| Suicide |
| This is a page for all of you who are feeling suicidal. I know some of this might not help, but if anything you can know that I am in the same boat that you are. I have been and am very suicidal, but I am still here to write this to you and you are still here if you are reading this. It is hard to think positive when you are so depressed that you want to die. I know, I have been there. Everyone says that suicide is not the answer, that it is "a permeant solution to a temporary problem" as the old cliché goes. I am not here to judge who or what you feel. I know that your feelings are every bit as important as mine. I am just trying to help myself as well as others. Many people who want to die are VERY depressed. You need to try and get some help. Call a priest, Rabbi, or whatever. Call a friend who will understand. There are hotlines that you can call and I will post those at the bottom. You need to really think about the consequences to death. So do I. I hope some of this helps if you need to talk e-mail me at catrina48458@yahoo.com. I check my e-mail everyday unless something happens. I am also trying to chase the dark demons that follow. I want you to know that you are not alone. BEFORE YOU KILL YOURSELF ~Renee T. Lucero (as reprinted in "Dear Anne Landers", Dec. 12, 1995) You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out. Fine--but before you kill yourself, here are some things you should know. I am a psychiatric nurse, and i see the results of suicide--when it works and more often, when it doesn't. Consider, before you act, these facts: Suicide is not usually successful. You think you know a way to guarantee it? Ask the 25 year old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone. What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leaped from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. he lives in a fog. but, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal. What about pills? Ask the 12 year old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go. What about a gun? ask the 24 year old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too. But... Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hanged yourself or identify your boated body after you've drowned? Your mother? Your wife? Your son? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain. Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, ad he may do it ten years from now. You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away. You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left. Please Contact S.A.F.E (Self Injury Finally Ends) at 1-800-DONT-CUT or Your local suicide prevention number in the front of the phonebook (you do not have to be suicidal to call) Below are some numbers of distress centers' around north America that also deal with difficult situations. They are usually anonymous phone calls, and can really help when you need someone to talk to. Please don't be afraid to call and ask for help. IN THE USA: RAINN (Rape Abuse and Incest National Network 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) American Suicide Foundation 1-800-531-4477 National Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-4-A-CHILD National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-779-7233 Alcohol and Drug Abuse Hotline 1-800-237-6237 National Institute of Mental Health and Panic Campaign 1-800-64-PANIC Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-792-5200 VOICES (Victims Of Incest Can Emerge Survivors) 1-800-7-VOICE-8 National Youth Crisis Hotline 1-800-442-HOPE National Adolescent Suicide Hotline 1-800-621-4000 Crisis Intervention Center 1-800-333-4444 Help Now Hotline 1-800-435-7609 Covenant House Nineline 1-800-999-9999 National Center For Missing and Exploited Children 1-800-826-7653 National Runaway Hotline 1-800-231-6946 Depression Awareness Hotline 1-800-421-4211 IN CANADA: Kid's Help Phone: 1-800-668-6868 (this is a free call from any pay phone) Toronto: (416)537-7373 (416)486-1456 Montreal: (514)723-4000 (514)935-1101 Vancouver: (604)872-3311 Victoria: (250)386-6323 Calgary: (403)266-1605 Edmonton: (780)482-4357 Winnipeg: (204)786-8686 Regina: (306)525-5333 Saskatoon: (306)933-6200 If you are seeking emergency help, please dial 911 immediately. Please reach out. It can make all the difference in the world. |
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