Week 5-6
Heya!
Thanks guys for telling me about your experiences. It's just so good to know I'm not alone.
So how am I doing?
Well... the acne on my back and chest is so much better now! Really, I've got like 3 or 4 cysts on my back, but they're not very painful, and I've got a few small wounds on my chest (my fault... I scratched... and the skin just comes off so easily). Same goes for my face: I just can't help scratching it (especially during the exam period) and it leaves some horrible red marks that heal very slowly. My chin is covered with itchy scars, I put some moisturizer on them at night but I really don't know whether that is a good idea. It doesn't seem to help.
The side-effects are pretty okay. My lips are totally chapped but I can live with that. I apply lip balm every 15 minutes. The side-effect that does worry me is the pain in my knee (don't know for sure whether this has got something to do with the accutane though). I'm also suffering from lower back pains, and apparently lots of people on accutane do.
I'm pretty happy with the results after 1 1/2 month I guess... But I just found out that my scars won't ever heal. I've got pigmentation in my scars, and apparently they can't do anything about that. So for the rest of my entire life, I'll be having these brown marks on my back, my chest and my shoulders... I just try to keep in mind that it could have been worse. I could have had serious scars on my face for example (I do have scars in my face, but they are red-pinkish so they'll probably fade in a few
months). But summer time is coming up, so all the girls will be wearing bathing suits and stuff... that's gonna hurt, 'cause I won't ever be able to wear that kind of things. People tell me not worry about it, that I look fine, and that they accept me the way I am, that it's no big deal. But to me it is. I'm embarrassed to wear a t-shirt 'cause you can see the scars on my neck and my arms. It sucks, it really does.
To anyone who is considering this treatment: I'd say go for it. If I wouldn't have started taking (ro)accutane, I would have made it even worse. I would have had even more scars and I would have felt even worse about myself. I'm glad I did it and I think/hope things'll get better in a few months/years...
So take care peeps (and keep on writing me!!!)
Luv
