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Dieing
with Christ to be Born Again
A
Testimony of Research Scientist Awakening to Truth
1]
Before Dieing
·
2] My
Death in Christ
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3]
Awakening to Christ’s Spirit
4] Concluding remark
Before
Dieing
Though a Christian, I was not
a believer. I don’t remember going to church on my own. I went to church and had
occasions to listen to words of Bible because I Loved my mother and could not
deny her when she called me to Church. I did not find joy in going to church and
the words never entered my mind. As a youngster I loved to play my Sunday with
friends. I hated religion. Certain childhood experience influenced it. One
Sunday I was playing with my friends. All of them were Hindus. An elderly person
appeared and began organizing some games for us. We all loved it. The next
Sunday he appeared in a uniform. We were asked to sit in a circle and then began
self introduction. I was asked to leave the group when I said my name. My sin
was I am a Christian. Later I came to know that the elder organizing the game
was a Hindu [RSS worker]. When I asked the church priest about it, I saw two
starring eyes and an order not to go near them. What was denied in the process
was my joy of the Sunday. The first seed of my hatred towards division in the
name of religion probably exist here.
As I grew up I tended to
believe that religion is the invention of the intelligent to rule the ignorant.
My attempt to question the priests for sensible explanation to what they preach
was always put down by authority. My education in science was giving a mind set,
which was failing to digest what these priest were preaching about creation,
birth of Christ, His death, Resurrection, Second coming and so on. They seem to
emphasize Judgment and hell and infuse fear in to mass and control them such
that they can feed themselves and have a good life.
I could understand the wisdom
behind what they preach. I found them essential for the order and peace in
various hierarchies of the society. However, I always found the priests wanting
in practicing what they preach, which further caused the aversion to religion. I
could find many among ordinary people who preach nothing but practice at least
some good things. I rarely found priests who preach and practice at least some
thing they preach in their daily life. I found them as a people trained for a
job in a most deplorable industry which I called white and black. They speak one
and practice the opposite. I must admit there are some exceptions. During my
graduation there was a priest teaching me chemistry, I remember him touching me
by one simple act to cause a transformative change in my behavior. But such
priests are rare and many whom I adorned chose to leave the priesthood.
As I finished my Masters
Degree in biology, the question of choosing a path to lead life emerged. Little
introspection revealed that I hate 9 to 5 job. I needed some challenging life
where growth is possible. I felt I should contribute something to humanity in
the process of leading my life. Money I felt is a necessity but not the first
priority. Thus I decided to take research. Cancer research was my first
priority, but I ended in biotechnology, working to clone life. This brought me
closer to life and its intricacies. The work I was handling was difficult but
highly commercial one
By destiny I began my
research carrier from the lab that belonged to a Catholic Christian Priest. The
lab was ill equipped and not recognized for PhD work. A small project was
granted to Him, by virtue of his foreign doctorate degree and his contacts.
With much of his time being spent as the principle of the college, he was not
making any justice to the project. No body was willing to join this project and
risk his career because of the status of the lab. The Priest gave me a sermon
about Mendel, Mayer, Einstein and such greats who by virtue of their research
work became world famous. The way he spoke was pleasing and I was influenced by
his sermon. He said he has applied for the recognition of the lab for doctoral
work and it is a matter of months before recognition is given. I believed him
as a son believes his Father as I put my heart and soul into the work. It
was not long, before I realized that the problem at hand is not only tough, but
the priest was new to the subject and lacks dynamism to tackle such tough
projects.
After a years struggle with
no success, I was contemplating to leave the lab. I took a week’s break and
spent it with my friends in a reputed institute. Being there, I quickly learnt
some tricks of the trade. During this time I also happened to read a book
written by the great philosopher Jiddu Krishnamoorthy. I was personally
attracted to his addressing of the subject “problem solving”. He stated that in
order to solve the problem one must stand aside from the problem and observe the
problem from a point of non attachment. I applied it to my research. Thus began
a new chapter in my life. I realized that the elaborate research I lay out to
search an appropriate media for successful growth, induction of
dedifferentiation and differentiation of information of a selected species, is
nothing but a process that species does routinely against time cycle. I began to
observe the species concerned in nature and began to communicate with nature and
life for clues for successful experimentations. The methodology adopted worked,
and I began to make progress in everything I touched with considerable ease. I
was floating in joy, dreaming of joining big institutes and temples of science
abroad. In a short time I had results enough to write couple of Doctoral Thesis.
This joy and success was also
accompanied by disturbance in my consciousness on which I laid my research work.
Deeper observation and communication with living system in test tubes and in
nature began to show cracks in the foundation on which I am working.
Biotechnology, specially the cloning work was built on the foundation that genes
are stable units of biological information. But my observation of life in test
tubes and in nature was speaking to me the opposite. A short stint with
multinational company and some personal exchange, only strengthened this
reality. I realized that I am standing on a broken foundation. I felt most
scientist are aware of it, yet hide it for the sake of self-survival. No company
will invest on cloning if it is told that the genetic units are unstable and
unpredictable. I could have survived my life time moving with the wave and
speaking of great potentials of cloning and luring money into it. Companies were
standing on their toe to support the applied biotechnological work.
Knowing the Truth that genes
are not stable units, my consciousness was not permitting to focus my mind to
move ahead with my work. I became increasingly inclined to take academic
research so that I can investigate into the fundamental flaws in the foundation
of biological thinking.
I was too involved with my
research to observe the external world. As I started contemplating on academic
research, it became mandatory that I quickly submit my thesis and get my
doctorate degree. My enquiry showed that the priest hid facts about the
recognition of the lab for the doctoral degree. In fact, it was out right
rejected for doctoral work by the inspecting team of the university. He hid this
truth form me because of the fear that I might leave the lab. It hurt me but I
over looked to concentrate on the work.
I was totally shattered, when
the priest made a public report on the success in the lab. It hit the head lines
of news papers. In the report I was reduced to the level of a lab assistant.
In reality his intellectual and physical contribution to the work was zero.
