Saturday, June 22, 2002
	so much drama for me these past couple of days.  as you might know, i work for a small company that is just starting out, and not doing as well as we'd like.  basically my boss felt that we just werent' making enough moeny and that i was expendable.  yeah, how he thought that the account mangager is expendable is beyond me.  granted, i am very new at this postion, but i do handle almost all of the money issues, invoices, have more knowledge than anyone else here in the office of the quickbooks program...  so i was laid off on wednesday afternoon, but he acted very quicky without thalking to anyone about it and on thursday afternoon, after talking to the rest of the staff about it, he realized that he made a huge mistake, called me and apologized then asked me to come back to work.  i was very apprehensive and it took me about 4-5 hours before i could call him back and accept the job back, but it's been stressing me out a lot, and i'm not positive i want to stay here.  if it weren't for the wedding next year and all of the expenses i have in the next several months, i would have left for good.  i just really need a job right now and i guess in a way, i took the easy way out by coming back.  i didnt' want to have to go through applications and interview and worry about that all over again, and to step back into this role was just easier.  my cousin suggested that i look for other jobs, and i'm thinkin about it.  last night, i was regretting my college decision of not becoming a teacher.  i really dont' know what happened back then that made me believe that i didn't want to teach anymore.  i look at my friend tabitha who is starting her first year teaching the 4th grade in the fall and think to myself, that could be me.  i could be starting to teach in the fall if i had stuck with my original plan of becoming a teacher.  where am i now?  an accountant, training myself to be a chief finanacial officer.  how did this happen?  very very odd
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