"FUMBLING TOWARDS ECSTASY"

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All songs written by Sarah McLachlan
Except for Fumbling Towards Ecstasy written by Pierre
Marchand / Sarah McLachlan
Produced, Recorded, & Mixed by Pierre Marchand
Recorded & Mixed at Wild Sky (Morin Heights)
© 1997-1998 Nettwerk Productions
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         Possession
              Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
              voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
              the night is my companion, and solitude my guide
              would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
              and I would be the one
              to hold you down
              kiss you so hard
              I'll take your breath away
              and after, I'd wipe away the tears
              just close your eyes dear
              Through this world I've stumbled
              so many times betrayed
              trying to find an honest word to find
              the truth enslaved
              oh you speak to me in riddles
              and you speak to me in rhymes
              my body aches to breathe your breath
              your words keep me alive
              And I would be the one
              to hold you down
              kiss you so hard
              I'll take your breath away
              and after, I'd wipe away the tears
              just close your eyes dear
              Into this night I wander
              it's morning that I dread
              another day of knowing of
              the path I fear to tread
              oh into the sea of waking dreams
              I follow without pride
              nothing stands between us here
              and I won't be denied
              and I would be the one
              to hold you down
              kiss you so hard
              I'll take your breath away
              and after, I'd wipe away the tears
              just close your eyes...
             Wait
              Under a blackened sky
              far beyond the glaring streetlights
              sleeping on empty dreams
              the vultures lie in wait
              You lay down beside me then
              you were with me every waking hour
              so close I could feel your breath
              When all we wanted was the dream
              to have and to hold that precious little thing
              like every generation yields
              the new born hope unjaded by their years
              Pressed up against the glass
              I found myself wanting sympathy
              but to be consumed again
              oh I know would be the death of me
              and there is a love that's inherently given
              a kind of blindness offered to appease
              and in that light of forbidden joy
              oh I know I won't receive it
              When all we wanted was the dream
              to have and to hold that precious little thing
              like every generation yields
              the newborn hope unjaded by their years
              You know if I leave you now
              it doesn't mean that I love you any less
              it's just the state I'm in
              I can't be good to anyone else like this
              When all we wanted was the dream
              to have and to hold that precious little thing
              like every generation yields
              the new born hope unjaded by their years...
              Plenty
              I looked into your eyes
              they told me plenty
              I already knew
              you never felt a thing
              so soon forgotten all that you do
              in more than words I
              tried to tell you
              the more I tried I failed
              I would not let myself believe
              that you might stray
              and I would stand by you
              no matter what they'd say, I would have thought I'd be with you
              until my dying day
              until my dying day
              I used to think my life
              was often empty
              a lonely space to fill
              you hurt me more than
              I ever would have imagined
              you made my world stand still
              and in that stillness
              there was a freedom
              I never felt before
              I would not let myself believe
              that you might stray
              and I would stand by you
              no matter what they'd say, I would have thought I'd be with you
              until my dying day
              until my dying day
              Good Enough
              Hey your glass is empty
              it's a hell of a long way home
              why don't you let me take you
              it's no good to go alone
              I never would have opened up
              but you seemed so real to me
              after all the bullshit I've heard
              it's refreshing not to see
              I don't have to pretend
              she doesn't expect it from me
              Don't tell me I haven't been good to you
              don't tell me I have never been there for you
              don't tell me why
              nothing is good enough
              Hey little girl would you like some candy
              your momma said that it's OK
              The door is open come on outside
              no I can't come out today
              it's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
              and threw you to the ground
              who's there that makes you so afraid
              you're shaken to the bone
              and I don't understand
              you deserve so much more than this
              So don't tell me why
              he's never been good to you
              don't tell me why
              he's never been there for you
              don't you know that why
              is simply not good enough
              so just let me try
              and I will be good to you
              just let me try
              and I will be there for you
              I'll show you why
              you're so much more than good enough...
              Mary
              Mary walks
              down to the water's edge
              and there she hangs her head
              to find herself faded
              a shadow of what she once was
              She said "How long have I been sleeping
              and why do I feel so old
              why do I feel so cold
              my heart is saying one thing but my body won't let go"
              With trembling hands she reaches up
              a stranger's flesh is offered
              and I would be the last to know
              I would be the last the let it show
              I would be the last to go
              Take her hand
              she will lead you through the fire
              give you back hope
              and hope that you won't take too much
              respecting what is left
              she cradled us
              she held us in her arms
              unselfish in her suffering she could not understand
              that no one seemed to have the time
              to cherish what was given
              and I would be the last to know
              and I would be the last to let it show
              I would be the last to go...
              Mary walks...
              Elsewhere
              I love the time and in between
              the calm inside me
              in the space where I can breathe
              I believe there is a
              distance I have wandered
              to touch upon the years of
              reaching out and reaching in
              holding out holding in
              I believe
              this is heaven to no one else but me
              and I'll defend it as long as I can be
              left here to linger in silence
              if I choose to
              would you try to understand
              I know this love is passing time
              passing through like liquid
              I am drunk in my desire...
              but I love the way you smile at me
              I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
              I believe...
              I believe
              this is heaven to no one else but me
              and I'll defend it as long as
              I can be left here to linger in silence
