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07/05/02 - All work and no play ... yes, I’m taking a break. It’s the weekend and I’m going to dose myself with equal parts of writing, socializing, decluttering and sleeping. I’m not willing to give any of it up, I’ve just got to do it all ... somehow. I’ve gotten about 4 to 6 hours of sleep a night this week, but I’m feeling pretty good. I think all the physical labor involved in the decluttering, has actually boosted my energy. Socializing has become almost a daily event, although in small increments for now. And the writing ... I’ve become unblocked. Writing to me is a lot of fun. The creative process has lots of elements of play to it. I think the blocked part comes from putting a little too much importance on it. Then the fun disappears, it becomes work. Then I freeze up. Something about my writing has been on my mind quite a bit in the last year. That something was “voice.” My own writer’s voice. Well, I focused some on thinking about that, noting references made to it while reading writing related articles. I must have focused more than I thought I had as my “voice” doesn’t seem to be much of an issue to me now. Not that I couldn’t improve it or anything, I’m sure I will. But I’m not confused about it. And I’ve learned to realize that it’s just not my voice that is important. There are many voices. Each character I might work on has it’s own unique voice. And that’s different from POV, point of view. POV is something I started working on which came about as a sort of off shoot of “voice.” Confusing? Not really. See I’m actually talking about how the mind works. If you use awareness, it benefits you a lot. All this sorting out has come about purely on it’s own volition once the awareness was there. I’ve moved on to something else now ... scheduling. This was another “sore spot hot topic” of mine. How do I manage? How do I make time? Why isn’t there enough time? Seems I’m clearing myself up on that one too, again on it’s own volition. I’m caputuring more of my thoughts on paper now. I’m not having them and forgetting them as much. And, duh, I’m writing more, but spending less time doing it. Improvements will be forthcoming in this category as well. I know, I feel it to be so. And going with my feelings, especially lately, is the only way for me to do it. And since I’ve been talking about writing, I’ll close on a literary note. It’s not really writing related ... I’m sidetracking again. The decluttering process has cleared spaces in my mind, I think. More room to ponder. What’s literary about this quote is the fact it was written by a woman author. And, it was written many years ago. And, it seemed to bring up a sort of paradox. I jotted it down, before it escaped. “Anyone must see at a glance that if men and women marry those whom they do not love, they must love those whom they do not marry.” ~Harriet Martineau, Author 1802 - 1876 Back to decluttering now ... and pondering. |