Never Like A Dream


Never like a dream
but not what it may seem
til I wake up trembling

Was it all so real or,
am I all screwed up
was it a message from my god?

It's in my head, what can I do to make it go?
it's in my head, it's part of me and oh so real
it's in my head, nothing I do can make it go away
it's in my head, and happens all the time


I worry for myself
about my mental health
because of my family's past
I wish it all away so I can live everyday
happy with this world again

It's in my head, what can I do to make it go?
it's in my head, it's part of me and oh so real
it's in my head, nothing I do can make it go away
it's in my head, and happens all the time

Time



Aged


There's Something,
It's out there,
It's playland
or have I grown to old
I've missed it,
conflicted,
who's to blame for
my lack of being content
I see my friends are starting it again

I've got to get this out of my head
Ive gotta say I've rather be dead
I've got to stop and be a child again
i don't want this to ever end


You can't pull me into
your own pitiful ways
you can have your
own defense
that's the way that I'll stay

My fear is
Not aging
just the fact that they all look so old
nine to five
not alive
I'm looking backwards now and then
I see my friends are starting it again.

I've got to get this out of my head
Ive gotta say I've rather be dead
I've got to stop and be a child again
i don't want this to ever end


You can't pull me into
your own pitiful ways
you can have your own defense
that's the way that I'll stay
I am aging but I won't grow to be old like them all
I am aging but I won't grow to be old




Cold Coffee


Lately I've been feeling down on myself
Lately I've been feeling like there's no help
is there something that you want to say?
Anything you say will be ok

I've mastered the art of idiocy
It's become a great big part of me
I'm still paying for what I've done
But I'm the jerk that's having fun

I'm really dumb
In the deepest shit
I'm really dumb
and I can't get out of it
I'm really dumb
Trouble from another thing
I'm really dumb
Now my ass is in a sling

I've mastered the art of hopelessness
these are just the things that I do best
Cold coffee brings me my charm
Brainless and can't do no harm

I'm really dumb
In the deepest shit
I'm really dumb
and I can't get out of it
I'm really dumb
Trouble from another thing
I'm really dumb
Now my ass is in a sling
I'm Really dumb
I'm really dumb



Forever Gene


Have you ever dreamed to be immortal?
As I've done so many days.
All the kids can live forever
And all we ever do is play

I'm not interested in politics
I don't ever want to vote
I don't give a damn about the weather
I'll go outside without my coat

Hey can you help me find a gene that'll make me live forever
Won't you save me lots of time and don't forget my friends
Imagine how It'd be to come to see a thousand years of brain
And it would be so cool to go to school and know everything


Well, these times and our progress
Has brought us to this landmark day
You and I can live forever
Until I piss you off and then we knock each other off

I'm not interested in politics
I don't ever want to vote
I don't give a damn about the weather
I'll go outside without my coat

Hey can you help me find a gene that'll make me live forever
Won't you save me lots of time and don't forget my friends
Imagine how It'd be to come to see a thousand years of brain
And it would be so cool to go to school and know everything


Blackout


And I wonder if you see just what's happening to me
And I still feel like myself with this feeling around me
And I'd wonder if you'd say, it gets weirder everyday
And I still feel like myself with this feeling inside me

And I waste my life trying to figure it out
You can talk to me no need to scream and shout
It's fairly obvious a stupid thing to me
And all I wanna know if it's not my cup of tea


Fall to my knees hard to the floor
then I Screamed louder than I ever did before
I don't wanna die, I want to live
Think of all the things that I can give
think what I've been, what I am not
Think how It'd be a paradise lost
How it would be without me

And I waste my life trying to figure it out
You can talk to me no need to scream and shout
It's fairly obvious a stupid thing to me
And all I wanna know if it's not my cup of tea


And I waste my life trying to figure it out
You can talk to me no need to scream and shout
It's fairly obvious a stupid thing to me
And all I wanna know if it's not my cup of tea


Polalid


I've Gone with the wind almost all my life
I took a path that's never right
Every step I take with fear
But somehow I'm going somewhere
All new but the same to me
Play time a word which used to be

I'm still looking but I still can't see
I'm still looking for a place for me

My enemy goes face to face
or felt all around anyplace
It follows me everywhere
I turn around hope it's not there.
Change is the key for me
I see two ways but hope for three

I'm still looking but I still can't see
I'm still looking for a place for me

I don't know his name
I just know he's someone else
I can't feel his pain
oh my lord please help me out
I don't know his name
is there one for a godly type
I don't know a name
I won't try cause I won't be right

I don't know a name
I don't know his name
I don't know a name..for you

Further Delt


I don't even cry no more
I don't have a reason since you've
Left me for the only one
The only one I dispise
It's all left me a lonly trail
I follow my thoughts that just throw me off
Maybe I'm just a missfire
But yet I still can kill you

Let me know if you need me cause I wnna stay
Make your own rules I don't care anyway
I know my mind is off track
Cause i'll do anything to get you back
Here's something you should know
My mind is about to blow
You try but you can't explain
You can not feel my pain
Now I never speak my mind
Because i don't care if i'm
Heard by anyone
anyone but you
I am your dying memory

Let me know if you need me cause I wnna stay
Make your own rules I don't care anyway
I know my mind is off track
Cause i'll do anything to get you back
Here's something you should know
My mind is about to blow
You try but you can't explain
You can not feel my pain


What We Started


I've finally figured it out I know why you make me sick
it's always been tht way but just now I thought of it
the world is broken and you think your the only tool
and I just can't hang around somebody that so damn cool

Set him up, look what we started

A little compliment gone way too far stright to the head
and now its pissing me off sometimes I wish that you were dead.
all the asinine and the stupid things that you say
will all build up to this, catch up to you one day.

Set him up, look what we started

Look at all the things you've done for us
I can count not one
you think without you we would belost and dumb and knocking on your door again.



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