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I'd like to point out before I start that I don't mean any disrespect to anyone, including Freddie Mercury, his family, Queen or any general affilation. I am merely an ardent fan adding an extra dimension and thus fully appreciating the music we all know and love, so please don't take it personally!
So
what's this all about?
This theme about Freddie's issues with his mother wasn't very obvious from the outset. I'd only noticed it in later interviews when Brian talked about the way Freddie approached songwriting. In the GHI DVD, he made it evident that Freddie liked to be obscure about the meaning and subject matter of his songs, but it didn't mean that he didn't put a lot of thought into what he wrote about. This triggered some thought into what Freddie really meant in his songs. It's difficult to find a thread in Queen's music cause most of the time the subject matter is so abstract and the enormous changes in the style of music they played are quite distracting. But if you look, there are themes and it's really fruitful when you find them. Themes, even when they are unanalysed are how fans can identify with 99% accuracy a "Roger" song, if not by the music, by the lyrics... Regardless I never really took the lyrics into account because I thought the music mattered above all else. First, I'd like to paint the picture of a young Freddie for those who aren't super familiar. He was born in Zanzibar in 1946 to Jer and Bomi Bulsara. If any of you have seen his birth certificate, it's quite humourous because there are mistakes and cross-outs everywhere (talk about identity crisis!). When he was about eight he was sent to boarding school in India. It's hard to speculate what this must have been like because he was very secretive about his past. By watching way too many documentaries and reading too many biographies, I think this would've been a hard time in his life. This may be attributed to being thousands of miles from his family, political and social unrest in his home country, upholding his faith as well as his struggle with his sexuality amongst other things. The family moved to the UK in 1964 due to these difficulties in Tanzania. As his sister, Kashmira once said in an interview, she and Freddie were afraid of being marked as "different" from the cultural stereotype. This is all before Queen began... |
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Go
on...
So you'd imagine with all these things happening in Freddie's life, he'd write about some of the things in his past. However, he didn't. He wrote about redemption, guilt and unhappiness, all leading to wanting forgiveness from his mother. This can be stemmed from Freddie's first song My Fairy King to the last song he ever wrote, Mother Love. It is impossible to figure out what he exactly wanted forgiveness for, but the most likely reason would because of his sexuality. Friends often said Freddie never came out about his bisexuality because it would've distressed his mother too much. If this is the case, Freddie's music provides a tragic and realistic insight to the fear imposed by many, that a child would not be accepted by their parents because they are not heterosexual. However, this is only a speculative comment but interesting in context to the music he wrote and the life he led. So
where's your proof?
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I have sinned dear Father Father I have sinned Try and help me Father Won't you let me in? Liar Mama I'm gonna
try behave
Liar liar they
never ever let you win
(Liar from Queen I)
It's so funny
there's nothing to laugh about
No beginning there's
no ending
(In the Lap of the Gods - Revisited from Sheer Heart
Attack)
The second verse, meanwhile, identifies his general "neverending" frustration and his feelings of disconnection from the family unit. The line (fragmented by the "you can do it"s) is kind of sad, "You say I can't set you free from me, but that's not true". It's like he's determined to be completely cut off from their criticism while also cutting himself off from other things. |
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Mama, just killed a man, Put a gun against his head, Pulled my trigger, now he's dead, Mama, life had just begun, But now I've gone and thrown it all away Mama ooo, Didn't mean to make you cry If I'm not back again this time tomorrow Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves
me
Mama mia, mama mia, mama mia let me
go
Another line I came across, quite by accident is one from the Prophet Song. I don't think this is really proper evidence since it was written by Brian and it's a complete rehash of what was written in Chapters V- X in Genesis: From mother's love is the son estranged
Faiths Freddie explored include the already mentioned Greek mythology and Catholism, existentialism (in Bohemian Rhapsody), Islam (in Mustapha), Christianity (in All Gods People) and issues about morality and basic philosophy in songs like Don't Try Suicide and Keep Passing the Open Windows. Certainly stuff to think about ; ) |
After Bohemian Rhapsody, Freddie's
songs became more relaxed and frivolous and he progressively saw the perks
in rock stardom (Let Me Entertain You, for instance). Songs
like Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy, Bicycle Race, Don't Stop Me Now and
Get
Down Make Love indicate he was becoming more at ease with his sexuality,
even if it was in a very indirect manner. It was not until John Lennon's
death in 1980 and Freddie's tribute track, Life
is Real (Song for Lennon) that some of the old insecurities came
flooding back. While the song sounded very much like a Lennon song,
with the tin-like simple piano line, the accomanying lyrics are very stark,
yet violent and intense.
