Aum Gung Ganapathaye Namah

Namo tassa bhagavato arahato samma-sambuddhassa

Homage to The Blessed One, Accomplished and Fully Enlightened

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Test Diary

A Collection of Articles, Notes and References

Chapter 21

(September – October 2005)

(Revised:  Saturday, July 19, 2008)

By

A False Priest

What’s in a name? That which we call a rose

By any other name would smell as sweet.

- William Shakespeare

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8 "... Freely you received, freely give”.

            - Matthew 10:8 :: New American Standard Bible (NASB)

 

The attempt to make God just in the eyes of sinful men will always lead to error.                                              

- Pastor William L. Brown.

 

1 “But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days.

2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy,

3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good,

4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God

5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.

6 They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires,

7 always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.                                                                  

8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth--men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected.

9 But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.”

            - 2 Timothy 3:1-9  :: New International Version (NIV)

 

The right to be left alone – the most comprehensive of rights, and the right most valued by a free people

            - Justice Louis Brandeis, Olmstead v. U.S., 1928.

 

15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

            - Revelation 3:15-16 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

6 As he saith also in another place, Thou art a priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.

            - Hebrews 5:6 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

3 Without father, without mother, without descent, having neither beginning of days, nor end of life; but made like unto the Son of God; abideth a priest continually.

- Hebrews 7:3 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

Therefore, I say:

Know your enemy and know yourself;

in a hundred battles, you will never be defeated.

When you are ignorant of the enemy but know yourself,

your chances of winning or losing are equal.

If ignorant both of your enemy and of yourself,

you are sure to be defeated in every battle.

-- Sun Tzu, The Art of War, c. 500bc

 

There are two ends not to be served by a wanderer. What are these two? The pursuit of desires and of the pleasure which springs from desire, which is base, common, leading to rebirth, ignoble, and unprofitable; and the pursuit of pain and hardship, which is grievous, ignoble, and unprofitable.

- The Blessed One, Lord Buddha

 

3 Neither let the son of the stranger, that hath joined himself to the LORD, speak, saying, The LORD hath utterly separated me from his people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.

          - Isaiah 56:3 :: King James Version (KJV)

 

21 But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.

            - Matthew 17:21 :: Amplified Bible (AMP)

 

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I receive numerous letters of pathetic tales of dissipated, lost youth. The recent trend in the increase of vulgar, cheap and aphrodisiac literature and obscene films, both Indian and Western, had added to the miseries of misguided youth. Loss of the vital energy creates great fear in their mind. The body becomes weak, memory fails, the face becomes ugly and the young man is not able to remedy his pitiable condition due to shame. But there is no cause for despair. Even if a few of the hints in the following pages are observed, he will develop the correct attitude to life and will lead a disciplined spiritual life and ultimately attain supreme bliss.

 

Difference between physiological pollution and pathological pollution

Spermatorrhoea is involuntary seminal discharge. Nocturnal discharge, night pollution, Svapna-Dosha, wet dream are all synonymous terms. Ayurvedic doctors call this disease Sukra-Megha. This is due to the evil habits in youth. In severe cases, discharges occur in daytime also. The patient passes semen along with urine during micturition. If there is occasional discharge, you need not be alarmed a bit. This may be due to heat in the body, or the pressure of loaded bowels or bladder on the seminal bags. This is not a pathological condition.

 

Night pollution is of two kinds, namely, physiological pollution and pathological pollution. In physiological pollution, you will be refreshed. You should not be afraid of this act. You should not mind if the discharge of semen is very occasional. You need not worry about it. This is also a slight flushing of the apparatus or a periodical cleansing through a slight overflow from the reservoir in which the semen is stored up. This act may not be attended with evil thoughts. The person may not be aware of the act during the night. Whereas, in pathological pollution, the act is accompanied by sexual thoughts. Depression follows. There is irritability, languishment, laziness, inability to work and concentrate. Occasional discharges are of no consequence, but frequent nocturnal pollutions cause depression of spirits, debility, dyspepsia, low spirits, loss of memory, severe pain in the back, headache, burning of the eyes, drowsiness and burning sensation at urination or during the flow of semen. The semen becomes very thin.

