26 February 1999
Preliminary lectures for uni were today. It was fun. Sort of. Chemistry was dead boring (surprise, surprise). But then Theater Studies was lots of fun. Admittedly English was boring again but it was still a fun day.
Last night I went to "The Merchant of Venice" at the Dunedin Globe Theater. It was such a great play. I heartily recommend it to everyone. It as SO much fun.
28 February 1999
Yesterday I went to the Summer Festival market in dunedin. It was okay. Though the fact I still can't have chocolate or ice cream sucks. I was being really happy all day yesterday and most of today. Then my mother talk to me this avo and killed my high completely. And yet I'm not allowed to kill her :\.
Well I have to go to Gang Show auditions.... GRRR this new keyboard sucks. It has lots of extra keys including some double ups, and a midget space bar.
2 March 1999
I'm sick :o(. It's just good I only had two hours of classes today. Coz I am being miserable. I also should really get my mother to look after my eftpos card, coz I keep spending money on stuff i can't afford. If the student allowance takes a while to go through I'm going to be in real trouble. Well I'm back to bed to try and get over this bug.
3 March 1999
I'm still sick, and off to bed now. Buh-bye.
4 March 1999
I am still sick, but feeling a little better. My lectures today were okay, Chem was boring and Theater Studies was interesting, just as usual. Then after having Khmer (?spelling?) soup for tea I had Latin American Dance lessons. I've almost got the cha-cha right. I would probably have learned better if i hadn't spent half the class drooling over someone there. Anyway, night.
5 March 1999
I'm still feeling a tad crappy :o(. I think I might even stay home tonight (staying home on a friday is something I virtually never do now days. I don't think I have all year). I;m also slipping into a depressive phase, which doesn't help. I think I'll curl up in bed a listen to my Dusty Springfeild CDs (in tribute as she died a couple of days ago :(, and read some of the Mercedes Lackey book I'm reading ("The eagle and the nightingales").
The fact my mother is such a demon, that her mere existance is a mockery of all life doesn't help much either.
Bye for now. I'm off to be grumpy.
6 March 1999
Last night I got bored and went out anyway. I danced in the octagon as there was a band playing and then walked home with someone a had just meet there. It took about two hours as we stopped and got a pizza which we ate on the gardens sports feild. Luke (the guy I met/walked home with) and I had a very long talk about all sorts of things. The little things of life (eg. the nature of sin and redemption) and the big ones (eg. why pizza always goes rubbery in the microwave). It was lots of fun. Though I'm rather tired today because of it.
Then this morning i went to the dunedin festival procession, which is always fun. Anyway, I've got to go now. Have fun.
8 March 1999
We are studying "The Rocky Horror Picture Show" at Theater Studies, I've lost all respect for higher education. I did pay off my lay-buy today though, so I have a big new lego set :o). I also got the new lego catalogue, and they have discontinued castle :o(. My reason for living is gone. I'll have to go around town and lay-buy as much castle lego and as many tree sets as possible, so i can make my forest bigger and keep it surrounded by castles. I'm off to sleep now. Buh-bye.
9 March 1999
This morning it was really wet, I got to chemistry, sat down in the lecture theater and shook out my hair. A few rows of people were not very happy with me. I am such a prick :o).
After chemistry I went and put another BIG lego set on lay-buy, I have another $230 to go until it is paid off. But lego is worth it.
Then I accidentally met up with my ex walking to a lecture. It went a lot better than I thought it would. I now know that I'm over it and that we can be friends. Which is good, coz one can never have too many friends. Even ones who know what small genitalia you have :^P.
After that I had a special theater studies tutorial, "introduction to the universities central library". And I was visibly drooling over a classmate on the tour. I am so getting desperate in my old age.
Well I'm off to fix up some of my lego forest. Buh-bye.
10 March 1999
I went to my first lab for the year today :o(. It was long and boring. And has homework :o(. Then i went to the free tibet candle light vigual (?spelling?). Good night, I need to get in some sleep before the lil shop of horrors.
12 March 1999
I went to "the little shop of horrors" last night, and it was great. Admittedly it wasn't quite as great as the movie but it was still great. I didn't get much sleep last night though as I was late home. Well I'm off for a night on the town now. Buh-bye.
14 March
i went to the Hayward Hall disco last night, it was lots of fun. I still have glitter everywhere. I should write more, but i'm still really tired, even after I slept in till 11 (as was quite late on my paper run).
16 March 1999
Classes are happening. They haven't been all that much fun this week. I have a chemistry report due tomorrow. Joy for me. And I finally finished "The Eagle and the nightingales" today, it wasn't as good as Mercades Lackey's other books I've read, so it took me ages to finish it. I need to start sleeping more and playing less computer games all night. Other than that not much to say. So bye.
17 March 1999
I didn't do my chem report that was due today, I am so bad. And my Laboratory Supervisor was not amuzed when I mimed handing in an invisible one. And he has fits of histerical laughter over bad math.
