Motherhood

I knew my pain was due to start. I had been waiting
nine months now. As I prepared for the hospital
my thoughts turned to what lay ahead.

Fear, yes! Fear of the unknown, of making mistakes
and not being the perfect Mom! You came with no
manual. Can I do this? I forge on.

The labor starts, but I know this is but a temporary
and physical pain for now. It was the mental preparation
I had to deal with. No longer would I be responsible
solely for myself. Each decision I make, from now on
will be for both of our futures. I'm scared!

The *Moment*. They tell me it's a girl. I've had your
name selected since my 'doll playing days', so it's as if you
are a real person with a personality already. You're here,
you cry and then I cry. I'm scared to death! Minutes go by.
It's time we are to meet in person. They bring you to my side.
As they lay you in my arms, my heart races and I
feel this weird sensation of my heart expanding so big,
it's as if it will explode in total wonderment!

The *Rapture*. I look down into your perfect, tiny face
and as my fingers and eyes gently trace every precious
feature, the tears spill over.

Button nose, tiny minature fingers such delicate design.
All I can do is thank my *Lord*. For I know, only God
could enable a woman's body to produce a miracle of this
magnitude. Thank-you my Lord!!

You squirm and twist toward me, opening your eyes even
though you can't focus, as if to see who's
holding you. You pause but a second, then close your
eyes in slumber. You feel my love and you're content.
The tears run down my cheek as I feel an
overwhelming, fierce, protective drive to keep you safe.
We will conquer the *World*!
I have become a Mom in name, now I
must earn that title.
I love you!!

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Midi: Eyes of Love

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