14 December 1998
Yesterday I turned 19. So now I'm an old crusty.
On Saturday to celebrate it I had a supper with three of my best friends, and a midget. It was a fun evening and it kinda kept going till 2pm on Sunday. Then I went home and got my presents from my family.
Today I spend some gift vouchers I got. I bought new jeans with the voucher from my granparents and I got the Ally McBeal soundtrack with the ones from Simon. It took me AGES to decide between Ally McBeal or Cher - Believe.
Buh-bye
15 December 1998
I'm a tad depreesed today. I was stuck home ALL day babysitting and am really sick of my lil brother. I'm worried I've spent the last 3 months and 15 days going out with some one who does really like me. And I have a midget trying to twist all her problems into being my fault.
I hope I'm being paranoid about the relationship part though. I'm still really hoping it'll work.
Well I've talked enough, Buh-bye
16 December 1998
I just got back from shopping for christmas presents. I now have gifts organised for all my friends from Hayward hall. Now I just have to worry about my grandparents, the border and my local friends.
I also met up with an old friend from school who has been snubbing me since sixth form. And she came upto me and said "hi". She was actually very nice, which has me paranoid. I'm worried I may have bad mouthed her and it got back to her. Though i don't remember saying anything mean about her.
Anyway, that's all for now
17 December 1998
I had a quiet day today, recovering from the party I went to last night. I just realised how much weight I've put on this year. I am so FAT. I'm going to end up a fat bitter twisted lonely old spinster (yes I know that it's bachelor for guys but spinster sounds more pathetic). I'm just a hideous chocolate junky. Three guesses who is in a depressed mood?
Any way, i have to stop digging myself into a li'l well of depression. I don't need to be any worse.
I should prolly go and let it out in bad sorrowful poetry
18 December 1998
I had brunch with my Aunt Barbara, Father and Alex (Father's partner). Then I went shopping with Father's money for my christmas present, I choose Cher-Believe. I like her new song, so it seemed worth it.
Buh-bye
19 December 1998
I went to some plays at the Globe theater today. They were loads of fun. The acting wasn't to shoddy even.
BUGGER. I just got dumped after three months and nineteen days. Now I get to be a sad pathetic lonely old fart.
Dag Nabbit.
I had rather wanted this one to work.
20 December 1998
I spent last night sulking and listening to Dusty Springfeild, Cass Elliot and the Ally McBeal soundtrack on random play. I even caught myself crying.
I've learned my lesson though "Don't let anyone get close enough to hurt you".
Nina rang me last night to cheer me up, which was really nice coz she's my best friends and I love her lots and it was good to have someone there to whinge at.
Well now I've lost my never-been-dumped record, have no-one to go to "A Bug's Life" with and have a four month anniversary present and no-one to give it to. And I'm sad, pathetic, bitter and twisted. Wahoo for me. The fat freak who got dumped over IRC. Lonely-spinsterhood here I come.
I've decided I have to change my IRC nick, I might go back to the old lipstick lesbian one I had "DaiDrimaa" or maybe go for something new and different. I don't know, I have to think about it some more. I'm going to change my web page a bit and get rid of all the ducks. This isn't about the being dumped thing, I was going to change the page anyway as the duck pic is UGLY. I just think I may aswell change it now. Since I have nothing better to focus my depression on.
Well I have to finish tidying the lounge before lunch, so, Buh-Bye.
PS: You can tell when I'm sad, all my soft toys move from the side of the bed upto the top. It means I can roll over, but I have to sleep crunched up. I have a few too many of the things to be depressed with :P
22 December 1998
Guess what i got for christmas?
Tonsilitis, and a severe bout of depression, and pimples from the mega chocolate binge I've been on. I am SO LUCKY.
Well I have to go, coz i'm meeting a friend for a movie, buh-bye
27 December 1998
I'm still a little sick, but had the worst of it over christmas eve and christmas day (which I almost completely slept through). I'll write more when I'm feeling better.
