PAIRING : Angel/semi-Darla

RATING : PG14

SPOILERS : very broad Becoming I & II

DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters.

Here I am. Misery walking. Trying to run from a life that doesn’t want me. A life that I can’t have. An existence that’s eating the very core of my being. I’ve been doing nothing since the day I was born. I’ve lied and cheated and taken advantage. And those are just a few of the things, not even the most severe. I look out over the sea of unfamiliar faces and suddenly am blinded.

She’s absolutely breath taking. She’s just walked into my life and I can’t imagine it without her now. I’ve been searching for her. I heard a cry within my soul. It’s wrong to want her this bad. I’ve never had a yearning quite like this before. I want to take her in my arms and pleasure her until the sun comes up. I briefly catch her eyes and melt in them. A sacred gift of heaven, she must be. Her golden blonde hair and wide gorgeous eyes look through me. I know. It’s wrong for me to want her this bad. But for better, worse, wherever, I’ll follow her.

She looks so small, so fragile and meek. And we walk in different circles. I belong in the mud, whereas she is light and everything good and pure. And I would never let somebody break her down until she cried. Never. I’d spend the rest of my miserable time on this planet defending and protecting her.

I’ve wanted someone to share the pain with for so long. Someone I could just be with and have. Someone to tell me everything would be okay. Someone to drown the pain away. At every time I’ve always known that she was there, upon a throne. A lonely queen without her king. And I’ve longed for her, my love forever.

She’s a goddess. Her body is perfection. Her eyes, full and bright. She’s my light, my golden goddess. The person I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. She stands and I take in more of her form. I’d love to feel her heat around me. Her body beneath me. And I’d change my ways for her. I’d change who and what I am for her.

But she stands up and glances at me quickly before walking out the door. I wonder if she knows that she’s my angel. “All of my life, where have you been?” I whisper as the door closes behind her. I wonder if I’ll ever see her again. Probably not because she’s from a different class, a different species than I. But if a day comes when I do see her again, I know we could win.

“I wonder if I’ll ever see you again. I wonder if I’ll ever see you again.” I whisper as my friend orders us another drink.

It’s late now and I can’t get her eyes out of my mind. I wonder if I’ll ever see her again.

I walk out and glance to my side after my friend passes out. I’ll just leave him there because out of the corner of my eye, I see my goddess. I walk into the alley, “I wonder what a lady of your station is doin’ in an alley.” I say as she turns around. I see her completely for the first time and I want to hold her and pleasure her for hours. Yes, please, My Goddess, show me your world.

The End