Guilt stains on my pillow
Loneliness is my hiding place
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But if you fall and take a tumble it
won't be far
If you fail you mustn't grumble
Thank your lucky stars
Just savour every mouthful
And treasure every moment
When the storms are raging round you
Stay right where you are
One day you'll be a sergeant major
Oh you'll be so proud
Screaming out your bloody orders
Hey but not too loud
(Don't Try So Hard from Innuendo)
Although this song is a tad wistful, it
gives hope to anyone who is alone and who is having a bad time. I
love the imagery in the lines "when the storms are raging round you, stay
right where you are", it seems so truthful, dark and independent.
The excerpt, shown here in the second paragraph almost seem like the encouraging
words of a mother to a child, yet warning the child not to scream their
orders "too loud"; almost as if any type of outward enthusiastic emotion
was discouraged. This seems perfectly ironic considering how Queen
started and nobody understood how thoroughly serious Freddie really was.
I can see a kind of parallel in my life and society in general, where it's
not good to be considered "ambitious" because it'll be embarrassing when
you fail. Tracks like this, Was It All Worth It and These
are the Days of Our Lives add to the "retrospective" image of Queen
(the beautiful music/yet slightly past it phase). It's kind
of a relief that there was such a change of mentality to the guilty, frustrated
image of Freddie Mercury in 1973 to that of lonely, yet very wise image
of him in 1991.
Hmm.. that's VERY interesting,
so what about Made in Heaven?
Recorded in the time after Innuendo but
before Freddie's untimely death in 1991, the tracks from Made in Heaven
provide a tragic and impassioned look into the final months of Freddie's
life. Although some of the tracks, such as Made in Heaven, Too
Much Love Will Kill You and Heaven for Everyone were written
for entirely different seperate projects from Queen, they provide almost
ironic insight into the inevitable. One of my favourite tracks and
most touching tracks from the album (and one of the most underrated I think)
is Mother Love. It is also rumoured to be the last song Freddie
layed vocals to.
All I want is the comfort and care
Just to know that my woman gives me
sweet mother love
Uh huh
I've walked too long in this lonely
lane
I've had enough of this same old game
I'm a man of the world and they say
that I'm strong
But my heart is heavy, and my hope
is gone
Out in the city, in the cold world outside
I don't want pity, just a safe place
to hide
Mama please, let me back inside
(Mother Love from Made In Heaven)
When I didn't realise what this song was
about it was difficult to decipher what was so moving about this track.
Looking at it in this context, it makes a lot more sense. It can
be interpreted as Freddie attempting to find the same love of a mother
in many different lovers who invariably walked all over him and his generousity.
He may have felt these kinds of destructive relationships may have compensated
for those he lacked, I don't know. But as he says, this is not the
same as he begs "Mama please, let me back inside" and then a door
slams, as if he is shunned still, even after walking "too long in this
lonely lane".
It's difficult to know what was the truth behind the nature in the relationship between Freddie and his parents. Sure you can read biographies, you can read between the lines, you can do all kinds of things but ultimately it doesn't matter. Again, I'm not telling fans or readers to read into this thing literally, look into it with perspective. Take aspects of the music and the stories these guys told and see and understand why you like it so much. I honestly don't meant to cause any offense in the slightest, again I'm just a fan, I really don't know anything at all.
Whew, after all that ranting I feel all cleansed...
Wow Ely, that was so amazing,
where can I write to PRAISE you senseless?
Thank you so much guys, it's really wonderful stuff (even the bad comments). Be sure to keep em coming! elle.gray@lycos.com :P
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