28 December 1998
I feel better today. I spent the day at Midget girl's house watching videos. We saw "Hercules and Xena : The animated movie" and it SUCKED. It was a crime against both series. And that is saying something. Followed by Disney's Hercules.
Then I came home and listened to Cher - Believe and Pure Disco vol. 1 & 2. It is a good sign. Getting over someone music if ever I heard it. "Coz maybe I'm to good for you."
My music goes Dusty Springfeild then Back Beat then Disco and then I'm over whatever was getting me down. Well, it usually works.
That was today anyway.
I should probably catch people up on what happened over christmas, but I can't be bothered.
30 December 1998
Today i had a friend's birthday party to go to. It was a lot of fun. Small parties usually are. I also have added two new CDs to my collection in the last two days, Dusty Springfield - Blue for you, and Pretenders - The Singles. I really shouldn't be wasting money though, coz I'll be poor next year.
The year is over
If what they said on Ally McBeal is true, then I didn't waste this year. When I got home from the New Years party I went to this morning I sat and though about the last year and everything that has happened in my life during it. It's been a big year for me really. Starting Uni, failing health sciences, a couple of weird little relationships and one real-ish one. I've made lots of new friends and grown apart from some old ones. I've discovered the internet and become a slave to it. And I've put on LOTS of weight.
I think this year I'll have to join a gym. Or just stop the ice cream and chocolate binge. My New Years Resolution was to never carry the duck anywhere ever again. And to be a nastier person.
So now it's 1999. In a year it'll be 2000. In two years it'll be 2001 and the new millenium. What a time to be alive.
Actually, this is a crappy time to be alive. That mythical beast "Society" is crumbling away and exposing the evil beneath its veneer. People are growing in this world, with out morals or hope. They just aren't nice. But against it all I can but triumph. Triumph or fade away like the dreams of a child.
I shouldn't write when my mind has both chocolate and sleep deprivation happening to it and the same time.
Buh-bye.
5 January 1999
I bought "A Tourist Guide To LANCRE" today. It is so cool :o). It has a really big painted picture of the kingdom and pictures of Nanny Ogg and Granny Weatherwax. It was a well spent $22. I really have to stop spending money though especially after the two CDs I bought yesterday (FairyTale soundtrack and the Troggs anthology).
11 January 1999
Wow, I haven't written in here in ages. I've been reading LOTS. In the weekend I read "Strata" a pre-discworld Terry Pratchett, "Equal Rites" a great discworld novel and I finally got around to reading "A Tourist Guide To LANCRE". Then today I read "The Sea and Little Fishes" also by Terry Pratchett and started "Lords and Ladies" for the fourth time. "The Sea and Little Fishes" is a Lancre witchs story about Granny Weatherwax, Nanny Ogg and Agnes Nitt. It is a jolly good read. Though i'm hoping that the library has "Carpe jugulum" in tomorrow, it is the lastest lancre witchs novel and I've been waiting ages to read it. Hmmm there seems to be a theme to my reading.
Anyway my life is REALLY boring. I even stuffed around too long to have rebound s*x. Not that I would have. I'm not a great big fan of meaningless stuff.
I'm also trying to think up a new idea for the theme of my web site. the fairy thing works BUT I'm already bored with it.
Well I'm bored, so, Buh-bye.
13 January 1999
I had another dull day. I finished "Lords and Ladies" having spent yesterday watching videos. Then I went to the library and returned the book but the one that I wanted still isn't back in, and it is two days overdue. So i got out "Maskerade" instead, since it is the book before the one I'm waiting for in the Lancre Witch's lot (well I think "The sea and little fishes" goes betwenn, but I read it just the other day). Then on the way home I bought "tin planet" by SPACE. I love the ballad of tom jones. I'm off to read now. Bye.
14 January 1999
Today I finish "Maskerade" and took it back to the library. But the book I am waiting for still isn't there. I hate people who don't return library books on time. Then i was annoyed so I didn't get a book out. I'll just have to go in tomorrow in the hope it is there. G'night all. I'm off to watch videos.
