Okay,

well, at times, even I get philsophical. And I do gotta wonder about some people and things here.

I must say, what a change in the ast month or so. It's funny how despised I was when I first arrived, now, it's almost like these people LIKE me. I don't get it. I ain't changed my attitude none, and I still don't give a damn if I insult someone. Funny how people are...

Then there's the Carazzi's. Three of 'em gone, two remain. Alianna claims she dosen't want anything to do with Alt. Alterio is still as stupid as he ever was. He had one moment of remorse, an' I thought he was gonna change,then he's back to being old Alt again. Oh well. That won't last forever. At least Ali's got a good head on her shoulders.

Then there's the rumor mill. I love it. Me involved with Mags? I think not. I told her from the beginning that it's just lust. I don't want anything more than that, but I gotta wonder if she does? I've always been up front with her. I find her attractive, but I don't want a relationship with her. Oh well, if it comes down to it, I'll just tell her again. This is lust. Not love.

On the other hand, there's Sayber. Why does that girl get under my skin? I'll be damned. I'll have to think on this one. I hate it when she's around, all she does is piss me off. Yet, when she's not around, I wish she was, kinda. I dunno. Maybe I'm just getting old.

Well, I'm glad Vixmion is back. I missed the annoying little imp. I was really hurt, crushed really, when I learned of her death. I love her like a daughter. Alkane's a cute kid too. Well, all I can do is look out for them, 'cause I know how the twins love trouble. They'll keep me on my toes, that's fer sure.

And lastly, after hearing about CJ bringin' her dead uncle back, I dug out something of mine. My old griffin Skyclaw. The urn's been staring at me for days. I want too. I miss the old galloot. Hell, he was young for a griffin. Just big enough to carry me, and still fly well. But I was with him from his earliest days. We would hunt together, fly together, play together. Hell, I loved wrestling with him. He was damn strong. Funny though. He was my constant companion. We used to fly for days at a time, only stopping at night to sleep. we just enjoyed life. I couldn't wait to get up in the morning, wake up Skyclaw, sling my bow on my back, and we'd fly in whichever direction he took us. When he was slain, I was devastated. I hooked up with a mercenary company after my banishment from one of the lands I visited. The company commander asked me to sell my griffin to him. I refused. I didn't know that the commander had poisons. A little bit a day, on Skyclaw's meat, and within a week he was dead. I left the company, and built a pyre, burning his corpse, in tribute to the great companion that he was to me. I mourned for a week, with fasting and meditation. Then I got up and tracked down my "commander". Managed to lure him away from the company, and into a cave. I spent the next week torturing him, slowly, coldly. Did you know how slow you can make a human bleed? I finally ended his torment by hanging him from hooks on the cavern ceiling and spilling his guts. Truly a nightmarish scene for those who didn't commit the crime, or endure my pain. Needless to say, I was changed after that. But I have Skyclaw's ashes. And i have the means to bring him back. Should I? Should I..........

~Journal Entry 9 June, Torlin

: kneels quietly beside her masters chair in the dome as she lays her diary to her lap and begins to write:

My Master has decided it be time for me to have a mate. I think he is wanting me to have companionship when he is away.... Yet he did mention that he thought it time i perhaps had a babe to dote on.... I tremble when I think of having a child I have watched woman give birth and it frightens me... There seem to be a few that have come to my master to speak of becoming my mate I know he will make what ever choice he feels is right...

I was so frightened last eve when Halfdan yelled at tentales and my master arrived it was but a silly mistake but I was sure dear sweet tentales was going to face the wrath of my master... I begged my master to spare him and offered my self for punishment instead only to find my master was joking I was furious but knew better then to say anything....

There was a stranger in the dome last eve I have never seen him before OHHH but he was handsome and I realy enjoyed watching as he sang and interacted with the others in th dome...

As I watched him as he spoke with Lina and the others and when he stretched his muscles rippling I nearly lost my breath He seems to be of a kind nature and so happy and carefree he sang a song for the princess last eve and i was mesmarized....

:: Sighs softly as she closes her eyes and can almost hear his deem bass voice she smiles to herself and goes back to wrighing::

His name was Fierjen Dancing Bear....But as Lina introduced me to him I found my self nearly tonguetied I could barely speak ...I know after talking with him that I could never aspire to draw this ones eye as he made it clear Slavery was not to his liking ...

Then there is tentales dear sweet man that he is.. He has been most kind to me since we first spoke a few days past and he trully seems to enjoy my company... He is a good friend of Lady Tei's and shows me the utmost respect and kindness ...

Then the other one the stranger Vrax he spoke to my master right in the dome offering his self as mate to me.... I will abide my masters wishes and serve whom ever he chooses as a mate I will do nothing to shame my master or to disappoint him in any way ....

:: sits down her diary and wonders who it will be her master chooses and trembles slightly knowing it will not be long as he seemed to be in a hurry to see me bred::

~Journal Entry 9 June, Jasmin-Rose{AC}

::sits at her desk in the cove staring at the black diamond pendant that is usually at her neck as her fingertips brush across it gently. she shakes her head as her brows furrow and she picks up her quill putting it to parchment::

Damn them both! After all this time I learn that I have ANOTHER sister by my "real" ... father? I would not trust just anyone who came to me with this claim, but I CAN'T deny she is the blood of my blood. Hell she looks almost just like me, the distinct elven features, the deep green eyes. The only way one could tell us apart is by our hair color, while mine is midnight black, she has brown. The other reason I can not deny her is, she carries the other half of the black diamond pendant. I wonder what Zyllah will say when she learns of this. I have yet to sit down and speak to this girl about my "father" or where he is. There are so many unanswered questions where he is concerned, he must be the one I take after because I was nothing like mother. I want to know if he was the one behind the death of my mother and zy's father. Should I take this girl into my cove so easily and allow her to get close to me? I can hardly deny her after all this time, but why was she sent here? I don't trust this at all.

::she brushes her fingers through her hair and sighs softly::

I have missed Jasmin so much and finally after all this time I swallow my pride and allow her close to me again. It feels good to have her beside me though. Last night I was re-hired to be her body guard by Alterio. He has no idea that I would do the job for free simply because I care about the girl, but I will take his money.

The stores keep me so busy lately, I barely have time to breathe. I have finally gotten some peace from the men chasing after me pulling me in all directions. Being alone isn't so bad, at least I only have myself to be true to. Although I think about Trey a lot and I still keep a watchful protective eye on Alterio. I will never stop keeping a protective eye on Alterio, I will die before anything bad happens to him. I am so sick of hearing women claim to love him, yet trying to change him.

::she sighs again softly and redips the quill before putting it back to the parchment::

I will talk to Alterio about becoming Mia's tutor, she may think she already knows everything, but I know there are ways to teach without a child realizing they are learning. She just needs the right teacher. I am already teaching crunch how to read and write. I fill my time with things to keep my mind off what's really bothering me.

::she glances around the study then looks back to what she's writing::

I bought Tiger a tiger cub and Black a bobcat. My eagles are doing well and my panther cub is thriving, and so smart. The ferrets are a mess to train but soon they will be excellent thieves. So much too do, yes I fill my time with things that don't really amount to much, but it's best this way.

::she sets the quill down and goes to the couch curling up on it as the guards tend to the animals::

~Journal Entry 10 June, Teiyah

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