I had worked 18 hours a day including the Sundays to achieve this goal. I had
put my heart into my work and the news for many reasons totally broke my heart
and I wept silently. The priest whom I believed as a son believes his father had
betrayed. I was sensing the dark side of the white cloth. Further shock
came when I realized that much of my communication with institutes abroad was
being scrutinized and I missed many vital communications that would have
fulfilled my dream of going abroad.
By this time more than four
and half years had gone and the lab got one year recognition such that I could
register for my PhD. I had already registered and was working on my Thesis. I
was told I must wait two years to submit my thesis according to university
regulation. Every time I felt injustice and hurt, I protested violently only to
be pacified by sermons. Human nature is to seek peace, a disturbed mind cannot
focus on any work and I chose to believe than letting my mind waver in doubt. It
was not long before I realized these Priests are trained in human psychology and
inculcated with ability to speak others mind into submission for their
advancement. I was consciously dead, intellectually disturbed and yet continued
working hoping to submit my thesis and then make a new beginning. On the eve of
submission of my doctoral thesis, I was asked to say sorry for the protest,
submit all the work I did out side my thesis and give in writing that these
works were his intellectual property. He was virtually asking me to fall at his
feet and sacrifice my consciousness and the principles on which I stood and
worked. Suddenly all the suppressed Life force erupted, the dead life in me
came alive. I walked out to stay with my consciousness that sacrificing it in
order to find a position in academic world. I was throwing nearly 8 years of
my day and nights research work that carried my dream and hopes of my parents,
than compromising with untruth.
I returned to my village
hoping to relax for some time before I could think of a future direction. Hardly
few weeks after I left, I found another part of my original work being
exaggerated, virtually misleading the public and scientific community. The
report showed the picture of Cabinet Minister Planting a Cashew Tissue Cultured
[Test Tube] Plant to soil in national dailies. It was being claimed as
international event, a first in the history of the world. Cashew is an
important commercial plant and Cashew Tissue Culture was given second national
high priority, the first being Coconut, which I was already handling with
considerable success and formed the basis of the first paper report. The cashew
work was initiated by me and even the funds to the lab came from some important
progress I made. It hurt me not only for the fact that it was my original
intellectual work, but also for the fact the media report was far form Truth. It
was virtually aimed to lure more funds. I felt salt being rubbed into my wounds.
I protested writing to the ministry and the concerned departments. Nothing
happened for community was stronger than Truth. The wound and the pains
inflicted only made my resolve stronger. I decided to focus my mind on the
fundamentals, hoping to come out with some work in the foot steps of Einstein
who produced great works sitting in the chair of a patent office clerk and
Mendel who became the Father of genetics from his kitchen garden.
My village is situated amidst
thick forest. Here my communication with nature became more intense. The harsh
experience the priest provided, gave a new dimension to my communication with
nature. Earlier I used to observe plants and animals and the changing
environments. The behavior of the priest gave me reason to observe humankind
too. This eventually brought me into self observation and growth of my
personality. Mother Nature was revealing the pages of her book. I could perceive
new dimensions of nature. It is beyond this article to recollect and write those
wonderful streams of thoughts and communication that enfolded with nature. At
the center of everything I found human being and his “self”, as the culprit
causing disorder and destruction.
My father was retired Air
force personal, mother was a retired nurse. At the time I returned to my village
our financial situation was poor. The agricultural operation was not productive
and was eating on the resources, virtually making us live by the pensions of my
father and mother. I decided to take the responsibility of revitalizing the
agricultural operation and bringing stability. It was a tough task yet I managed
get out of the red and growing. Being in the combined family, I kept others
interest ahead of mine. To me peace was the most vital thing so that I can
continue to focus my mind on to the fundamental questions.
The stressing circumstances
of my house helped me grow in different dimensions. Very often I had to give
out more than half of the incomes to maintain the peace at home. This made me
good financial manger, good planner, an economist, a creative adapter to
changing situations. It helped inculcate the habit of sacrificing in order to
sustain. It helped me live with pain and get over it. I lived by a small purse,
most of which was spent on books and my journey once a month to the nearest
university library to browse through advances in science and water the thoughts
developing in me.
My study revealed that not
only the foundation of biological science but also the foundation of physical
science on which all other science rest exist broken. Human mind was working
without a basal reality and therefore with out any direction. Very clearly the
future appeared bleak for humanity. The fundamental cause I found was lack of
knowledge of interrelationship and oneness. I realized that unless this
fundamental interrelationship and oneness is discovered, humankind would inch to
self destruction. Nature was revealing vital pages of her book, leading me to
the simplicity behind the complexity. The inner joy of perceiving certain Truth
of nature, though not complete, was driving me to stand up to the stress of
combined family, yet pursue my search for Truth in the greater interest of the
world we live in, without any external support.
My mother was my source of
strength. She was an ardent Christian, doing her bit to promoting Gospel
teaching. She was a believer in miracle crusades and power of God. Her only
objection to me was that I never believed in God. I was not willing to accept
something unless it becomes sensible and convincing to me. With the realization
of broken foundation of science, I softened my approach to spirituality. I began
to read [not study] Bible, Vedas, Koran, and other Scriptures. But nothing new
struck except those wisdom words, which none of the modern inhabitants in their
materialistic pursuit wishes to practice. I could understand the wisdom and
morality for the order and well being of the various hierarchies of the society,
but could not understand the unseen God. I was not willing to accept the
authority of the priest over me in the name of unseen God and His Judgment.
I could see many parallels in
Bible, Vedas, Koran and other scriptures I read. On my Mother’s request I even
took a central role to build a small chapel dedicated to a saint. I did not
force any one to participate, but just coordinated the human energy, its
reverence towards an unknown force, which makes people fall under a religion.
The effort led to a small chapel that stood apart form other churches around my
place. Most of the churches around my village were built by early migrants as
temporary places and was persisted without any change. The Chapel was built
beyond denomination and in its construction all participated, even a Hindu
family around put their sweat as the youths and the old worked every evening to
the middle of the night to give shape to it. Following this most of the Churches
in and around was rebuilt in competition taxing the pupils.
I was still not a
believer, but an observer and a student. It was interesting to see how a place, a structure attracts people.
They seem to congregate there to download their pains, failures and stress and
strain. Devotees began experiencing relief, small miracles occurred and it
spread through mouth. This small chapel now attracts more devotees, compared to
the huge parent church dedicated to Peter and Paul. I still do not know the
reason, was there a problem in the act of dedication? One must think.
