Dear Journal,
What a confusing evening last night was. I came into the dome to find everybody in a sour mood and all having a good reason why. It didn't take long for the mood to be passed on to me. It turns out the other night when Attrei told me that he had bedded Lyrias he was only remembering a dream he had! I for one don't have such vivid dreams as that,but it appears that he does. Lyrias was mad at him, not only for saying it but becuase he told everybody, or so I heard. I myself was upset at him for having lied to me, and I was also hurt, but a part of me was happy that it wasn't true.
Also before I came in, Attrei told the dome about Char and Eyas's kiss, Char was really upset with him about that. To make a long story short by the end of the night, the only one who had forgiven Attrei was me, but Char decided to forget about it and she walked to her home with us as we left. I know I told Attrei that I wouldn't be jealous of people, but last night there was this girl there, he says her name is Miranda and she kept giving me a look that showed a combination of anger and sadness, and when Neo took Attrei outside to fight with him, it was she who ran outside screaming his name. She has only just arrived on this island I don't understand how she can be so in love with Attrei already, kindness from a man doesn't mean that you have to fall in love, or lust for that matter with him.
If she persists with this, she is one person who I am going to have to speak to. sighs* Ah well, I suppose I have written enough for this eve I am getting quite tired, tell the quill meets the paper again dear journal.
--Journal Entry, 1 December, Rosalyn Lovine
*Sighs to himself as he sits on the beach and begins to write*
Gods I have made an error again.. How many mistakes must one make in their life.. and me younger than many think though sometimes i guess it shows. I made an error. I mixed up a dream with reality. Once again it has caused me problems.. Tis why i was locked away long ago for a few years and treated like a freak show. Now I have done it again and did nae realize it till it was too late. Gods I hate my life sometimes. Now I have even more mad at me. I have tried to appologize but they will nae accept it.
Lyrias thinks I am a letcher and just wanted to bad mouth her.. but I did nae mean too.. I honestly thought that dream was real.
Mags thinks I am a lier and does nae wish to talk to me any more.. and I truely thought of her as a friend. But I guess Tis nae meant to be a friend.. I hate my life
Dan well I do nae know what he thinks.. just that he will go where Mags goes in decisions. So I guess he probably hates me as well..
And now Chas.. she is upset with me for having the dream as well.. though I am nae sure why. Gods I wish people would just learn to forgive people for mistakes they make
I guess soon I shall nae be welcome here.. More than likely I will anger more people at me errors. I hope nae.. I hope I can find some way to gain their forgiveness.. I cannae buy them anything for forgiveness.. But I hope I can earn it.
--Journal Entry, 1 December, Attrei
~she stands next to Rusher, Paul settled comfortably in her arms, the horse laden with packs for their stay. They've stopped some yards away from Carazzi Manor. She frowns a little, the building looking forbidding on some level. She settles Paul in his sling, struck by a need to make sense of her thoughts before going on. She digs her journal out of her satchel, and writes while standing~
For Paul...for Paul. This is for Sir Paul Lyons, who never got to know his son. This is for everything I owe him. And this is only temporary, a week perhaps, and it will *not* infringe on the raising of my son. I will be with him as oft as I'm able as I have been. Alterio will not be raising my child. Alterio will not by lightening my "burden". This I am doing as a favour. This I still have reservations, but this is result of the sincere words that Paul's heart calls to his son. And so I cannot deny such a call, when Paul has passed so terribly. When Paul is who I owe for everything I've got just now.
~she recalls the paper and shakes her head~
The gossip column...ah yes. Well, if two hours in the evening every now and then, at the request of a dying woman I *will NOT* deny, and a lonely uncle who has lost most of his family and is now in places unfamiliar and lacking everything he worked for on account of my errors, is me pawning my son off on my relatives, then so be it. I spend every waking minute with my son that I can. I have only been parted from him if I must deal with contagious patients...WORK that must be done to make gold to raise a child...and those times Aunt Amy or Uncle Carlin have requested to see him. Times like last night, the rescue attempt, I left him with family then. My healing work cannot stop, not if we're to survive. My son is my life now. My son and making sure of the safety of others. This is how it will be forever more. I've reparations to pay.
I'm paying them. Every night, every day, my son is with me as I do these things. Every moment possible. I will not mess this up, not ever. Anyone openly accusing me of doing so...
Moving on, and if this be a wayward decision after all, I'll leave immediately.
~putting her journal away, she starts forward~
--Journal Entry, 1 December, Jane Maichen
Last eve was quite scary I must say. We go to try and rescue those elves at the volcano and almost got buried alive in hot flowing lava. Alterio suggested I should go back but i refused. The ground started splitting and I, Chas and hmm cant remember who else tried to jump to safety. Chas and the other fell in the hole. I almost made it to safety. Ended up hanging onto a plant that i had just barely managed to grab. Alterio made a grab for me to pull me up but missed and that scared me more. I started screaming, sure that I was gonna fall into the hole and die. Neo managed to grab me and pull me out. Several attempts had been made on Chas to get her out, but they kept missing and she was falling farther into the hole. I chanted a levitation spell, thank gods it worked and she was levitated out to safety.
