream.
The seventh year
I bore a son.
Three pounds of fighting
Life determined boy'.
He craved a brother,
This fair-haired four year old,
Even a sister would do!
We tried many times,
We often came close.
But our prayers were lost,
With the dying of the unborn.
We tried again and again,
For him
Almost five.
This journey as delicate
And as fragile as a rose.
Shrouded in tension
And mounting fear.
Until the final days
A sigh of relief
As my time grew near
I dared to feel excitement
and tender dreams
Of a bright tomorrow.
Placed on the table,
in the delivery room
Cold metal against my back
I Shivered with excitement
With the wonder of sharing
In the birth
Of this special child.
Feeling the pressure
Of the baby's head,
Anxious with the desire
Of being born.
The doctor working at my feet
Nurses busy all around
"Its a girl"
I heard him Say!
He placed her tiny ,
Still wet body,
Upon my breast
I view her,
My daughter
For the first
and last time.
"Stat" the doctor screamed.
"Code B"
As they whisked her from my arms
And my life.
There were many sounds
Of crying
Except my own.
I knew, why could they
Not tell me
That my little girl was dead?
The nurses eyes
Moist with tears
Spoke volumes
As they turned
And sadly walked away.
DENISE 1ST B'DAY
Has it only been one year, Since I gave birth to you? And lay there as you went away, nothing I could do? My joy that early morning When I knew your debut was near, Turned to pain so deep, I could not shed a tear. The pain, the hurt. the sad remorse. Bottled deep in side my head, I never could admit, my love, That you were really dead. Time has passed, each day a year, I can accept our fate as real, But I would rather have you here, Than living with God, your own sweet peer. I Wish you happy birthday, Though the day was bleak and blue, I'll always love you dearly, And mommie won't forget you dear!
DENISE 2
bgd 10/71
Joy in knowing you were to be,
Material feelings of love awoke.
Planning your arrival day to day,
Words of love to you I spoke.
The eternal wait for your birth,
Longing to hold you in my arms,
To see your face and watch you,
Protect you from life's harms.
Had I seen tomorrow then,
And known that you would depart,
Before we shared our dream,
I would have kept you near my heart.
Unborn inside me you were safe,
We've shared a common bond,
Now alone, I feel so barren,
And you have ventured far beyond.
bgd 10/71
DENSIE 4 THE BLOOMS ARE GONE FROM THE ROSES, FALL TREES STANDING NAKED AND BARE. THE GRASS HAS TURNED TO BROWN, UNFEELING AND WINTER'S CHILL IS IN THE AIR. THE GRIEVEING OF THE ONCE BLUE SKIES, WHITE CLOUDES NOW GREY AND FADED. REPLACED BY THE SNOW SOON TO COME, LONG, COLD WINTER DAYS CREATED. THIS YEARS THE GLOOM SEEMS DEEPER, LIKE NATURE TOO MOURNS YOUR DEATH. DENISE WHO LIVED SO BRIEFLY, WHO DIED IN HER VERY FIRST BREATH, I SILENLT WEEP AT YOUR PASSING. ANGERED RGAR YOU WERE DENIED. THE RIGHT TO A NORMAL EXISITANCE, MILLIONS OF TEARS I HAVE CRIED. MEANWHILE MY ARMS ARE EMPTY NO BABY TO SHARE FUTURE LIFE. PERHAPS IN THE DAYS TO FOLLOW. PEACE WILL RETURN TO MY LIFE. THOUGH WE ARE PARTED DARLING, AND MAY NEVER AGAIN BE REUNITED, I'LL REMEMBER YOU WITH MY LOVE WHILE PASSING THROUGH LIFE UNDECIDED. BGD 11-71
Thank you HEAVEN for this beautiful poem!!
GOD'S BRAND NEW ANGEL~
God looked down on His children, and carressed the heads of each one... A gentle smile formed on His lips, and tears glistened in His eyes.. It was time to call a child home to the sun... A very hard choice for one so wise~ For in the wake of calling one into His arms.... Comes the heartbreaking grief, the saddness, and the tears .... He knows He has to leave the earthly ones with empty arms... And give them an understanding fear~ But God gave them a special gift instead... A brand new Angel to guide thier way.... To feed all the Peace that there is to be fed... To hold their hand on that fateful day~ And to shower them with an undying love.... For God's newest Angel, this is an easy task to do.... For God's Newest Angel has not left us, they are in
the Heaven above.... Watching, Loving, Guiding YOU!
@}---'--,---K.Salfi
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