One perplexing aspect about
spirituality, devotee and the concept of God, I noted was that, even the one who
goes to loot, steal, and takes the negative paths makes an offering to God
before he sets forth in his work. The modern day churches and temples I feel
have grown materially through such offerings. These offering speak one thing
that there is some where a guilt feeling and they wish to cover it up. In short
I saw the devil in a man, fearing God. A panoramic view of the society showed
that all the Truths and wisdoms are chained to Bible, Vedas, Koran and exists
prisoner in Church, Temples and Mosques. They are not practiced not even by the
preacher. What is ruling is the material force manifesting as conquering motive
and corruption. The functioning of spiritual places, the judiciary and various
administrative levels and so on I found is full of corruption and self. This
meant the devil is actually is ruling and the younger generations are forced to
grow with this dark truth.
The important thing, I
observed is that these places of worship were transforming into path ways of
power movement. I could compare them as oxygenated area, where deoxygenated
people can exchange their state to be powered to move on. They seem to find some
reprieve from the problem and misery. They seem to get some reprieve against the
pricking consciousness and the weight of wrong doing in their mind when they
offer some part of their negative material gain to the unseen or participate in
religious activity by their mind and soul.
However, there seems to have
no real and lasting change in the people’s life and society. I observed that
people are not becoming self disciplined and cause any discipline to family and
community thereby to various levels of society. They seem to fall repeatedly and
return. The materialistic pursuit is increasing daily and the number of people
with pains and miseries are only increasing. I remembered a short phrase that
struck me from the book of Jiddu Krishnamoorthy. It goes something like this “
We have changed outwardly from bullock cart to airplanes, but inwardly we
have remained the same - ”.
The conquering motive and
corruption [the two negative manifestation of self] are only increasing. People
coming to church are not being liberated or salvaged. No real transformation or
self disciplining is coming to individual life, community and the society. In
fact I saw it deteriorating with time. I began to feel that self discipline is
impossible. I could relate the lack of self discipline to mind and its
attributes. Mind always exist oscillating between two polar opposite and is
influenced by the five senses. With the world growing increasingly competitive
and materialistic, the task was only growing increasingly difficult. My
conclusion thus was catastrophic end to humanity, with mother earth violently
reacting to cause huge destruction of human race. I saw danger not only from
materialistic pursuit but also from our blind religious affinity.
The exchange of power in
congregation of people, joined in one place, under the name of God interested
me. My observation has pointed that no humans can be absolute in all factors.
Any human who is tagged as very good, will have at least one weakness in him and
a human who is tagged as very bad, will have at least one good in him. As a
biologist and an agriculturist, I am also aware that life is a constant struggle
to maintain certain balance in relation to the environment. Both the excess and
lack of element or nutrients turns negative and hinders the growth. I speculated
that when people join in the name of unseen God, shed their inhibition and bow,
they in fact are letting go excess into a pool and exchanging such that some
balancing process comes in to being. Very clearly there is a neutral basal
substance or mediator through which the process is occurring. The basal
substance, the mediator, or God through which the transformation takes place
thus became a subject of observation and study to me. I was still a scientist.
Science tells us that
everything is made out of energy. Particle science tells us that beyond a point
the particles disappears and appears from sea of energy spontaneously. However,
the mathematical approach adopted by Einstein, necessitates no existence of the
medium. Michelson and Morley experiment disproved the existence of ether or a
medium, which was so essential to sensible picture of nature. Forget science,
for it is full of contradictions and paradoxes and can never give a sensible
picture of nature. How can man perched to one branch describe the whole tree?
How can a blind person by touch describe an elephant? Even if a man perched to
a branch decides to be part of the flow within the tree, such that he becomes
free to move to various branches, he is still not open for Truth. This is so
because the tree it self is growing to meet death and also reducing to create
seeds to perpetuate. You decide how to know the whole Truth. I would reduce
to form a seed, for future belongs to the seed, I have done it after moving
around every branch. But tell me how can you convince people perched in the tree
for the tree is growing and there is space for growth till the moment of death
starts!!!
The key to Truth now exist in
Energy. Modern day pursuit has given us knowledge of exploiting energy to do
work. Energy is understood as a ghost, which no one has seen. In this sense it
becomes comparable to God and Spirit. Modern world has attained the privilege
and freedom of using the ghost for his advancement. But he unfortunately has
ended up using it recklessly and in a negative way. Knowledge out to have
brought order, peace security and such aspect that give life, but modern day
knowledge is clearly giving the opposite results. It was apparent that our
knowledge of the ghost or the spirit and there by our knowledge of nature is
incomplete. I found the modern knowledge lacks the interrelationship and oneness
of nature. My study now was focused on knowing the fundamentals of
interrelationship and oneness.
Nature was revealing many
clues. As early as 1990 and 1991, I perceived some possible frame work. But my
mind was failing to comprehend the complete cyclic picture. It was all hazy;
when I try to put one part into order, the other parts seem to break down. I was
feeling near and yet far from Truth. Nature was revealing very simple technique
and technologies in the process of this exercise, which I could have exploited
to make money. Yet something was driving me to focus my mind to seek the Truth
of the Spirit than wavering into material gains.
I came up with a self
appealing explanation to miracle cures in prayer meetings. I even encouraged and
supported few to make it to the retreat center, to get out of habitual self
destructive vortex in which they are caught. Every one is caught in such
habitual vortexes of one or the other form, no body is an exception, even I am
not. I do retreat regularly to conquer them. My understanding of human body was
telling me that, it consist of three parts, the soul, mind and body. I was aware
that it has two basic vortices, one pulling it down, the other trying to pull it
up. The spirit of life works to maintain it self. It moves the opposite way such
that one does not cross the boundary but exist oscillating around the middle.
This Truth can be understood from the design of breath of life and the design of
day and night cycle of energy. However, very often humankind gets caught in one
vortex and inches to self destruction. He becomes incapable of coming out of
this. This I found is related to human existence in the realm of mind and body
than consciousness and the spirit of life.