 

Causes and consequences

Wet dreams and spermatorrhoea may be due to various causes like constipation, a loaded stomach, irritation-producing or wind-producing food, impure thoughts and long self-abuse done in ignorance.

 

Seminal weakness, nocturnal emissions, lascivious dreams and all other effects of an immoral life will surely lead one to a miserable state of living if not checked by proper medicines. But these medicines cannot produce a permanent cure. One can get temporary relief during the time one takes the medicine. Even doctors of the West admit that such medicines cannot effect a permanent cure. The moment the medicine is discontinued, the patient will find his disease all the worse. In some cases, the patient becomes impotent by the use of drugs. The only effective permanent cure can be had through the system of ancient Yoga. Nasti Yogat Param Balam. There is no strength higher than that of Yoga. The different methods given in this book will enable you to get success if practiced regularly.

(Reference: Swami Sivananda. (1997) Practice of Brahmacharya. (WWW Edition) Himalayas, India: The Divine Life Society. Chapter 19: Wet Dreams and Spermatorrhoea.)

 

Test Diary

 

September 2005

 

Enter all internet surfing details

Enter all emission details

Enter main events noted in the 2005 calendar

TO CONTINUE

Thursday, September 01, 2005

 

Friday, September 02, 2005

 

Saturday, September 03, 2005

 

Sunday, September 04, 2005

 

Monday, September 05, 2005

 

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

 

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

 

Thursday, September 08, 2005

 

Friday, September 09, 2005

 

Saturday, September 10, 2005

 

Sunday, September 11, 2005

 

Monday, September 12, 2005

 

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

 

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

 

Thursday, September 15, 2005

 

Friday, September 16, 2005

 

Saturday, September 17, 2005

 

Sunday, September 18, 2005

 

Monday, September 19, 2005

 

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

 

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

 

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Emission                  Low – a trace

How do you feel?          Not very tired

 

The Devil’s attack...

Around 0715 a.m. ...the man still in deep sleep...

An erotic dream appears...

A beautiful voluptuous white woman...talking to the man...the man raises her undergarments up...

She was naked underneath...

Why not take a souvenir?...

The man pulls out a couple of her pubic hair surrounding her hole...

Why not more?...

This time he tries to pull out a bunch of her pubic hairs out...but can’t...it slips...

Why not cut a bunch out, using scissors...

The little one is already flexed up ready to go...

The tears are about to flow out...

Suddenly the man regains his composure...comes back to his senses...holds his breath...to stop the leakage...he barely succeeds...

The man sits up...feels the little one...caresses him...looking for any tears...yes...a little...a slight trace of it...sticky...

Yes...a small emission occurred...

From where this strange dream came, I don’t know...nor was I in control of myself...

The moment the little one flexed its muscle...about to cry...voices from far away...noting the penis enlargement...from the Australian woman stalker,...the cabaret dancer,...three or four other new voices were also heard...of young local women monitoring separately...from far away distances...as if all of them are zooming onto the stalking victim’s penis¹...all night long...to see when the drooping...small piece of boneless meat...transform...into a full fledged banana...

The little one droops back to sleep...

After a few minutes, without any help...it again becomes stout...on its own...and then droops back to sleep again...

The second enlargement also gets noted by the stalking women...

It was an ejaculation...

-       A foreign white man...

A voice from far away...the mind notes down...

¹ It doesn’t matter even if you are fully clothed and covered with a thick blanket.  They can still zoom through...

Written around 0830 p.m. Thursday, September 22, 2005

Revised around 1209 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Kant had come at last to the end of his philosophical quest. He had sought for God and he had discovered Man.Man,” we are told in an Eastern legend, “lifted the veil from the goddess of Sais and beheldhimself.”

(Reference: Henry Thomas and Dana Lee Thomas.(1959) Living Biographies of Great Philosophers.  London, UK:  W H Allen. KANT. Page 202.)

 

It had been a long time now...the stalking continues as it was noted before...They zoom in and listen...watch...audio-visual surveillance...

Whenever I go to the bathroom, they also follow zooming in...watching...brushing teeth...urinating...defecating...taking shower...naked...

Whenever I write something...they zoom in...reading whatever I write...commenting on what I have written with pen and paper...

Whenever I read something...books, newspapers etc,...I have the habit of underlining important points which I feel interesting...the stalkers and their accomplices zoom in...reading those highlighted points...and then they discuss amongst them...looking for subtle meanings...