I also have two things due on friday that I haven't started yet. I am way too lazy. I have a gang show meeting tonite :(.
But i have my new book "Grimms fairy Tales" to keep me going. It is so morbid :o).
19 March
Last night I had a meeting for "Students for a free tibet" and then had Latin-American dance lessons before coming home to an English assignment. Joy for me. I am so lucky. Bye for now.
22 March
I had a busy weekend. I was out late on friday night and was almost late to the christening I gave a reading at on saturday morning and then after dropping off some videos to friends at Hayward hall, I went to a crappy party. Then on sunday i missed "earthworm Jim" due to a case of Daylight savings confusion. After that I had Gang Show rehersals, they were fun NOT. Then to finish the weekend off I went to the fireworks and could not find a single person i knew there (last year I went with ppl and kept meeting other ppl I wanted to spend the time with) and I got hit be falling ash. Yay for my weekend.
23 March 1999
If you haven't guess, I'm being depressed. it is not even that I like it, I'm just so used to it I can't fight it. At the rate that I'm going, soon for psychiatry fees I'll be owing.
I'm not in a great place right now. I don't know what set it off, but since mid last week I've been progressively getting worse. I might have to start going to the useless shrink I used to see. So she can sit saying "Happy Pills, Happy Pills, Happy.........". Basically life sucks and I want to pull out of Uni, coz I'm hating it all. Chemistry is hell. By some sick luck the mean old man who was nasty to me at course approval is my CHEM202 Lab Supervisor. If only I could die a slow and painful death. It'd be better than this life. Better than sharing a house with my hell-spawned mother. Who is even now kicking me off the computer. So I'm off. Maybe to chop pieces off myself and see how much blood I can lose before I pass out.
Bye.
24 March 1999
Today was a step up from yesterday. Just. It started terribly, so one had stolen one of my newspaper bundles so I had to walk home and call it in, and deliver the papers late. But then my replacement papers were plastic coated, which mage it more fun, and a little more suggestive (my pushing plastic covered cylinders into hospitible slots). Then I just generally had a bad morning, followed by a bad day. Though my Chem201 lab almost restored my faith in Chemistry. Now I just hate organic chemistry.
25 March 1999
Today I started poorly again. The ODT was running late and threw my whole morning out of whack. Then I kept drifting off in my Chem202 lecture. But I had theater studies after that. And the performance Ange, Rob and I had been working on went really well. At lunch time I went to say "Happy Birthday" to a friend of mine, and she was horrible to me. If it wasn't her birthday I would have threatened to slap her, maybe. Then Bex took me shopping with her. She bought me lego to cheer me up :o). I loved her before, now I want her as my wife. My love is easily bought, especially with lego. Well i have to go now so I'm not late for my latin-american dance class.
26 March
Just a quick note while I'm packing. I'm off for the weekend.
29 March 1999
Well the rehersal camp I had in the weekend sucked, but then I knew it would. The older you are and the more shows you have done the less fun rehersals are. But the buzz of performing is always worth it. It was far too hot at Waiora. Dunedin is supposed to be cold!!!!!
Atleast on Saturday night I snuck out for a party, which was GREAT. I love to dance, even if I look like i'm having an epileptic fit. Though all of my friends there seem to be coupling up. With is scary, soon it'll just be me whose single. :o(. Anyway, I should go to my theater studies lecture.
1 April 1999
I am now a tragic bald fashion victim. Yesterday I went to get my hair cut and Nina came with me. She convinced me to get short back and sides. And now I want my hair back!!!!!!!!!!! And then she took me to spend some left over clothing vouchers i had and now I'm wearing cargo pants :o(. In only about an hour I went from me to a tragic bald fashion victim. Arhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! And I'd promised that I would never have cargo pants, yet I caved to Nina's insideous mind control powers. Poor lil me.
Today after finishing an assignment and getting it in with no time to spare I bumped into my ex and chatted for a while. it's good to be friends with ppl even after you've had a nasty break up with them.
I WANT MY HAIR BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 April 1999
I spent last night at a party being hassled about looking like I had escaped from a Hallensteins catalog. I had pizza for tea last night, Vegetarian Pizza with extra pineapple :o). Today I went to see "God of gamblers" at the art gallery which was really fun. Oh, and i've spent today being really happy at someone elses expense, but the rumour that has he happy is unconfirmed so i won't put it up here yet. And I feel kind of guilty about being happy about it, but i SO am. Any-way i'm off to break-lent with an all chocolate meal at "Tull". As the sun has set so lent is over. :o)
Pie-Crust Promise for the day: I'll never eat choclate again.
I finished lent in style. I had a "chocolate massacre" from Tull. Talk about stuff myself. It took me over half an hour just to force down the last couple of mouthfuls, feeling stuffed and ready to vomit. But I finished by myself and scored a certificate :o)
4 April 1999
I'm eating chocolate again already, and ice cream :o). YAY lent is over :o). And I'm still feeling happy about the unconfirmed rumour :o).