Humans have mind centered
life than conscious centered life. Ordinarily humans are incapable observing
himself. A mirror needs to be held on to him. The only way to make him come out
of the vortex is to temporarily distance him out of the vortex, giving him
external stability by holding a mirror onto him, so that he recovers to a
balanced state through exchange. The concept of counseling comes from this basic
Truth. The Bible, the Vedas and all those ancient spiritual scriptures, I
understood are mirrors, holding the Truth or Light that is within
and which we are failing to comprehend.
My Death in
Christ’s Spirit
In 1996, my wife, a highly
religious person, coming from a catholic community with many priest and nuns in
the family, prompted me to attend one such well known retreat center [Divine
Retreat
Center in Kerala, South India]. This Retreat center was known for many miracle
cures. At that time I was suffering with acute gastritis, I still do. The reason
why my wife persisted was to find miracle cure and probably many of her personal
wishes. However, I chose to visit it in order to observe the miracle cures. I
went there to check to evaluate my thinking and interpretation about the process
leading to miracle cure. In short I went there as an observer and a researcher.
Before the first day’s
retreat was over, there was some vital transformation in me. Something from my
inner level reminded me some philosophies I read and which instinctively
appealed to me. I always accepted the fact that an observer was inferior to the
participator. A person can study and describe the taste of a mango fruit, but
such description does not carry weight unless he has tasted one. Only then, the
description fires up the person, bringing warmth and make the listener want to
eat Mango. Any talk with out an experience is dead. As I slept on the
first day, I decided to participate first and then observe the spirit
manifesting into miracle cures. It turned to be the golden decision of my life.
The next three classes by the
director of the center, one Fr.George Pannackal, on Gods Love, Forgiveness and
Compassion, was most touching. They were not entirely new to me, my
communication with nature, involved these subject and the opposite. Ever since I
got that deep wound from the priest in whose lab I did my research, my subject
of observation and study was human beings. However, these subjects that passed
my mind never rooted it self. They were just pages, which I turned on in my
quest for Truth of nature and its cyclic existence. I followed the retreat as a
dedicated student. Then in one glorious moment, I stood in total and
unconditional submission of my mind body and soul at the feet of the unseen
power, just wishing to Know Him and His Truth. My body shuddered and I heard a
voice “seek me from the mind of the heart ”. The next several moments, I
was in an out of the world experience. The mind was racing through a middle
path, on one side was the observation and thoughts that was generated though my
quest and my communication with nature on the other was the pages of the Bible,
Vedas and other spiritual scriptures I read. This race of the mind converged
onto Calvary and collapsed. I don’t know how much time I spent in this state. I
was awakened by some one touching my head. I knew I am dead in Spirit of
Christ, I realized I am no longer I am.
The
Awakening to Christ
The elated feeling and
convulsion lasted for many days. I was not the same person I was before I went
to the retreat. I began to introspect about my self intensively. I realized my
research was driven by deep wounds and challenge posed to me by the priest under
whom I began my research career. That hatred was gone. I prayed for him and even
wrote a letter seeking forgiveness unconditionally. In fact I prayed for him as
I was retreating. I began to see him as a golden tool used to lead me to return
to my Fathers Kingdom.
I know I am not worthy of His
Kingdom. Yet His Grace created a path for me to return. I began to perceive
myself as a prodigal son who returned. I as a human, living in flesh bound by
mind and senses I admit I have sinned. It would be a lie, if I were to say I am
not materialistic, I have dreamed to live like a king, traveling and enjoying
the nature’s bounty. But some how when the decision was to be made in every
cross road, I have ended taking the opposite to where my mind wants to go. Thus
my dream to become rich at the time of decision making turned into career in
research to give something to humanity. My dream of joining big institutes and
companies turned into academic research and I gave up opportunity to set up a
biotechnology division for a big company. On the door to academic research, I
threw it up to stay with my consciousness and protest against injustice and
untruth. My mind was swaying between two paths and yet at all turning points it
was collapsing the opposite way where my mind really wished to go. Some one was
in control of me!!
I remember one special night.
With troubles at home, I decided to seek my “self ”. I gave an advertisement in
paper for support, for some innovative projects, citing my experience in
biotechnology. A bunch of companies came forward to support. I met few of them
and made a formal decision to join an energy company. I returned home and that
night I just browsed through a book on paradox of wave particle duality and
began to contemplate on it. I slept and woke at 4 with a possible path to
visualize and get over this great paradox. The joy was much greater than
striking a deal to join a company with a heavy purse. I decided to stay back and
enjoy the freedom of thought and quest for Truth of nature, than allowing my
mind to get entangled in some slot. There are many such experiences.
With my spiritual
initialization, there was decisive twist to the mind. The mind began stabilizing
in favor of the Christ’s Spirit and God. It was dieing in Christ. My
initialization was unique because I perceived the scientific Truth of Christ. I
must admit that my mind still doubted the experience and reality revealed. I was
only a child in this realm. Like an earth quake is followed by minor quakes, my
mind began have re look at it. Every such attempt only brightened the Spirit and
its Truth and I began to die that more. I knew my search has ended.
I wished I would start
studying Bible and preach it.
[I only read Bible before]. I wished to sing and dance and be a part of the New
Age movement. But then from deep within a call began to emerge – No, you
don’t need to study Bible, you are called for a specific duty. I have stamped
you to move the way you moved. I realized there is not much change in my
stand of knowledge of nature except the stamping and filling of the spirit and
revelation how the universal cycle of time is connected. I respected all people
and their religion and their sentiments, but felt that every religion is in
darkness of Truth. I hated Christian converting people from other religions
creating friction. I hated New Born Christians and preachers condemning other
scriptures with out ever reading and comprehending it once. I could perceive
world moving to self destruction in the name of religion and God. I deplored
Christian preachers preaching about
Israel.
Israel, I felt represented the heart. Jesus is the king of hearts and whoever
rests and works from the realm of heart are His people. This I felt an appealing
explanation than a piece of land over which lot of blood is being shed.
Attaching an importance to a piece of land I felt is idol worship. The land of
Jesus birth is like a temple. What good exist if we go to temple and fail to
connect to the sprit and act in the Spirit? Many Christians are turning into
temple worshippers!!!