Whatever letter I receive...they zoom in looking for who and where the letter came from...

When the letter is opened to read...they also read along with...zooming onto the contents of the letter...commenting amongst themselves...

Whenever I use the computer from a nearby internet café...surfs the internet...reads my private emails...they also zooms in...reading my emails...cyberstalking...

(In mid January 2005, my brother took our home computer to Bangalore.  So I don’t have a computer with me now.  No website uploading.  I go to a nearby internet café once or twice a week to surf the internet and read emails.  I hope the home computer will be back sometime in December 2005 or early 2006.)

The voice of the Australian woman stalker is still there...frequently talking to the Trivandrum stalking group...so she is continuing her audio visual surveillance...as before...

Written around 0850 p.m. Thursday, September 22, 2005

Revised around 1215 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Friday, September 23, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

September 2005

The man in deep sleep...suddenly wakes up...sometime past midnight...hears a soft murmuring...voices from far away...

I love you...I want to love you...

The same phrase being repeated and repeated again and again...the voice of the cabaret dancer...with supporting voices from the old woman and the medical representative...

The process repeats night after night...

I have repeatedly mentioned in my writings that satellite based zooming spy devices can be used covertly for brain-washing...to access the victim’s sub-conscious mind...

Over a long duration of usage...subtle messages can be ‘injected’ into the victim’s brain...to create a slow mental transformation...with or without the knowledge of the victim...

In my case, I don’t have any power to stop this onslaught into my privacy...they are forcibly and covertly trying to change my way of life...to become a slave of their selfish interests...to become a toy of their carnal pleasures...

Written around 0840 p.m. Friday, September 23, 2005

Revised around 1216 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

September 2005

You are...tired...you ought to take some rest...

-         The Australian woman stalker advising the cabaret dancer...

That means, the cabaret dancer is monitoring the stalking victim day and night...with little physical rest to her body...

The above advice supports what the stalking victim dreadfully fears...the covert brain-washing going on when the stalking victim sleeps...the cabaret dancer and her accomplices stay back awake late into the night...feeding or murmuring subtle messages using the satellite based zooming spy devices...forcibly into the stalking victim’s sub-conscious mind...so that slowly he develop favorable thoughts...love...for the stalking woman...

Written around 0850 p.m. Friday, September 23, 2005

Revised around 1218 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

September 2005

Even if he goes to any country...we can still monitor him...using these spy devices...

-         The medical representative...

Written around 1250 p.m. Sunday, September 25, 2005

Revised around 1130 a.m. Monday, July 31, 2006

 

January 2005 – February 2005

On January 13, 2005, I left India at 1030 p.m. for Singapore.  From there to Jakartha, Indonesia.  I reached Jakartha at 0930 a.m. local time.

From January 17, 2005 to February 02, 2005, I worked with an Indonesian company as Business Development officer.

I found the job monotonous and boring.  So I resigned the job and left for India at 0530 p.m. February 02, 2005.  I reached Chennai, India at midnight and from there by train to home in Thiruvananthapuram on February 03, 2005.

Written around 0100 p.m. Sunday, September 25, 2005

Revised around 1219 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Monday, September 26, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

It is not coming out...however hard we try...talking and talking...

-         The cabaret dancer...

When the stalking victim sleeps, the cabaret dancer with her accomplices talk on various erotic subjects...based on the assumption that the zooming spy devices help to access the victim’s sub-conscious mind...to somehow cause an erection of the victim’s penis...and then emission...

Written around 1250 p.m. Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Revised around 1220 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

September 2005

If only he listen to what I say...

-         The cabaret dancer...

The woman refers to the daily nocturnal murmurings of “I want to love you...”, “I love you...” etc...slowly trying to impress the stalking victim of her obsession towards him...

Written around 0120 p.m. Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Revised around 1220 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

September 2005

It takes a long time...(to brainwash the stalking victim...)

-         The Australian woman stalker...

Using zooming spy devices...to access the victim’s subconscious mind...it is a slow and gradual process...to brainwash...

And the stalking women and their accomplices are willing to wait and wait...try repeatedly and repeatedly...day after day...night after night...to somehow make the stalking victim fall a victim to indirect seduction...

