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Dear Mr. Gates:
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Date: Sun, 6 April 2008 10:52 WesternIndonesiaTime Subject: Rahma's Signs of Interest for the Land Journey
After I wrote the idea of land journey through out Indonesia, Rahma Sarita seems to reveal her interest to realize the idea. On 13 March 2008 in the morning I posted two letters of my idea of land journey through out Indonesia, one of them to Toyota, and the other to TV-One where Rahma Sarita works. The next day Rahma Sarita appeared wearing pink blazer in an evening news at TV-One, like reflecting her interest in my idea, to have a land journey like what had been done by Paris Hilton on her pink truck in the TV series "Simple Life" season 2. In the evening of 19 March 2008, Rahma appeared wearing an army green blouse. "Army" in Indonesian word is "Angkatan Darat" which contains the word "darat", like related with my idea of "land journey", whereas the word for "land" is also "darat". 2 April 2008, on my way to Mangga Dua to repair the remote control of my brother-in-law's TV, I stopped by at Pasaraya Blok M, which is owned by Mr. Abdul Latief who also owns TV-One where Rahma Sarita works. In the evening she appeared wearing pink blazer again. 3 April 2008, now this time she was wearing rather dangerous colors, black outside and yellow inside. Both colors could be related with death. Black is the color used by mourners. And in Jakarta, yellow is the color of rectangle greased-paper-flag attached in a bamboo stick and placed along the way to the house of a death person to ease the mourners who would pay their last visit. I certainly hope it did not mean that she would like to die along with me like what happened to Lady Diana and Doddy Al Fayed, because my consent to move to the eternity is only for my own death destiny.
Date: Sun, 6 April 2008 11:28 WesternIndonesiaTime Subject: Absorbing the Worry of Rahma Sarita's Family
On 1 April 2008 an idea came to my mind to write a letter about Rahma Sarita to Mr. Wardy, my former supervisor at American Express. It was related with her birthday on 7 April 2008, and my birthday present is in a form of a pray like follows: "My God Allah, please forgive me for I have let myself falling in love with Rahma Sarita, a beautiful creation of Yours, a TV presenter, an Arab descendant, with prophet Mohammad SAW as her ancestor, while I am just like this, no good looking, still depend on my family for food and shelter, with no income. If You think my mistake had been fatal enough that I deserved no longer time to live in this world, please encounter my self with my death destiny as soon as possible. Of course with a pray that You would forgive my sins, and that I would not cause any problems to the angel of death who would pick my soul, and in the eternity I would be free from the hell. Even if after the judgment day, after You clear my sins and free me from hell, then You considered my self as not an appropriate creature to enter Your heaven, I would be willing to be vanished...............Amen...." I also mentioned in that letter that I wish the result of this pray would appear on the day of her birthday. Later on in the evening Rahma Sarita appeared wearing green blouse. Green is usually known as the color of heaven. The pray may sounds rather strange, but I have no other choice than to reveal it after Mr. Wardy mentioned the words "Ex-Husband of Rahma Sarita" in his letter of 5 March 2008, like I wrote in my previous letter of "Avoiding Myself from Becoming the Cause of Divorce or Break Up". Those words of "Ex-Husband of Rahma Sarita" caused me to sense some kind of worry on Rahma's family. What if the divorce was because they worried that the marriage had triggered some disasters. Therefore, I think I need to absorb such worry, to let myself become the guilty side for all those worries related with Rahma Sarita's case in her relationship with me. Besides, since the beginning I was the one who has the consent to move to the eternity, it would be unfair if she should suffer from all these problems. Now I have no idea what would really become the result of this pray. Today, one day before her birthday tomorrow, I wrote another pray for her, sent by fax, a birthday greeting along with the wish that she would soon find the right man that she likes to become her husband, with the bless of God.
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Thank's, A.M. Firmansyah Tel. +62812 183 1538
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