I wondered why God was
telling me “you don’t need to study Bible, you move the way you moved”. Little
introspection also gave the answer. Bible is a Mirror holding the Truth of God
to the World. Compilation of the Word of God spoken through Christ began 400
years after the death of Christ. Till then it was transferred through mouth.
With it a religion called Christianity began to form, which later split to form
various sects. With it the spirit of Christ began to dwindle, and the inferior
spirit of human and his mind began to rule. It is important to note that, the
power centers of the world determining the fate of human and the world we live
in exist in the hand of Christians and yet they rule the world by the power of
the matter leading the whole to destruction. There is nothing in their action
that can relate them to Christ and His teaching. The heads of spiritual centers
of the world appeared ignorant of their authority and duty. The seemed to
exist in darkness.
Nature and life is stable
between some limits. As it goes beyond the limits the system collapses and
according to the law of thermodynamics it should reform. We are in the end time
collapse and reformation. The Life and creative power of God released on earth
through the sacrificial death at Calvary is reaching its fullness. The new born
experience is transformation through this central power or fire.
The one who climbs the
mountain top has many paths. However, there is only one Thrown in the center. No
body is entitled to sit there except one. This means every new born goes through
the vicinity of this bright light that gives Life. He is forced to move on to
take some position and duty. Thus every new born gets some power to preach,
interpret, heal and so on, so that they can lead more to the vicinity of light.
They all point to one goal
but have different flavors. It is leading to formation of many schools. All of
them are working on the mind of humanity such that it makes retreat into the
realm of heart and soul and meet the spirit – this is the rebirth. This is the
highest aim. But all are not called into this level, that does not mean the others
are left behind. Life comprises of three entities, the soul, the mind and body
and calling every one to the realm of heart deprives the existence of mind and
body. The truth is that, the soul is vital part that gives Life to the world. It
is the world that creates. The mind is the world that perpetuates the balance
and the body is the one in which the soul lives and functions through the mind.
Human mind is split and
oscillates between two points. There are two phases for it, in on one phase it
is active and rules over the body and in the other it sleeps. It is when the mind
sleeps the spirit within the soul works to create order. So the human mind can
never see the Truth of Creativity unless the Spirit reveals the Secret. The
Truth is what every human seeks. But human mind is torn between two Truths, the
Truth of the matter and the Truth of the Spirit. The modern day world is ruled
by the inferior spirit and we live in this reality, human mind is influenced by
it. Its power is growing in an endangering way. Which means humanity in his day
to day life is confused between two polar points matter and spirit. He is caught
in war field between advocators of matter and spirit.
When I separated my “self ”
and observed the spiritual revival, miracle cures and Christ power manifesting
in congregations, I noted, that large majority of people who experienced Christ
are increasingly becoming religious fanatics creating friction. Many are falling
back to materialistic vortex, many returning to the old habits. The spiritual
revival is not only occurring in Christianity but is also occurring in other
religion and the world is tending to confrontation in the name of God. There
is TV war with all the religions striving for space in the mind of humankind.
More importantly the centers of money and power and the power brokers are
failing to comprehend the self destructive path in which they are taking the
world. Their God is Money and Power and they see nothing out side it. They take
every opportunity to exploit the weakness in the public mind to attain power.
They in fact create passions and split human mind ruthlessly to seek their self.
Even the modern day spiritual revival has become an easy tool for them.
Further, I found the temples
of knowledge [universities] and its occupants are not furthering knowledge, but
are furthering their “self ”. They are tied with material gains and are not
working to find Truth, but are selling darkness. They are teaching the art of
exploiting the darkness and weakness of humanity. These temples have become the
market place. The only way to change the scenario is to advance science to
simplicity, such that even a common man understands Spiritual Truth of Nature,
Awakens to Truth and is initialized in Truth. I felt it is important that we
make human mind strong and not easily amenable to splitting and distortion by
the power mongers.
I could clearly perceive a
dichotomy of forces waging war on the mind of humankind. On one side, is materialistic who through all the
available media and technology is distracting the human mind to extract the
wealth and advance their self, leaving the minds highly disturbed and far from
reality. A disturbed mind is the breeding ground of evil. And thus we are
creating minds that are unstable and materialistic, devoid of morality, making
the community and the whole society unstable. We see TV and electronic media
exploiting human mind and its essential weakness. It is being used in a negative
way, they have crossed all the limits. Mankind not only has advanced to exploit
energy through splitting matter but has advanced to exploit energy from human
mind by creating disturbance in it.
In the revival of
spirituality and the entry of spiritualist into TV and other media I see an
essential opposition to our journey to self destruction. I feel the TV’s like
God TV is making vital contribution to the society. The anointed brothers
and sisters, through their power and gift, are working on the minds to bring
them back to their senses. It is working to stabilize the distracted minds to
its root. It nice to see GOD TV, working from the heart of the west, from where
the splitting mentality emerged to the world! It is nice to see millions
attending the crusades of Benny Hinn, thousands hearing and taking notes
in the ministries of Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteem and hundreds of such brothers and
sisters in Christ. It was interesting to see Ron Luce, motivating youngster to
come to their senses to take control of the world. His honest admission to the
actual contribution of America to world and seeking forgiveness on behalf was
touching. It is time America - the big brother to awaken, for all the countries
of the world is following your example.
But the friction and war is
spread even into TV and Media with all other religions jumping into it. Every
body is striving for some space in Human mind. Thus the spiritual revival is
leading to Gods Warriors, giving war cry for mother of all battles in the name
of religions. The world is tending to self destruction in the name of religion
and God. The hope of the world exists in Knowing the Truth and Awakening to
Truth.
When I walked out from the
competitive world of science, a statement from Plato describing scientist
influenced me. It goes something like
this “ Scientist are like prisoners chained to a chair in the mouth of cave,
they see shadows moving on the wall, one can know many aspects of the object
moving from the shadows, but the knowledge gained is inferior compared to the
man who is free to move around”.
Applying my mind to Studying
Bible, I felt is inferior. I decided to leave my mind free and in submission to
the spirit that touched. I felt that if the spirit that touched me is true, it
will cause a growth and show the innumerable faces of one reality. You don’t
need a mirror or posts, if the information to the destiny is preprogrammed and
the programmer is with you. I was not wrong.