Written around 0125 p.m. Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Revised around 1134 a.m. Monday, July 31, 2006

 

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Emission                  Suspect

Amount leaked out         Nil, lots of bubbles in urine

How do you feel?          Tired

 

Tantric sex with the cabaret dancer...

About 1000 a.m. and the man still asleep...

A thought passes...the cabaret dancer in the nude...the man caresses her heavy...football-like...breasts...slowly...

Why not insert into her hole...her legs are bent...spread wide apart...and the man slowly inserts his rod into the inviting hole...guided in...by her deft fingers...

As the erotic thought passes through the man’s mind,...by thought echo...the cabaret dancer gets sexually aroused...far, far away...monitoring the sleeping man...through satellite based zooming spy devices...

The aroused woman speaks about her sexual feelings...her surging heat...to the old woman and the medical representative...

The little one is slowly aroused from sleep...his eternal slumber...he flexes his muscles...the stalking women and their accomplices note the stalking victim’s penis enlargement from a far away distance...zooming in through his undergarments and the covering blanket...

The flexed up little one slowly moves to and fro...like the dance of a snake...naga...as if it is emitting...as if shedding tears...

The sleeping man regains his senses and keeps tabs on the little one...controls his breath...counts the to and fro movement of the little one...four times...and the little one slowly falls back to sleep...

The man turns to his side and continues to sleep...

After half an hour, he wakes up...goes to the toilet...to urinate...feels his penis area...thighs...by caressing the skin...for any signs of emission...then passes urine...lots of bubbles in the urine...

No external emission...

The man washes his hands, feet, and face...brushes teeth...takes the daily morning Ayurvedic medicine for Schizophrenia...and then sits for breakfast...

It did not come out...

-         The old woman...

Voice from a far away distance...the mental noting...the old woman confirms the man’s self check for emission...for the old woman had zoomed in...checking for moisture...surrounding the man’s penis...when the little one was dancing to and fro...like a cabaret dancer...in the nude...

I had always thought that emission occurs when the penis moves to and fro in a pumping motion...but here from experience, I learn that emission need not occur externally...if adequate self-control is maintained, in the event of the Devil’s attack...

It is something like the sword and the scabbard which covers the sword...the penis having a protective covering...it doesn’t emit...even if induced to emit...and is already flexed up to emit...

Written around 0735 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 1228 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Though there wasn’t an external emission, following the tantric sex visualization, the man had a severe headache...pain in both his eyes...and an overall body tiredness was also noted until the evening of Wednesday, September 28, 2005...

Written around 0745 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 0122 a.m. Tuesday, August 01, 2006

 

    Christ is seen as a corn god, a fertility deity who must be sacrificed at Midsummer. Robert Briffault, Robert Graves and J.G. Frazer have written in detail of this myth. In Lawrence's hands, mythology becomes sexualized. The awakening in The Escaped Cock is sexualized. The crowning point of the story, just as the phallus is the crowning point in Lawrence's sexual mythopúia, is the moment when Christ/ Osiris makes love with the priestess/ Isis:
 

Himself bending over powerful and new like dawn.
He crouched to her, and he felt the blaze of his manhood, his power rise up in his loins, magnificent.
'I am risen!'
Magnificent, blazing indomitable in the depths of his loins, his own sun dawned and sent its fire running along his limbs, so that his face shone unconsciously.
He untied the string on the linen tunic, and slipped the garment down, till he saw the white glow of her white-gold breasts. And he touched them, and he felt his life go molten. - Father! he said, - why did you hide this from me? - And he touched her with the poignancy of wonder, he said. -This is beyond prayer. - It was deep, interfold warmth, warmth living and penetrable, the woman, the heart of the rose![6]
 

Reference:  Cresmolawrescape

http://www.crescentmoon.org.uk/cresmolawrescape

M.K. Pace on D.H. Lawrence's The Escaped Cock [Extract from D.H. Lawrence: Infinite Sensual Violence, Crescent Moon, 1994]

 

Around 0130 p.m. ...the man sitting cross-legged...meditating...tantric sex visualizations...the little one flexes its muscles...slowly moves side to side...the dance of the naked cabaret dancer...as the flexing continues...

The man is fully clothed...a blanket also covers the cross-legged legs and the hips...

See...the penis enlarging...moving...

