"Conflicting Emotion"
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Stardate: 61013.0545
Ultimately, she had opened her eyes. She didn't know why she did it, but he had been standing over her and saw her do it. There was no turning back, they were open and she would have to deal with it.
Over the weeks that followed, he had come back to see her many times, always finding her whether she wanted to be found or not. For a blind man, he was truly remarkable at finding things. He would sit with her, rarely speaking, and never demanding more than her company. Still, she wanted to smack him whenever she saw him.
When he did speak to her, he spoke of a timeline created out of the ingenuity of the crew of the USS ANUBIS. He spoke as if what had happened was an impossibility, never meant to be, but somehow born despite the Universe's desire for the contrary. She didn't understand him much, Tevra's were cryptic in the best of times, in this case, he was just plain confusing.
As the time passed, he visited her less and less. The emotions that had held her in that other place, death perhaps, maybe only imagination, began to fade. She remembered the contentment, the desire, but no longer felt it. And as the feelings washed away, so did the internal drive to return there, and in it's place she began to feel the motivations that had formerly guided her life.
Slowly, she found herself interested in her work once more. She would notice her eyes pause over the names of people she had once cared about as they appeared on the intelligence reports that had accumulated on her desk. She watched in morbid curiosity, as Maya and Pravat explored each other's company, a pairing so odd that only those that intimately knew the two of them could have ever predicted it. She caught up with Serenna, David, Leah and Susan without ever speaking to them once. Then she did background investigations on all new members of the crew and submitted her approval or objections to Koniki through messengers to the station. She was beginning to get back into her groove.
Still, she had not spoken to Sabrina or Talia, had not returned to their quarters and had yet to catch up on how they had coped while she was "away". When she had finally decided she wanted to check on her child, she instead found herself standing beside Elan as he worked on the computerized entity that had given of itself to save her life. She did not know what to think as she watched him work, she believed in computers as tools, but she knew that for Elan, he had lost a member of his family. There was guilt, a feeling she rarely indulged in, and to quell it, she became determined to keep company with the Oltharian until his family once again became complete. Something inside her made her realise that until his family was once again whole, hers had no business being so either.
And so, Annie's vulnerability became her own, and as much as she loathed the creation, she loathed herself. Until the sparks of life would return to the android, her own life was stilled. She hoped, as she silently stood beside the gentle giant, that he would eventually be able to breathe life back into them both.
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Writing the hopes, dreams and future of:
Lieutenant Commander Enaii - Intelligence Liaison Officer
For one split second she almost turned around 2006 post #180
Setting: USS ANUBIS, Robotics Lab
Lisa Mac Isaac {lisa_mac_isaac@hotmail.com}
USS ANUBIS
But that would be like pouring raindrops back into a cloud
So she took another step, said I see the way out
And I'm gonna take it
~ Wasted Lyrics, Carrie Underwood