15 January 1999
I hate the national government. I have to buy my text books for uni before they'll give me my course costs fees, which I need to buy the bleeding books. May Jenny Shipley burn on a flaming stake.
May all the national MPs have slow and hideously painful deaths
Burn Jenny burn.
16 January 1999
"Carpe Jugulum" was finally at the library last night. Wahoo, it's great.
I went to a picnic today and got sunburnt :-(. I'll prolly blister.
18 January 1999
I loathe my mother. She is a hell-spawned beast and deserves not life. She is an abomination. A pestilence. A curse upon the earth. And a wench of hospitible nature. I think social welfare (well WINZ as it calls itself now) would be quite interested to learn how much time she spends in bed with the boarder. Ugly piece of southland trash he is. If I didn't have such a lovely personality I'd slay them both. And it would be doing a great deed for the world. To rid it of such an irritant.
For tea tonite Mother and her shag (the boarder) had steak, while me and my brother got horribly cheap and somewhat burnt sausages. It's not like I'm old enough to vote, or pay the same board as the southland trash does or anything.
And the hell beast has me baby sitting unpaid. I wish I was a more confrontational person so I could say "poot to you" and make her find someone else to watch my brother.
Well, I'm off to hate myself for being a pathetic excuse for a mindless git. Have fun.
19 January 1999
I had a rather happy bouncey day today. I had japanese food for lunch and walked to south dunedin and back in heavy work boots. Then I re-curtained my glass bedroom door with a "flying fish" calender and sang along to "The Ballad of Tom Jones" and a whole lot of pretenders and Dusty Springfeild songs. Being all happy and possibly even enjoying life (by pretending my mother didn't exist). Then i find out my ex has a new boyfriend. So now I'm grumpy and depressed. And really jealous. It's also exactly a month since we broke up, which isn't helping. I so have to get over it though, and be happy for them. Well, this grumpy beast is off to bed to sulk.
22 January 1999
I threw a picnic at the gardens yesterday which was loads of fun, and got a pair of trousers from the Op Shop at the gardens. Today I was cleaning my room, trying to find my old school tie for someone. And then i thought I should clean my windows. Which was dumb, coz now my room has the horrid smell of cleaner EVERYWHERE. Though I am now proud to say I'm now officially happy for my ex and the new guy.
Well that's todays exciting installment in my life.
Grrrrr, I don't like what they have done to geocities members area. The whole cookies thing gets on my nerves.
25 January 1999
I went to a party on saturday and got home at 9:30 on sunday morning having had NO sleep at all. I was so lovely yesterday.
Nothing much is happening in my life at the moment. I'm just moping over my ex. Though I really have to get over it,its been over a month. Anyway, I'm off to the library to return "Interesting Times" and "Legends". Buh-bye.
27 January 1999
I spent today perfecting theart of sloth, I am so good at it. All I've actually done all day is read a few pages of "Sacred Ground" by Mercedes Lackey and fill in my student loan application. Talk about a productive day. I went to see "Practical Magic" last night. I've seen worse movies, it's fun but not anything very special though. Anyway, my beastly lil' brother wants the computer. Bye.
31 January 1999
Last night I listened to the quarry concert from my house, the sound echoed down the valley really well. I'm also slowing getting through "Sacred Ground" which is a jolly good book. Other than that I haven't been upto much lately. I really need a job/hobby/friend.
3 February 1999
Well my life is still not doing much. I've been doingsome work on my palladium page. And ofcourse trying to pick someone up over the net :oP. Well I can't think of anything to say, so buh-bye.
4 February 1999
Well today was weird, I had lunch at KFC with a friend then had a picnic in the gardens. Other than that I've just been tidying my room. oh and Nina remember to hit me when you get back.
5 February 1999
I've been trying to read "The insatiable Moon" by Michael Riddell but I just can't get into it his style is really annoying. I think I'll just have to go to the library and find something new to read. Okay, i've run out of things to say already,so buh-bye.