-         The cabaret dancer points out to an accomplice...from a far away distance...zooming through the undergarments...the thick covering blanket...noting the penis of the stalking victim...

Written around 0740 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 1229 p.m. Tuesday, August 15, 2006

 

Thursday, September 29, 2006

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

If he doesn’t marry...it is all right...but this type of writing...of sex visualizations...it tarnishes the self-image of the girl...who will marry her?...

    - The old woman in anger and disgust...

Did I invite the cabaret dancer to be my penis monitor?  Did I??...

I am a stranger.  Why should a woman monitor my penis day and night stealthily...’secretly’...from a far away distance...using satellite based zooming spy devices...

In the first place, who bought her these advanced spying devices...moreover, the old woman and the medical representative encourages the cabaret dancer to monitor day and night...

It is their mistake...to intrude...interfere into the private matters of others...

I write what I feel as writing...

Written around 0750 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 1010 p.m. Saturday, July 19, 2008

 

Did you see...properly...

    - The cabaret dancer to the old woman and the medical representative and some other accomplices...showing the old mother of the stalking victim...taking shower in the nude...

What sort of son am I??  The privacy of my old mother...well over fifty years old...is being violated day after day...night after night...Knowing this ongoing violation, I am helpless to do anything to stop this voyeurism...

If they wanted to sexually harass me, I can suffer...but why should my old mother face the voyeurism?...She doesn’t know what is going on...she doesn’t know that these peeping toms are violating her daily...not only her, my old father is also not spared...

Is this a sort of settling scores with me?...for not succumbing to their sexual harassment...forcibly monitoring whoever loves me...even my old parents...

Written around 0800 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 1156 p.m. Friday, August 18, 2006

 

I thought...he will love...start to love me...by monitoring him...day and night...

    - The cabaret dancer to a query from a young woman on why she commenced this strange form of surveillance...

I only know, from the past six years of surveillance of this woman...violating the privacy of my family...that I should never deal with this woman physically under any circumstances...

My family and I suffered a lot due to this ongoing surveillance...

Whatever this woman...as well as the Australian woman stalker...does, a gentleman should never deal physically with them...

Both women...with questionable sexual history...preach a strange sort of love...of lust...a temporary obsession...of use and throw away...That is it...Only men with like-minded promiscuous sexual nature will deal with these type of female sex predators...period...

Written around 0805 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

 

He doesn’t want it to be sucked...

    - The old woman...

Yes, I don’t want my penis to be sucked by her daughter, an expert in the art of sucking...

Thank you...

Written around 0810 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 1017 a.m. Wednesday, August 23, 2006

 

Ha...ha...ha...he made it so small...(doesn’t raise it up...)

    - The old woman...zooming into the bathroom...noting the nude stalking victim about to take shower...commenting on the smallness of his little one...

Written around 0810 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

 

September 2005

Early morning around 0430 a.m....

The man wakes up from deep sleep...he gets up and goes to the toilet to urinate...

Raises up the dhoti...the undergarment...and starts urinating...

See...how large it is...

    - The cabaret dancer comments to her accomplices...

A urine filled penis...how will it look??...

Any man knows...it will be thick and stout...about to burst into tears of urine...and cry...

So what is wrong there?...

And this woman voyeur spends sleepless nights as my penis monitor!...

Written around 0815 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 0011 a.m. Saturday, August 19, 2006

 

He is dreaming...of little children...

    - The cabaret dancer to her accomplices...

Early morning around 0600 a.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005...a dream passes through the sleeping stalking victim’s mind...

Through thought echo...the same dream also imposes upon the mind of the cabaret dancer...the old woman and the medical representative cross checks the thought echo...

Written around 0820 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

 

You have to be careful...he might beat you...

    - The Australian woman stalker advising the cabaret dancer...on the level of ongoing 24x7 audio visual surveillance...being carried on ‘secretly’ for nearly six years now...from a far away safe distance...

Written around 0825 p.m. Thursday, September 29, 2005

Revised around 0015 a.m. Saturday, August 19, 2006

 

Friday, September 30, 2005

Emission                  Nil

How do you feel?          Normal

 

Around 0130 p.m.

The man walks to the front gate...opens the letter box to check for any surface mails...two letters there...he takes them...glances over from where the letters came from...

