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Dream A Little Dream ...

07/09/02 -  I sleep when I can. I really enjoy my flexible lifestyle. I don’t have the get up in
the morning, go to work, come home, fix dinner, watch TV, go to bed lifestyle. I
find that a tad boring though it’s perfectly fine for most. If I get a four or five hour
stretch of sleep, followed sometime later with a nap, I’m good to go. I catch up a
little on the weekends. But I sure like knowing I can do some early morning stuff,
if I have the energy. Or get up early and have an enjoyable afternoon, something
different every day. Well, I’m committed to my moving tasks right now.  The last
couple of mornings, on my way home from work, I have driven around a couple
of areas that I think I would like to move to. I went up and down, looking for
signs. Actually, I saw two houses with “For Rent” signs in front. One was a two
bedroom, I don’t know how big the other one was. They weren’t too bad, from the
front anyway. I have phone numbers, next step is to call them, I guess. I’m
probably going to do more scouting this week. That was more productive than I
thought it would be, and it was fun. It’s calm and peaceful in the morning,
showing all the signs of being a great day.

And, it’s cooler in the morning. We’re having a heat wave here. I should have
figured that I would end up dealing with all this yard and garage cleaning during
the hottest week of the summer. It’s 100+ today. Yesterday it was in the 90’s and
will stay like that for at least the next 10 days, according to the weather reports
anyway. I wiped myself out yesterday. I did some heavy work during the hot part
of the day. I never turned the A/C on, it’s just a small room cooler and very noisy.
So, the heat got to me. I can’t do anything about the weather. This is actually
weather I like ... hot. Just watch, it will probably rain on the day that I move. So, I
spent last night at work coming up with a better plan. I worked inside today. And
I turned on the A/C when the heat built up. My mind stayed clear and I was able
to more balance my energy. Hmmm, balance ... think that was something I listed
as a goal at the beginning of the year. So, more awareness, very helpful.

I think I’ve hit the nail on the head with that balance thing, for me anyway. I’ve
been feeling unbalanced a lot lately. Too much of one thing, not enough of
another. I’ve actually found myself starved for conversation lately. This
starvation was making me feel very uncomfortable. I had only started to ponder
this uncomfortableness when it hit me what was bothering me, hit me in a slightly
surprising way. I ran into someone I didn’t know too well and we had a chat. I
had this light bulb moment while we were chatting, I was having fun, really
enjoying it. So yeah, what do you do when you’re starved. I tend to over do, over
eat, whatever. I found myself chatting with everyone, searching for chats, feeling
like I couldn’t get enough. Then I became a bit exhausted. I think I’ve found the
balance now. And, I’m at a good place ... just where I want to be.