Me - Stuff About - Me

Welcome to the page of my thoughts. I hope you find it enlightening and interesting. I also hope that you can relate to them. I know I can.

God. Well, I love God dearly. He has blessed me many times in my life. More than I may ever know. Good thing is I know he loves me and cares enough to help me out. There have been many times in my life where I feel I should have died or should have been seriously injured. I feel that God has a reason for keeping me around as I am. I pray that I full fill that purpose and do so with him in mind. I am not the best christian I could be but I aspire to be better. God aids me in my decisions. He doesn't crontrol my life for he gave it to me to live. In doing so I believe he is testing me [us] to see if we will accept and welcome him into our lives.

Due to my love of God I do not fear death. I believe death is nothing more than a door that I wish to travel through to exit this world and enter into the next. I picture Jesus on the otherside with open arms welcoming us all to his kingdom. Blinded by the light we are guided by his love which reaches out and draws us ever closer. So in my living I long for dying. This is evident in my poetry that I am disgusted with this world and fond of the other.

I find that this world is full of pain. I don't care for society or any of society's ideals. I'm not a conformist, although I don't try to oppose those ideals.  I simply live life as I see most desirable. Physical pain is easily tolerated. I believe that pain is only anxiety and a predisposed idea of pain. Thus pain is nothing more than a sensation believed to be painful. Merely clearing you mind of the thought will ease the idea of hurt. Emotional pain runs far deeper. I don't deal well with emotional pain. I once let someone close to me I didn't feel close to. Eventually this person hurt me very badly. So I made the connection between people and pain. I am extremely selective as to those individuals I call a friend. When I do so, one may be assured that I trust them completely. Spiritual pain is one I can only attempt to describe. Imagine that there is no God, no afterlife, no meaning to life, nothingh; now imagine that you are dead. You are dead you have no consciousness, you have no body, you are nothing! You have no soul, no thought, no feeling. This is only a glimse of the depressed feelings of one without God.

This world not entirely consumed in hatred and want. It does have a few high points of love and friendship. Love of God, family, friends, others, and just an open love of all. Love is a good thing. It can't really be limited to an emotion or a feeling for it is so much more. So I call love a thing to give it a broad catagory becuase it means so much to so many. Friendship is a wonderous thing. I have few true friends, but i cherrish those that I have. I try to keep them close to me because I feed off of their energy.(not like a vampire or a man of Voodo) I just get filled with energy when I am around them. They lift my spirits and make me so very happy! I guess that's why it pains me so greatly when I am not around them. But to all my friends: I miss you. and wanna see you soon!

My answers to my questionaire

Name: James Joshua Maybury

Reason for living: To accept God, and to help show other's his love

Favorite lingerie: Solid white satin teddy with a short white satin robe (on her!)

Favorite activity: Wrestling due to my love of competition

Goal: To live life as I should or believe I should

Hated in HS: In/Out groups

My Goals

Favorite Things To Do

Favorite Music

Food

Chocolate! Chocolate is a must! Although I am alergic to it, I still see how much I can put away. mmmm

Corn. It's probably my most favorite food. Love da hot summers with corn on the cob.

Oranges! Oh yes oranges. Our Vocational school's FFA gets oranges from Florida shipped here overnight. They are so good!

Shrimp is a fond food of mine. Not an everyday meal, but a fun dine.

Give me a SALAD! I love salads. They are so good. But gatta be fresh. Not that stuff they put in bags nowadays.

Homemade bread rocks. Oh I'd be fat if Mom was all the time baking.

Gatta give the salute to Mom's veggie soup. I eat it all the time. It is so good. Can't even describe it. It's just good.

Women

I'll probably regret putting this here but oh well. I love being around women! They are just so fun to talk to. They seem more honest and open then guys. I like that. I like intellectual discussions with women more than with men because, in general, women are more judgemental and yet more reasonable. It's a nice combination for someone like me who loves to debate. As for physical appearance... Well, I prefer athletic ladies, good muscle tone, dark hair, dark eyes, friendly smile, and nice white teeth! Personality is a must cause I don't have one. So I like a lady who can compensate for my lack of personality. I also like intellegent ladies. It is so nice to make a joke and not have to explain it for five minutes. I know I am very particular, and even more so about women but I know what I like. And this is just my statement of the ideal. I certainly don't eliminate all dates based on this criteria.

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