The stamping and filling of
the Spirit revealed the Science of Christ. Much before I was touched by the
spirit, I had concluded that our scientific thinking of origin of the universe
from a big bang is completely wrong. I knew the second law of thermodynamics is
a reality. My observation of life and its existence in nature has revealed that
life is anti-gravitational and second law of thermodynamics applied to matter
and life gives stability to nature. I concluded that even the existence of
one living cell can stop the gravitational collapse and the secret of universe
exist in life than in matter. When I began to observe humanity, I found
humanity as an exception and is the cause of all disorder and destruction. His
mind centered life is the cause for the directed time. I realized the cause is
ignorance of interrelationship and oneness. When I was touched by the spirit,
the beauty and Truth of Calvary Sacrifice struck as the Greatest Science. I
realized in Him the Good heart that works to exchange carbon dioxide for oxygen
to revitalize life and Good mirror that reflects the Truth and guides, I
accepted Him as my Teacher and Guide.
Every one who is touched by the spirit is called to do some duty. The duty to
which I am being called was to advance science to higher level such that the
world would understand the Spiritual Truth of nature. I realized that an unseen
hand is guiding me without my knowledge. Lord was pushing me back from where I
struggled to escape and where I don’t want to go. No prodigal son who escaped
from piggery to Fathers kingdom would ever wish to return to the piggery. He
would think twice, even when the command is given by the Father.
Human mind is the culprit of
all disorder and destruction, it is an entangled world that suffocates and leads
oneself from simplicity to complexity and death. It is the war field where good
and bad fights. I was lured the opposite way to die in Christ and know the
simplicity and life. My “self ”was hindering from going back, it was finding
many excuses. I wished to be part of some New Age movement singing and dancing
and praising the Lords Glory and be in the Sprit.
I argued with my Lord,
pleading to him my lack knowledge of mathematics. [the language that the
scientists speak]. I spoke to him about the hundreds of letters I wrote to the
temples of science pleading them to give me a chance to discuss the thought
budding in me and their lack of response and so on. But my Lord said my Grace
is enough for you. It took some time for me to understand this inner call.
But I understood as I stepped aside and began to observe the spiritual revival
and the end to which the world is moving. I knew Jesus and His truth has to
emerge as advancement in science such that it breaks all the barriers of
religion and makes every one free in Truth.
I took my pen and forced
my dieing mind to be active to travel into the entangled paths, so that I can
create paths for others to escape and see the Truth. It was tougher than I could imagine. The world was going
increasingly materialistic with increasing expression of “self” than never
before. The minds are increasingly being trained to be dead in matter than in
spirit. Those who revived in spirit are in fact trained to be dead in religion.
I wish I could sing and dance and Glorify God, than taking this cross.
The speaking of the middle path was turning very tough. I spoke my
helplessness to my Guide only be assured to move on.
Slowly a new daily exercise
began, where in, I think on some branches of science and some related subject,
as I start my work in the farm till I go to bed and get awakened at 4 and
inspired to write some thing. I write and leave it. Initially I tried to
communicate them to Temples of Science, when no response came, I just kept
writing.
In the year 2000 when the
internet became available in a city 100 Km from my village I traveled to learn
to use computer and keep the matter on the internet. When the twin towers fell,
I started feel that something is happening to the world. The images of helpless
people crying out of the window and jumping from it, led me to write letters to
President of America, Prime Minister of Britain, who were now trying to
aggravate human misery, by waging war on terrorism, without being aware of the
fact that the terrorism is the by product of war. I wrote to them that it cannot
be won through war; it has to be won through knowledge and light. I tried
to call their attention to the knowledge reveled to me asking their office to
take some action to evaluate it. Not even an acknowledgement came from the
highest office determining human fate.
I Prayed to God only to be
ordered to do the duty and continue my struggle and wait for time and victory.
In 2002 my Father expired [my mother expired 1991] I knew it is time to hand the
baton to my younger brother and move on. My sister working abroad brought a
house in the city. The children’s in the family were getting ready for the
college. The eldest in the combined family who by nature is brilliant and whom I
put in hostel had failed. I decided to shift along with Children to town hoping
to guide them through their critical period of life. My brother was too eager to
take the baton. I only hoped he would be able to sustain the agriculture, than
cause the fall out of ignorance. I go back to give helping hand, I see cracks
coming up for lack of knowledge, proper mind and self. It is inevitable, but I
have hopes because I am still in command of the future minds in preparation
and in human mind and heart exists our future.
Most important reason for the
shift to the city is the inner call, that it is time to come out to the world.
It was giving me an opportunity to put on the net whatever I scribbled, such
that when His appointed time comes, the Truth exist open to save humanity from
the jaws of death. I know my Lord has a time fixed and plan that is good for you
and me. The destruction and the pains we witness are only means to bring us
close to Him and seek Him in all fervor and in unity. He will achieve His goal
to save us from the jaws of destruction to put us in to Kingdom of God.
I am not sure, how much more
destruction humanity has to endure before humanity opens his eyes to simple
Truth that exist next to his skin. But I know the world will be forced to open
its eye to look at God and Glorify Him. I know my Lord is coming to save us from
the jaws of death. I know my Lord is going to intervene in the nick of time to
save the world from catastrophes, Global warming and
Climate Change. I know my Lord is Creator and sustainer. He has already
conquered time, which means He will also initialize it. I know Him as a
destroyer of the old, to cloth us with new. He is the destroyer of human Ego
such that humanity moves from darkness to light. I am not sure I will be in this
body so see this Golden Transformation, but I strive relentlessly for this cause
over looking my joy, my happiness in this body.
My friends called me mad when
I gave up a lucrative career, my family deplored me when I threw my doctoral
degree and walked home. I know I am mysterious to everybody. The only one who
knows me is Lord. I still live by a small limited purse, which I now have to
seek from my brother and sister, much of which now goes to be on the net. The
job of being a center bolt of combined family, with out the driver’s seat is the
ultimate pain I am enduring. I endure it looking at Christ.