And today I started playing other CDs than just Dusty Springfeild. As I had played on Dusty for a month in mourning of her untimely death. So I've been listening to Cher, Madonna and Cass Elliot
I just got home from the Gypsy Fair, where i bought a coloured light bulb :o). And saw "Shanghai 1920" on the way home. Art Gallery films are the greatest. I'm off to watch Disney films now, buh-bye.
5 April 1999
I spent this morning working on my IHUG homepage and then went to the Gypsy fair again before going to see "Drunken Master II" at the China Town Video exibit at the art gallery. It is a great movie.
Well I'm off to upload some poems to my web site.
8 April 1999
I just did the purity test (download it and try for yourself, requires Excel). When I did it last year I got a score of 4 (very innocent) so i tried again being as harsh on myself as I could and score 14 (still rather innocent) when i re-did it today I got 45 :o(. That is still in the innocent zone, but it's a rather major change. And i think about ten of those new points happened last night. But if you want to hear that story you'll have to ask me in person.
Anyway, I'm having a video nite at my place tonite, everyone is invited. So I must go organise it. Buh-bye.
Well I've vacuumed the lounge and my room gone to the supermarket and bought drinks and lollies. I also picked up some videos:
Better Off Dead
The Bride of Frankenstein
Buffy The Vampire Slayer
The Silence Of The Hams
To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything! Julie Newmar
I had wanted to get "When the wind blows" and "Even Cowgirls get the blues" but they were too enpensive. The five I got only cost $9 for the lot, and I have them for a week. Theones i had wanted were $5 for 3 days EACH. Well I should shower and like before ppl arrive. As ppl will start to turn up at 7pm. Later.
PS: read "Neverwhere" I am at the moment and it is great.
9 April 1999
My party was great, in the end five ppl slept in my bed (counting me) and we got up at seven to watch the videos we didn't get watched at night ("Bride of frankenstein" and "Vibes"). It was a great party. And keep me distracted for ages.
i'm pulling the depressive phase thing at the moment so have been trying to keep myself occupied so I don't have mental thinking time.
Today I spent $200 on pastic happiness (LEGO) :o).
Anyway, I'm off now.
10 April 1999
Last night Andrea forced me to go to "the island". it's a play at the globe. and I hated it. I hated it lots. the dialog was ultra cheesy / ridiculous and the plot was rather idiotic too. but it was surprising funny (as in not really funny, but better than it could have been), for all it's incompetance. lewd, like all good plays should be.
This morning i slept.
This afternoon i've spent finishing "Neverwhere" by Neil Gaiman. It is such a great book, I think i'll have to read it again before I lend it to anyone. It is GREAT. Now I should really start about spending the last day and a bit of my holidays doing all the assignments i should have spent all holidays on.
It's now late saturday night. I had Pizza-to-go-go Vegetarian with Pineapple pizza for tea. And now I'm off to bed, even though I haven't started any of my assignments yet. I am so bad.
11 April 1999
I started the first of my essays today, i haven't finished it though. I haven't even drafted it yet. I've only done a few notes about it. And I have two essays, a set design, a creative justified responce to monopoly and a chemistry lab report that I should have done already. i am so wicked.
I'm also annoyed at geocities, which is playing up a bit. But atleast eudoramail.com is working properly again.
I'm also annoyed that a song I heard on the radio and liked came out to be by a group i loathe, so now i have to dislike the song on principle.
12 April 1999
i've started the assignment and i'm beginning to get a bit of it done-ish. I still will have a hideous week if I'm gonna get it finished on time. So these are probably going to be short.
16 April 1999
YAY, my weeks internal assesment is over. I went to Shakepeare in Love on monday. It's great :o). On tuesday I did homework. On wednesday and thursday ditto. today I finally got my Mulan CD. So after i have finished here I should go update my cd list. At lunch time i saw a great play at Allen Hall Theatre, but it isn't on anymore so I don't need to tell you to go. Anyway, I'm off to a flat warming now. Buh-bye.
17 April 1999
I am broke!
I went to the "Great CD and Book Sale" thingee at the edgar centre and spent up. I got two CDs, The very greatest hits of Dusty Springfeild, and Ultra-lounge 13 :Tv town. And then I bought some books. So now I have NO money :o(. Talk about not fair. i'm also thinking I need a major life event to happen so i have an excuse for a new page in this diary. Coz this page is getting big, but nothing much is happening and I can't start a new page unless i start it with somethiing interesting.
i'm also feeling a little guilty today, i had a very small amount of alcohol last night and I don't usually drink at all. though it was as a toast.
Any-way, Buh-bye.
18 April 1999
Gang show rehersals.
That is about all I have to say for today. Though I'm thinking of doing something that will give me reasn to start a new diary page. Anyway, later.
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