Voices from a far away distance...the mental noting...

Look...look...

-         The nosy old woman to the cabaret dancer...to zoom onto the letters...to read from where the letters are addressed...

There is no point in screaming...uttering loud abuses...writing abuses...about these stalkers and their accomplices...for I have already done all that...

They just ignore the abuses...and continue violating my privacy day in and day out...leaving me to wonder what sort of creatures are these sexual predators...who just don’t stop their interference into other’s personal matters...

Written around 0230 p.m. Friday, September 30, 2005

Revised around 1023 a.m. Wednesday, August 23, 2006

 

TO CONTINUE

 

October 2005

 

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Emission              Nil

How do you feel?      Normal

 

September 2005

All we have to do is...close all doors...stay inside our room...in our own house...turn on these devices...and watch...

    - The cabaret dancer...

Written around 0930 a.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

 

September 2005

The man in deep sleep...suddenly wakes up...around 0700 a.m....

Voices from a far away distance...the mental noting...

He found out...that we were not there...(at Repromen Computer Centre...)

    - The medical representative...

Come on...let’s tango...

    - The Australian woman stalker...

Couple of years back, my father once mentioned that the proprietor of the neighboring institution, Repromen Computer Centre is staying somewhere at Palkulagara, around 2-3 kms away from my house.  Based on the above voices noted mentally, I believe the cabaret dancer, the old woman, and the medical representative are zooming in from the safe privacy of their home at Palkulagara.

The Repromen Computer Centre is next door, in the North side of my house.

Palkulagara is on the southern direction, 2-3 kms away southward.

What baffles me is 95% of the time, the voices come from the North side of my house.  Only in few instances do the voices come from the South side.

Also to stage coincidences, the cabaret dancer has to be close by somewhere NOT 2-3 kms away.  Say, I go to a milk parlor nearby.  To stage a coincidence, the cabaret dancer has to walk along with or come from the opposite direction of the road.

For staging such coincidences, I believe, the trio use the Repromen Computer Centre as a base-camp during working hours of the institution, Monday to Saturday.

Written around 0945 a.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

Revised around 0917 a.m. Saturday, June 24, 2006

 

Whether the trio is at the computer centre or at their home, the audio visual surveillance continues round the clock 24x7 days...all week...all month...all year...

Round the clock surveillance day and night opens up some questions, to which I don’t have an answer right now:

·        Do they have separate spying equipment installed at their house and at the computer centre?

·        Is some of the spying equipment portable; so that they can carry it along with, wherever the trio go in their car – at home, on the way to computer centre, at computer centre, elsewhere following the stalking victim, back to home etc.

·        Isn’t it physically tiring to keep on watching through the spy devices day and night?  Don’t they take rest?  Do they take turns in watching?  When one or two watch, the other takes rest, for example.  Sometimes some other accomplices also keep watch.

·        Don’t they have anything else to do other than spying the stalking victim?  Work, study, reading, taking bath/shower, urinating, defecating, dressing etc. – for all these activities constitute normal activities of a person in society – don’t they spent any time for such personal things?

·        With all these elaborate spying setup, audio visual surveillance round the clock and the spying now in the sixth year in the city of Thiruvananthapuram, it leaves me to wonder at the importance they have given to sexually subdue or abuse the stalking victim.

·            To somehow coerce or force the stalking victim to have a sexual relationship or affair with the cabaret dancer – a woman with questionable sexual history, a divorcee and a habitual sucker, one who indulges in oral sex without any remorse with any willing man...for extra money...

Strange indeed are human beings...for such characterless men and women are amongst us in society...men and women who do just anything to achieve any selfish or carnal desire...even if it requires one to monitor a stranger’s penis...monitor day and night...with no shame at all for the concerned women...(here in my case, a mother and her daughter are my penis monitors...)

Written around 1115 a.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

Revised around 0921 a.m. Saturday, June 24, 2006

 

He is out to destroy us...he is determined to see our demise...

    - The medical representative to the cabaret dancer and the old woman...

I wonder, if it is the other way around...

I have only documented my feelings...my mental noting...

What about the trio?

They are the nosy ones...using high tech devices day in and day out to poke into my private matters...

Why continue this 24 hour audio-visual surveillance? Did I ask them to monitor me?

They should have stopped this surveillance long ago and find something else to do...