There is a strange
relationship between me and my wife. She loves me very much and I Love her too,
there are no areas where I can complain about her, I fully understand her, but
she fails to understand me. The difference is that I am in spirit and she is not
and thus she naturally fears about the future and uncertainty in which I live,
with out a job, a house, being depended on my brother and sister for a small
purse to live on. It is natural any human will feel uncertain. It will be wrong,
if I say, I do not fear, but there is fire in me which gives power, hope over
every fear and uncertainty. He has not left my purse empty. I remember a time
when I was most pressed for money to pay the bills and had decided to sacrifice
my internet connection only to find a visitor to my site send me a gift 500 US
dollars as a Christmas gift.
My wife is an ardent
Christian, who never misses a Sunday mass. I do not discourage her, but I give
little importance to it. I start my day, with that little prayer I did in the
retreat. I say “Lord I submit to you, my soul, mind and body, my powers and
weaknesses, I am sinner let thy wish be done in me”. I say it through out the
day.
My wife reads the Bible and
leads the Prayer at home. She has marveled at the way I interpret Biblical words
in the context of life and its deeper significance. It comes to me
spontaneously. Does this mean I am superior to her? My answer is no. She is
Faithful, Loving and Rightful. I am a sinner a prodigal son once lost to the
kingdom. Remember Jesus came to seek the sinner. How can I claim superiority
over anybody?
I have not bought a Christmas
or a birthday gifts, I have not taken her out on a holiday or bought her a good
dress since our marriage, except giving a good kiss in the morning. When ever
she is down, I tell her I am in a war front, I can never think to rest and enjoy
till the victory comes. But I must admit for a researcher every page of
revelation is inner joy that relaxes and powers him to advance. Joy is essential
aspect of life, I am getting it as I write every article irrespective of whether
I get appreciation form my readers. I would not have survived with out it. The
greatness of my wife emerges when she is sacrificing her joy to be with me and
yet loving me and waiting patiently for the victory, year after year.
I write this because many of
those who are touched by the spirit exist in hallucinated state; they feel
superior, trying to over ride others. Thus we are ending up making more churches
than before. What will happen to these churches in the absence of Truth? We
already have enough problems with few churches and the splitting mentality. The
New Age Movement is good, I love to be a part of singing dancing and Glorifying
my God along with my brothers and sisters in Christ. All fire is dangerous
unless you have the True knowledge of it. In the absence of Truth the world is
seeing the formation of Gods Warriors crying for mother of all battles and
destruction.
My day starts with small
prayer submitting my self to God and inviting Him to lead me, before I sit to
write. Being in the body, I need to feed my soul and light within, through daily
“self” sacrifice. I spend some time seeing God TV or other program that speak of
God and thus hold the mirror on to me to awaken the dieing mind to work. I make
sure I periodically attend some retreats to renew and power myself to move on. I
do all this because I am human. The middle path is very difficult. When
I look to the world out side, I feel and fall. When I see people holidaying,
moving about in a car, I feel to own one and think of what I missed in my life.
When see my friends and college mates occupying chairs of position in the
universities, heading institutes, I think of what I sacrificed, my mind wavers
into applied aspect which I can exploit to make money. To be honest I have
attempted to move along this path, only to be pulled back. Thus I feel I need
the strengthening of mind not only from inside but also from out side till I
finish my duty.
The power ministries of Benny
Hinn and many more of my anointed brothers and sisters moves me and strengthen
the resolve of the mind from out side that is already strengthened from inside
by His power. The talks of preacher like Joel Mayer, Joel Osteem and many more
reminds me of the communication I had with nature and inspires me to write. I
struggle to awaken humanity to Truth of Christ and see the victory and hope to
enjoy in the Kingdom of God. I Know I will, but not sure whether in this body
or not.
Remember, when I speak of
Christ, it has nothing to do with religion Christianity. To me the name Christ
is a Sign Post and Bible is a Mirror. The Truth exists beyond this sign post
and mirror. It exists in the Spirit and the Knowledge of the Spirit. I do not
wish to stand putting my weight on the sign post. I wish to dissolve with the
Spirit and attain True freedom. I must admit that sign post is important, so too
is the mirror. However, what good do we achieve if we hang around this sign post
and mirrors and fail to march ahead to the destination.
I am reminded of a short
phrase used in my village to describe a man who is totally drunk and beyond his
senses. The phrase goes like this “He has cached the post”. Most of us
who study Bible, Koran, Vedas, end up in catching the post. We end up forming
congregation around the post and loose our senses of action!!!.
Soul, Mind and Body are
essential reality of the Living universe and Life. Saving the soul is only one
part of the job of restoration of the body. Half the part is done when Jesus
revealed His Heart and His Love [The feminine face] and gave free will and
invited everyone to participate in the recreation process. The real restoration
should begin when the Mind of God [the masculine face] is revealed. When
Truth percolates everything in nature, it becomes self ordered and the world
comes to life. This I believe would be the baptism by water. What was liberated
by the fire of the spirit, need to be condensed back into material reality. This
is the plan of God. The New age movement and baptism in water could be compared,
the basic truth of life witnessed in nature. As the sun peaks the water
transforms and evaporates and in time condenses in pure form to give life to
earth. Similarly when the evil peaks the human souls are transformed and
salvaged from the dirt and then condensed back to give life. Through Jesus
Christ the God the creator himself showed the path for transformation of
human soul to New life.
I am sure my readers would
admit that we live in a world determined by the material vortex that is leading
to self destruction. This vortex cannot be transformed unless its limitations
are shown and is evolved to perceive the Truth of the Spirit. The modern
knowledge has sought the Truth of nature in the material world, moving from
macro to micro world. It has failed to perceive the truth in his struggle, but
has ended giving tools to exploit nature recklessly and advance human inferior
“self”. What the world is doing in the name of economic progress is the
destruction of the world. Actual economy and growth exist in conservation of
human mind and its faculties. In contrast the modern economy thrives on
exploitation of mind and its faculties digging its own grave.
By His Grace I have managed
to expose the great secret of the spirit and its Love functioning in the micro
level, its manifestation in the atomic level and between the atoms as gravity. I
have attempted to bring how possibly the spirit manifest into life in a helium
atom and is capable of developing information system and cause evolution. I have
expanded it to show how the universe is living and dynamic and self sustaining.
