I have been in a sort of personal limbo lately.
I can only explain it as total lack of enthusiasm
for pretty much everything.
Work leaves me completely unsatisfied
but I know that is because
I've been spending most of my days
pushing paper around
opposed to designing.
If I wanted to be an administrator
I would have sought out that sort of job,
perhaps I need to remind my bosses of that concept.

I need to create and nurture ideas in my life,
without that I don't feel alive.
Everything changes around me,
colors become washed out,
and my world becomes void of sounds,
texture and sometimes-even taste.
Thus leaving me numb wandering about
merely a shell of myself.
I've grow tired of masking
that particular trait of mine,
perhaps I no longer care what others
may think of this behavior of mine.

I need passion in my life
and I don't necessarily mean
that of a sexual nature.
Passion to search out the unknown,
an eagerness for the start of every new day
and the resistance to let each fruitful day
come to its end.
I am by nature artistic
and perhaps a bit moody,
my feelings always run deep
regardless of their positive or negative nature.
I haven't been able to pinpoint
when things started to change
but I do know that for me to go on
in my 'cloud' wandering about
couldn't possibly be wise.

I've been considering
my own webring for a bit now,
I know I know…
jumping on one of life's many bandwagons.
I wish to make for of a community
within a ring,
a place for people
that have touched me
in some philosophical or emotional way.
A place for people to integrate,
socialize and even share themselves
with those not unlike themselves.
The concept is not terribly original
but neither are all the rings out there.

name: moving target

mission statement:

"Freedom of the mind the spirit,
freedom to see to hear
to create and to be
who you've always wanted to be.
A feeling or a notion
to nurture and elaborate on,
forever evolving to keep up with
the ebb and flow of change.
To gracefully fall
flat one's face trying to get there.
Learning to fly
and struggle with the travel upward,
as well as, endure and cope
with the free fall in a downward spiral.
To be a part of something greater
than that of which we can not always grasp
or comprehend at first.
To bring into being
out of nothing
a place where when given no hope
of certain future may exist;
a new life, a new way
may be approached and brought to fruition.
That is what moving target shall be all about.

It's about all of us in our journeys
to a different place,
our place here in the world
Knowing that however different we all are,
we have faith and hope for more
and that becomes the unspoken bond."

copyright 1998 velvett

any thoughts? opinions? interest?

nite, nite.