The Kiss Of The Ocean

It has been a while, however I have news to report.. I found a little bit more of myself... A thread to wind around my finger..it pulled tight but now I watch it unravel, slowly, slowly. Surrounded by a peaceful ether, I was comforted by gentle clouds, wrapped in cocoon of soft downy pillows. Gently, I was lifted..lifted..lifted, to the state I am in now..relaxed..enjoying the music Novelette: No.3 in E Minor by Poulenc, based on a Spanish Theme.

I do not remember divulging what my name 'Soosh' means to me. Why should it be important, you may ask..it is just a nickname afterall? Well it's important to me, as most people call me Soosh (or Sooshie). Respect for people often can be noted by what and how, one is called. I vaguely remember how I got my nickname, but that is incidental now.

Soosh - The Kiss Of The Ocean... a sea-spray kiss into the wind and of stormy nights..I shall find thee and comfort thee.. I sheild thee with my embrace and hold you into my eternity.

I despair at how difficult it is for me to explain this meaning, I cannot just yet, for it is not a complete picture. I know I often use my homepages as a 'scribbling pad' a doodle for thoughts and ideas..which only scratch the surface. Can one ever really find the origin of a chain, where the link begins and/or finishes?

This brings me to what I am really on about this eve. My origins. Secretively, I have been questioning the links to my heritage. I know so far as to my linage of my Great-Grandparents. Family played and still plays a significant part in my life. My character, my ideals, my fears, my joys and sorrows all stem from one sorce - FAMILY. I seek to pick up the broken chain and follow it back to its previous link. Unfortunately I feel until I do this, I shall be haunted by nameless and faceless souls, who somehow have found me, before I was even aware. I know this is confusing, but how much more so for me!

I was educated as to my background, yet no names or faces where spoken of, to enable me to attach them to places or a timeline. My brother's and sister have never been as passionate about finding their heritage as I am. This confuses me, as I know that all of us dream alot, and that we value our dreams. We will often share our dreams. My mother shares her dreams with us too. I feel these dreams are calling to us for a reason, perhaps mine lead in a different path despite our similar genetic makeup. I know there is such a wealth of information to uncover. I must travel to find the answers to this quest, but my business (as my friend :-) pointed out to me, after a long discussion on life, love and fears), is the key to my past. Why? Money of course!!! In order to travel one must have some money. REALITY BITES (chews at me, gnawingly, Ouch)!

My discussion with my friend was very informative. It's often difficult to be biased about oneself, so that is where friends help, to shed light on the situation/s and to help awaken you from slumber. I guess I needed that infusion. It was honest and actually not painful at all. Sometimes the truth hurts, but in this case it was painless. Lots of the things we discussed, I had known, but had not vocalised or consciously dwelt upon them previously. My friend noticed that one of my journal entries In Memorium did not actually reflect exactly all what I had wanted it to. I explained how I was unfulfilled by that entry..as if I had not fully justified myself, or that I had not fully opened up feelings whilst typing it leaving me with great discontent and hollow feeling. I know I shall remedy this unresolved entry next year, for I would have more insight to my feelings next year. One thing which struck me, was that my friend said that she was (in some respects) like my sister, and she knows how much I love my sister. She is of course right. These traits are ones that would cause me some concern, but my friend knows how much I love her too. It is as if we always knew each other..even have our share of disagreements...just like sisters :) . It's a nice feeling.

I am reading a great book, which my friend put me onto. It has brought me much comfort. I laugh and cry, I feel and share in alot of the things that this authoress has written about.

Okay...now for the day to day, part of my entry. Well..I had my friend over for Friday night. I watched her 'hag' (as she calls it ) on my hubby for the way he writes a cheque. Quick background update - Hubby's sister used to work in a bank and who taught him how to write out a cheque. My friend, deals with ingoing and outgoing cheques all day at work. Anyway, we needed to pay for my Opera Ticket (can't wait!!!) and a book I bought, so hubby wrote out a cheque and handed it to her. You should have seen the two of them... What fun I had to watch them squabble about the way a cheque is written!

It didn't stop there. During dinner, my friend noticed her potato had a bottom ( I allow you to use your imagination here), so she stuck a corn cob holder in the so called 'potato's bottom' (_,_). They thought it was highly amusing (for me, their amusement was the funny bit). After dinner they discussed which way was the correct method of putting glad wrap (plastic wrap) over the salad bowl (as we had leftover some salad from dinner), not only how, but why it was done that way and what was the best way of creating that vacuum and how to test if that vacuum was acheived. Stimulating stuff, not??? They are both so alike, in so many ways, it's comical. They think I make more out of this then they do. Hmmm.. I guess I do. Yet it could be because these things are SO trivial, that if I were to pull my head out of the clouds these things may actually interest me too (?) not!!!

So while my hubby worked on assignment (my friend helped him) I watched ROMEO AND JULIET. I thought it was Fantastic, bringing Shakespeare to the masses...what a fabulous way of delivering it ,10/10! Of course some of the double entendres (unfortunately no accent key on keyboard) that Shakespeare had inteded were lost, but most were well captured. My favourite part of a scene (with Mercutio and Nurse) where the Nurse calls out to Mercutio "Scurvy knave" was left out :(. The photography and props were excellent. I loved all the candles, both in Juliet's room and at the end (at the time of their deaths). The Stage scene at the beach when Mercutio delivers his final performance, was the most effective scenary photography I have seen in a long time.

I watched another video, Devil's Own - with Brad Pitt (not my favourite actor by a long shot) and Harrison Ford (whom I do like). Good movie, but too slow for me. Then this evening I went to see a John Woo movie called FACE OFF (with John Travolta and Nicholas Cage - both I admire). It was a great movie, which dealt with alot of issues and developed them well, but I feel the unrealistic scenes (almost James Bond scenes - which I would except in other circumstances) detracted from the films deeper messages (but Hollywood is Hollywood, and movies need to make money too). I enjoyed it nonetheless.

Now...It is 01:54 am and I think I will head off to bed, to read a chapter or two before I try to sleep. I have some recipies to add to my list. So quickly, here is a recipe for scones.

SCONES

• 2 cups flour
• 3 tablespoons butter (softened - or at room temperature works better for me)
• 1 cup milk (and some for lightly basting the tops of the scones prior to baking)
• sugar to taste (approx 3/4 cup)
• dash of salt (just for appearences - so to speak)
• mixing bowl
• measuring cup
• tablespoon
• muffin (as I like to use) or baking tray

Method:
Put flour (you don't need to sift) into bowl with sugar(the sugar can be interchanged for spices, cheese, olives etc...Just add those at will) and butter. Knead all together untill gooey (just love that word!) add milk, slowly if you like ( I just chuck everything together) until it is of a dough consistancy (but a little sticky). Lightly oil/grease the muffin or baking tray. Once dough is even and all bumps and knots have been worked out of the mixture (by kneading), roll into balls (golf ball is the size I go by) and put balls into or onto tray. Flatten gently with hand. This mixture should make about 12 nice sized scones. Once all are in tray and have been flattened...brush on milk to the tops of the scones (prior to cooking). Place in oven.
Baking:
All ovens are different, but mine takes 20 minutes at 180*C. I put tray on middle shelf (fan forced oven). I leave until they are golden yellow in colour and then I remove baking tray from oven and I use skewer to see if they need anymore time. They are usually done...So enjoy!!!
A tip... sugar is not necessary to use... one can use shredded cheese (i.e. tasty cheese), olives, dried tomatoes...basil, oregano etc... Allow imagination to roam free! Bon Apetite!

Till next time...

Soosh :)

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