Heya peeps
Easter break is over! Doubled my dose a couple of days ago. Feeling much better. Not so depressed anymore though my face looks horrible. I can actually eat again!!! But not a lot :( But hey I'm happy.
Went back to school today. Have some scars on my face, tried to cover them with make up, but I suck at that. It looked even worse so I took it all off again. I'd rather look scarred than fake and covered in powder and sticky shit. When I started to blush (I do that a lot :((( ) it hurt like hell!!! And everybody was like: "Oh my god, what happened to your face? You look totally burnt!". Everybody staring at me. Yeah it sucked. So I told them I was on a special treatment for seven months. Of course they wanted to know what kinda. Told them that I have these scars on my back (I never talk about my chest). And then of course they wanted to know where the scars are coming from... I hate that question. So I tell them that I have had this skin disease thing that caused these brown marks on my back. And then... I feel disgusting.
So basically: what are the effects of RoA? Well, my face is peeling off :) Hurts like hell, even though I stopped washing it with water and I use this special lotion the doctor prescribed me (I apply it about every 90 minutes). I also use natural tears drops for my eyes 'cause they get irritated. And I put some lotion on the rest of my body, except for my back and chest, I don't mind if they're dry. I hate these places 'cause they're covered in scars... so I don't even want to look at them more than once a day. So if the face wasn't so bad, I'd say everything is fine. Oh yeah... I almost forgot, my lips are chapped, but that's okay. Got my lip balm and everything, put some of it on my lips every half
an hour. It's not that bad.
Anyway, I just pray that my face will heal 'cause right now I look terrible. Saw my guy again today. And yeah of course he was looking perfect again. As always. And I felt like such an idiot. Couldn't even look at him, I was so ashamed. I just sat in the back and watched him, like I always do. Tried to hide my face but I think he noticed the redness and stuff. God this guy must really think I'm an idiot. Stupid cupid! I accidentally fell in love with a gorgeous looking guy. I really didn't fall for his looks, it's his... hell, I don't know what it is. He just seems like a great person. It's so unfair, why did I get this body? Damn! You just wait, in 7 months I'll look great (yeah right).!!!
:)
Good luck!