I don’t want that sucker...I have nothing to do with that sucker...

Why are they trying to push that sucker into my personal life?

And after all these years of surveillance, they are blaming me for trying to destroy them!!

Written around 1245 p.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

Revised around 0943 p.m. Wednesday, July 19, 2006

 

1. Is he looking at those girls...

2. Is he getting sexually aroused...

3. Is his penis moving...getting taut...energized...

The theme of voyeurism starts in this manner...wherever I go...the women stalkers are keen to know answers to the three main questions...in effect they are checking on the stalking victim’s mental maturity...

If the answer to 2 and 3 is yes, which they verify from a far away distance...zooming in...checking breath...checking the penis...by zooming through pants or undergarments...they infer whether the man is sexually weak...whether he is easily susceptible to sexual baiting...

If the answer to 2 and 3 is no, then they infer that the man is sexually strong at that moment of time.  They have to wait longer...for some other time...to check if he is weakened or still strong...

In modern society, there are lots of things which can weaken or sexually poison or dirty a man’s mind...for example, watching intimate scenes in a movie, watching pornography, listening to sexually oriented conversation etc....

So when a man lives in the midst of modern society...and if he is a celibate...the big question is, can he retain his celibacy...until tomorrow...until the next day...until the next week...until the next month...until the next year and so on...the celibate man is something like a levee which faces day in and day out powerful waves from the sea...

Emission becomes a vital test for maintaining mental celibacy...for there is no point in being a celibate physically, but NOT mentally...there is no point in keeping on leaking energy while saying one is a celibate...

Thus we have a day to day life...we live day by day...carefully...keeping tabs on those social influences which can be harmful to us...physically and mentally...

Written around 0825 p.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

Revised around 0946 p.m. Wednesday, July 19, 2006

 

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Emission              Nil

How do you feel?      Normal

 

Around 0700 p.m. Saturday, October 01, 2005

It will be hard to catch him...with all that he has written in his diary...

    - The medical representative...to the cabaret dancer, and the old woman...zooming in from a far away distance...

The place:  The open fish and vegetable market at Cotton Hill, around 3-5 kms away from my house...the man, and his old father are at the market shopping...the trio zoom in watching...keeping tabs on the stalking victim...

Can’t these nosy people leave me alone?  How many times I wrote in my writings to be left alone.  These people just don’t care what I say...they want to catch me...as if you are catching fish with bait...

Written around 1205 p.m. Sunday, October 02, 2005

Revised around 0948 p.m. Wednesday, July 19, 2006

 

To Continue

 

Monday, October 03, 2005

Emission              Nil

How do you feel?      Normal

 

September 2005

He is a homosexual...

-         The Australian woman stalker needling the stalking victim...

Since 1995 until now, have you observed using those high tech spy devices...any act of homosexuality...from the part of the stalking victim...

Just because the woman was not able to sexually abuse the stalking victim, it is not proper to label an innocent man as homosexual or gay or whatever...

If one doesn’t deal much with women, it doesn’t mean he is a homosexual or gay...You don’t call a celibate priest homosexual or gay, won’t you?...So too for those who live in the midst of society advocating values like no sex...and celibacy...

Written around 1245 p.m. Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Revised around 0851 p.m. Wednesday, November 01, 2006

 

14:51 And there followed him a certain young man, having a linen cloth

cast about his naked body; and the young men laid hold on him:

14:52 And he left the linen cloth, and fled from them naked.

    - Mark 14:51-52

 

September 2005

It will be very interesting...to watch him...do it...

-         The Australian woman stalker...

It will be very, very interesting...isn’t...to watch the stalking victim...indulging in sex acts...after years of celibacy...

 

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“Thou belongest to That Which Is Undying, and not merely to time alone,” murmured the Sphinx, breaking its muteness at last. “Thou art eternal, and not merely of the vanishing flesh. The soul in man cannot be killed, cannot die. It waits, shroud-wrapped, in thy heart, as I waited, sand-wrapped, in thy world. Know thyself, O mortal! For there is One within thee, as in all men, that comes and stands at the bar and bears witness that there IS a God!

(Reference: Brunton, Paul. (1962) A Search in Secret Egypt. (17th Impression) London, UK: Rider & Company. Page: 35.)

Amen