The volcano rumbling and spewing out more lava and suddenly we see Alianna's body come flying out at us. It hit Jane and exploded into fire, burning her and splattering the rest of us. Alterio tackled her body trying to keep the rest of us from getting burned badly. Gods it was horrible. Luckily I had been practicing my spells and it started raining which put the fire out and cooled the lava as well.
I wanted to Heal Alterio. He was burned badly and in pain although he didnt say anything. The screaming we had been hearing earlier had stopped suddenly but the others choose to go on to the volcano. Alt stayed behind and I choose to stay with him in case he needed me.
With the guard coming back alone a short time later and talking to Alt... Alterio took off towards the volcano with parts of Ali's charred body in his hands. I of course took off after him and then found out why he did. All the elves were dead, cept for one little boy and there was to be one left behind or the volcano would not stop erupting. Alt wanted to drop ALi's parts in the volcano, and Chas wanted to be the one to do it or maybe jump in herself if those parts werent enough to stop it. She hit Alt with her staff and grabbed the parts and started up to the volcano and we followed. All except one , Sarlath chose to stay behind. As the rest of us were going up, suddenly some kinda magic weave lifted us all above the ground to safety just as the lava flowed down and trapped Sarlath. He died Instantly with a smirk on his face.
We didnt have much time left and Chas had to drop the parts into the volcano. Which upon her dropping them, the volcano stopped rumbling and grumbling. The air kinda cleared and we were transported back to the Dome.
"sits and thinks a moment" well this is close enough to what happened. Now Sylver has the little boy. And I finally managed to talk ALterio into letting me heal him. He refused until I told him picking the burns would leave scars. "smirks" I knew that would convince him...
--Journal Entry, 1 December, Vixen
Last night was weird.
I'll start with what happened last. This rude man named Jian was practically insulting everyone in the Dome, being rude. He claimed he was speaking the truth, and even if he was, it's called tact, most people utilize it. We practically had to threaten his life for him to see the folly of his actions. We being Lyrias, Neo, Khalidan, and I. I started to depress my quarterstaff into his throat, but he took it. I gave him three choices then, after he gave my staff back. One, start being nice. Two, leave, if you can't. Or three, keep being rude, stay, and fight. He took choice one, and he started to gain my respect from then on. He has hope here.
But the best part of the night was when I was with Vixen. She actually told me she loved me last night. I was nearly shocked, but relieved. I have loved her for a while now, and now the feeling is mutual. Things are going so great with her, it's unbelieveable. I've never really been this happy before with a woman in my life. Sure, I'm only 27, but I've had my share of women.
On an off note, Vixen did something hilarious last night as well. It seemed she cast a spell that made Neo quite 'excited.' The sight was quite unique, he had to go home and change his trousers. Hilarious.
Anyways, that's all for now. I'll write in you later, I gather.
--Journal Entry, 2 December, Valyndor Lyndrae
:::sits in her Uncle's study, simply having wanted to read a while, taking a break, she takes out her journal, and begins to pen an entry:::
Everything here at the Manor is hectic, what with Yule drawing so near, and Uncle Alterio's planned departure to the mainland for the holidays. Im not sure if he is taking the children with him as well, or if they will remain here, with me. Im sure I will find out when he is ready to let everyone know. In any event, the Manor will still run smoothly, the help know what is to be done, and what isnt.
I wish, however, that Paul were still here, Id have no doubts about the Manor's running. Paul knew everything that happened here, and everything that should not be done.
Speaking of Paul, Janey and little Paul have been here since yesterday. I am glad to see them, and I am glad that she is allowing him to spend time with Uncle Alterio. No one really knows how much he misses Paul. Sir Paul had been with him for a very long time. And faithfully so.
:::thinks about her own predicaments:::
I dont know what to do with Neo. Im not the type of person to keep hurting someone over and over again. I dont want to hurt Neo.
But, our tempers are too much alike, and Im afraid that it will never work out. Ive changed alot since the time back on the mainland.
And, Ben, I dont know whats happening with him. If Im not wrong, I think he's reliving his past. I see him last night, and the first thing he does is storm out at Neo, yelling something about a 'paladin'. Then when I approach him, he kneels and calls me 'My Queen'. You cant even imagine the shock that put me into. Tika is the 'Duchess Flynn' to him, Attrei the 'Jester'. I cant seem to get through to him. I dont know what to do with him, either. Perhaps a short visit to Wonderland? No, I couldnt even stand being locked up, so, I wouldnt do that to him.
Something has to bring him back to the here and now...I hope.
:::thinks about the Shoppe:::
I think its time to start redecorating the Shoppe for Yule. Maybe draw a few people's eyes in that direction. Its been slow since I opened it. I hope business picks up again, soon. I still go there every morning, but, there have been no orders. Im thinking on a few jewelry designs that perhaps I will be able to bring into life.
:::Hears the bell rung for the midday meal, signs her name, and rises, leaving the journal open to dry until after the meal::::
--Journal Entry, 2 December, Lyrias
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