8 February 1999
I have my computer back :o). Its been away since the 5th, and I've been having severe withdrawls. And I got it back half an hour ago. Anyway, things to do.
9 February 1998
I spent today waiting in queues at uni, getting my fees receipt, paying my union fees, getting my ID card. The picture on my ID card is WAY better than last years, though it still isn't that great. And then I went to the centre city supermarket with midget gurl to get a ride home. Then it happened, I saw someone who I spent all of my BIO115 labs drooling over was there shopping from the freeezer. Lets just say i know what I'll be dreaming about tonight. The god-help-me good looking anatamy student.... drool. I don't know why I bother even looking though, I could never get anyone with that kind of body, looking the way I do. I'm just not destined to find love with one of the beautiful people. Gosh darn it.
13 February 1999
Last night I went to my mother's birthday party and then to Vishala's party. They were fun and a nice change from what I had spent the days before doing. I've been spending days sitting at home and eating ice cream. Being clinically depressed and have a depressive eating cycle is really not good for my figure(though calling it a figure is a little flattering of its shape).
I've been getting good at SimCity3000 though. Anyway, enuff said for now. Bye.
i just got home from a meeting about gang show. Huge loads of fun, they guilted me into say that I would audition. and the auditions are the night before I start my uni classes for the year. But the meeting was sorta worth it as someone I used to have a crush on was there and wearing revealing clothes.
Then there is the fact I get ultra depressed and super desperate around valentines day. By tomorrow night I'd probably get with anyone if I thought there was a rose in it for me. Well, I'm off again. Bye.
14 February 1999
I hate St. Valentines day. I hate being lonely. Why do we need a holiday so that mass media can rub in the fact we are single. It sucks. I've had a chocolate day though :o).
17 February 1999
Lent has begun, and I have given up chocolate and ice cream for it. It is a time for me to strengthen my non-existant religious convictions. To test my will power. And hopefully, to lose some weight.
So I am asking all my friends to help me from straying. I'm not to have any chocolate or ice cream for six weeks.
Well yesterday I went to uni to do my corse approval and got as far as physics (the paper i wanted to get out of the way first) and then I only got some course advice. The advisor thinks I shuld probably change from PHSI263 Properties of matter to PHSI251 Quantum and Uncertainty. And the advisor was really scary, he was one of those people who stares right at your eyes when he talks to you, so I spent most of the metting looking at the floor. And even then I had the weird feeling that his boots were staring at me.
So today after finishing "Child of the river" by Paul J. MacAuley (which is a very good book, but unfortunately its the first of a trilogy so it doesn't have much of an ending) I went to town. After returning my library book I was heading toward uni to do some more course approval when i met up with Shaun, a friend I haven't seen in AGES. He was going to the barbers to have a really bad dye job cut off. So I walked with him. When I was saying good-bye to him once he was at the barbers i completely shamed myself out. For some unknown reason instead of waving I did the double handed sideways point thing. All I could think afterward was "kill me I've been possessed by a game show host" (and we are talking arms to sides, swing and point for the elbow '60s dance move here NOT the two handed revolver bond-girl point). Anyway, its way hot in dunedin today and I can't have Ice cream coz lent started today :o(.
21 February 1999
I'm surviving lent so far. Just. I've just changed my vice from chocolate to fresh-up old fashioned apple juice.
I went into University on friday to do course approval, and I can't even get a first semester that works. Atleast I had Nina back in town to do course approval with. And her sister is now in dunedin too. And she is so cool. It's like having another Nina but different.
Anyway, I have nothing much too say to the world right now so Buh-bye
22 February 1999
GRRRRRRRRR, I finally got course approval. But I also found out that I have to have a submission of ten pieces for my poetry class due tomorrow. The class is in second semester but it is restricted to twelve people. And I don't think my poetry is that good. Anyway I have work to do. Bye.
23 February 1999
I got the submission done and handed in. YAY. Now i'm off to be pathetic about my hay fever (which I caught off my ex :^P)
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