              if I choose to
              would you try to understand
              Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
              the mold that clings like desperation
              Mother can't you see I've got
              to live my life the way I feel is right for me
              might not be right for you but it's right for me...
              I believe...
              I believe
              this is heaven to no one else but me
              and I'll defend it as long as
              I can be left here to linger in silence
              if I choose to
              would you try to understand it
              I would like to linger here in silence
              if I choose to
              would you understand it
              would you try to understand...
              Circle
              There are two of us talking in circles
              and one of us who wants to leave
              in a world created for only us
              an empty cage that has no key
              don't you know we're working with flesh and blood
              carving out of jealousy
              Crawling into each other it's smothering
              every little part of me
              What kind of love is this that keeps me
              hanging on
              despite everything it's doing to me
              what is this love that keeps me coming
              back for more
              when it will only end in misery
              I know too many people unhappy
              in a life from which they'd love to flee
              watching others get everything offered
              they're wanton for discovery
              Oh my brother my sister my mother
              you're loosing your identity
              can't you see that it's you in the window
              shining with intensity
              What kind of love is this that keeps me
              hanging on
              despite everything it's doing to me
              what is this love that keeps me coming
              back for more
              when it will only end in misery...
             Ice
              The ice is thin come on dive in
              underneath my lucid skin
              the cold is lost, forgotten
              Hours pass days pass time stands still
              light gets dark and darkness fills
              my secret heart forbidden...
              I think you worried for me then
              the subtle ways that I'd give in but I know
              you liked the show
              tied down to this bed of shame
              you tried to move around the pain but oh
              your soul is anchored
              The only comfort is the moving of the river
              You enter into me, a lie upon your lips
              offer what you can, I'll take all that I can get
              only a fool's here...
              I don't like your tragic sighs
              as if your god has passed you by well hey fool
              that's your deception
              your angels speak with jilted tongues
              the serpent's tale has come undone you have no
              strength to squander
              The only comfort is the moving of the river
              You enter into me, a lie upon your lips
              offer what you can, I'll take all that I can get
              only a fool's here to stay
              only a fool's here to stay
              only a fool's here...
             Hold On
              Hold on
              Hold on to yourself
              for this is gonna hurt like hell
              Hold on
              Hold on to yourself
              you know that only time will tell
              What is it in me that refuses to believe
              this isn't easier than the real thing
              My love
              you know that you're my best friend
              you know I'd do anything for you
              my love
              let nothing come between us
              my love for you is strong and true
              Am I in heaven here or am I...
              at the crossroads I am standing
              So now you're sleeping peaceful
              I lie awake and pray
              that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
              see another day and we will praise it
              and love the light that brings a smile
              across your face
              Oh god if you're out there won't you hear me
              I know that we've never talked before
              oh god the man I love is leaving
              won't you take him when he comes to your door
              Am I in heaven here or am I in hell
              at the crossroads I am standing
              So now you're sleeping peaceful
              I lie awake and pray
              that you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
              see another day and we will praise it
              and love the light that brings a smile
              across your face...
              Hold on
              hold on to yourself
              for this is gonna hurt like hell
             Ice Cream
              Your love is better than ice cream
              better than anything else that I've tried
              and your love is better than ice cream
              everyone here know how to fight
              and it's a long way down
              it's a long way down
              it's a long way down to the place
              where we started from
              Your love is better than chocolate
              better than anything else that I've tried
              oh love is better than chocolate
              everyone here knows how to cry
              it's a long way down
              it's a long way down
              it's a long way down to the place
              where we started from...
             Fear
              Morning smiles
              like the face of a newborn child
              innocent unknowing
              Winter's end
              promises of a long lost friend
              speaks to me of comfort
              but I fear
              I have nothing to give
              I have so much to lose
              here in this lonely place
              tangled up in our embrace
              there's nothing I'd like
              better than to fall
              but I fear I have nothing to give
              Wind in time
              rapes the flower trembling on the vine
              nothing yields to shelter it
              from above
              they say temptation will destroy our love
              the never ending hunger
              but I fear
              I have nothing to give
              I have so much to lose
              here in this lonely place
              tangled up in our embrace
              there's nothing I'd like
              better than to fall
              but I fear
              I have nothing to give
              I have so much to lose
              I have nothing to give
              We have so much to lose...
              Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
              All the fear has left me now
              I'm not frightened anymore
              It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
              it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
              and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
              I won't fear love
              and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
              I won't fear love
              Companion to our demons
              they will dance, and we will play
              With chairs, candles, and cloth
              making darkness in the day
              It will be easy to look in or out
              upstream or down without a thought
              and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
              I won't fear love
              and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
              I won't fear love
              Peace in the struggle
              to find peace
              comfort on the way
              to comfort
              and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
              I won't fear love
              and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
              I won't fear love
              I won't fear love
              I won't fear love...


 
 
 
 
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