By His Grace I have deduced some fundamentals on which all knowledge both
spiritual and material can be united.
Concluding My Testimony
Winding my
Testimony, I proclaim my self as a sinner, a prodigal son returning to Fathers
abode. He wishes that not one of his creations to be Lost and thus is appointing
every one who comes to His kingdom to bring others into faith and into the
Kingdom
of God. I am working on His command sweeping and dusting the path, so that my
brothers and sisters who do not feel an internal call, can virtually see the
Golden path to Life and enter His kingdom. The time is running out, the natural
catastrophes both in its magnitude and number is increasing since 2000. Global
warming and Climate change is here for us to see. Even the spiritual revival in
this world that is divided on many religions is posing a great danger.
The only way
out is the emergence of God as Light and Truth that initializes human mind in to
Truth of God. I proclaim that every word of God has creative potential. In fact
I tell Jesus is virtually speaking creation into being on behalf of the Father
God. Let my brother and sisters cut loose from the realm of religion and try to
perceive the deep significance of the words of Jesus Christ. God the Lord is
unfolding the great secret of existence and perpetuation right in front of our
eyes.
By design
humans cannot perceive Truth. We live in the realm of mind and body. Being in
the realm of mind and body is being separated from soul and spirit. This
invariably means death. God cannot communicate to a dead soul. Thus it becomes
primary that God revive the souls and give it life, before He gives His light to
you such that you can take control of your life.
You don’t
have be Christian, Muslim or Hindu to know that we edging to disaster. Knowledge
out have brought order, peace, happiness, security and so on. However, our
modern knowledge has brought the opposite result very clearly indicating that
the knowledge on which we survive is dark knowledge that leads to death. I would
have had no hopes for humanity and the world, if not for the Lord touching me. Today I know He is real and is right beside every one. The darkness can
never Touch Him. He will save the world right from the jaws of death. Not one
will be left behind.
The Second
Coming is the revelation of Mind of God. When He reveals Himself as Light and
Superior Knowledge, the darkness and inferior Knowledge will fade away. No power
centers of the world can stand against the Light revealed, all barriers of
religion will be torn apart. Every head will Bow to it.
What I speak
to you is a science. I have tried to explain it in all articles in different
manner. There is science called non linear science, which tells us that when
systems tend to disorder, a Great Attractor emerges in the system and the system
collapses into new order around this Great Attractor. The Great Attractor is
nothing but, the power of the word of Christ. It is the Great knowledge Lost to
humanity breathing Life back to it.
His Grace
has led to me to show the universe as Living One, centered on Christ. Every body
is well come to debate it. It is my pleasure to defend it as long as my breath
goes.
Calvary is the conception point of the Living
Universe. It is the Big bang point where great gravitational collapse was
averted and new time was initiated. Human soul and mind was freed to seek its
will. Lords mind and soul remained passive and silent. As human quest led to the
boundary and limit, an anti-gravitational collapse became inevitable, the
passive soul and Mind of God became active. What is exploding is the knowledge
and light of Christ that will end in initializing Human mind in the Mind of God
to completer the act. What follows would be the initialization of the body.
Cycle of time goes on.
When the
mind of God is revealed, there will be rush into the fold of Christ. I wait to
see this. I am not sure I will see it in this body or not. But I will definitely
see it. I write this because no body knows the exact time, except God. I feel it
is near by the signs I see.
For those who wish to know
the Science of Christ, I direct them to read article “The
Divine Design ” “Divine
secret”,
Creation Science
An humble
appeal to my Brothers and Sisters Born in Christ
We all know Christ is real and Living.
However this reality cannot take root and emerge into action unless it is rooted
into the mind of Humanity in a sensible way dissolving the duality. Truth of
Christ should emerge and become part of individual, community, society and the
whole world in its day to day life and Thinking. The revival of spirituality,
spiritual crusades, miracle cures, Bible studies, Bible conventions all are
helping human mind to see the path of Life. However the moment they step out
side into day to day life, they are drawn to the material vortex and the mad
competitive existence. This is because the power centers of the world are still
materialistic and the environment it creates is materialistic. Human mind is
forced to survive in two opposite forces more than ever before. This is
manifesting in the formation of Gods warriors in the name of Religion and God. A
transformation from materialistic to spiritual level is a necessity at all
levels. Very importantly a transformation has to come at the power centers of
the world and temples that hold Light to the world. This transformation at the
power centers and Temples of Light cannot come unless the Truth is revealed in a
sensible manner. I know my Lord has called me to cause this Transformation.
I am presenting a Living Universe Theory
that can account for Jesus and His Truth. I am presenting
Calvary and
Second coming as a Creation Science in line with biological Science. Calvary
being the conception of Light [ True Knowledge that Gives Life] and Second
Coming as the emergence of Light, such that everything initializes into True
Light.
I had many people approaching me seeking
the technological side of the knowledge, but none helping me to project the
Truth. One Scientist from an internationally reputed institute wrote that I
should not write and keep my work on the net. I even had an opportunity to meet
him. He seems to have realized some truth in my writing. But he was of the
attitude, that the truth should not be given to humanity, but we should invent
technologies from the knowledge and release part by part, such that humanity can
make use of it, but does not see Truth. But I believe the opposite. The
knowledge of God and Truth is a free Gift, it is not be marketed, it should be
given free. It is light that should be kept open. Much of the problem of the
world exists because of the lack of Truth and Truth needs to be sought and
distributed. I am stuck with this principle waiting for an opening
As a small farmer, struggling against odds
it was a tough task. I have carried this cross single handedly against all odds
to come so for, I hope to carry it till my last breath, there is no way I can
return from this war field. My health is deteriorating, yet that great desire to
see the victory is prompting me to send this appeal to you all.
Some of you who have grown in the power of
Christ and has the influence of men and media should come forward take the
research, have it assessed in the Spirit of Christ and take some steps to spread
it. It is important that the power centers of the world and Temples of Light
perceives the Light that gives Life and Order and take action. Only when action
comes from the power center will the world return to real order and peace. Only
then the world would exalt with Christ.
Individual who read this article, help
spreading it among your friends and bring into discussion in Church.
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