Where do I begin to tell you about my mother? Firstly I've known her for twenty-five years, so I
guess I'm a pretty reliable character witness. My mother is:-
- possessive
- manipulative
- pessemistic
- selfish
- obstinant
- attentive
- devoted
- pretty
- streetsmart
- intuative
- very loving and giving
So why am I telling you about her? Well she got me very upset on my birthday. She asked me what special foods I wanted for dinner (we go there for dinner on Tuesday nights). Knowing that she works and that being an unwell women she would be tired, I said "Whatever you make will be fine, just leave out cauliflower, pumpkin, fish and chinese (she can't cook these well), I know whatever you make will be very nice." Anyway, we get there for dinner,starving, and my mum brings out vegitable soup with mainly cauliflower. I asked why and she answered "What was I to do, throw it away?" Thinking how selfish I was, when there are hungry people in the world, I was very humbled. Next course, my mum brings out leftover chicken and baked pumpkin. All I did was look at her. She avoided my eyes. Needless to say, I didn't touch the pumpkin.
Just jumping back a little, the week before I was asked what I wanted as a Birthday gift. Knowing that they had bought my sister a Kenwood Chef Excel (a mixmaster @ $400) I thought that if I asked for a titanium plated Scanpan Wok (@ $125, I searched for the best price I could) they would give it to me, as I only turn a 'quarter of a Century' once. My mum usually buys me clothes for my birthday, which is great because I rarely buy myself anything to wear, but this year I was hoping to get something different. This time I got a nice T-shirt and pants, but what's better, is that she left the price tag on them. My hubby was not pleased. Needless to say the one-and-only thing I wanted I didn't get.
As usual I made excuses for my parents. I was the one who took everyone's problems on my shoulders. At a very very young age, I would act the pacifier between my elder bro's (I have 2) and sister. I have felt this responsibility even though I am almost 8-9 years younger. Even my mother will use me as a go between when confronting my sister on an important issue, or when they are arguing. The same goes for when my sister has pissed off my eldest brother. We are all hypersensitive, like my mother, but sometimes I get really sick of having to patch things up between the fueding parties. Anyway, this is getting me really depressed so I'm going to leave it here. I'm sure there will be more mother, sister or family links further along.
See You Later...
Soosh...
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